Tashan-e-Ishq
I am Twinkle…Twinkle Taneja. Or should I say his broken doll. He was my past, is my present and will be my future till my last breathe. It won’t be wrong if I will say he was only blessing in my life.
It’s all started in class 6. Yes that was the time when that blessing entered my life as my friend. But as time passes by we became bestie. Though we have many friends in our group but still we share the best bonding in compared to all our friends. We have nothing in common he is studious and I am loser who don’t even like to study. As time passes by our bonding become more and more stronger. And now we all are in class 9.
Till now many things have changed I am no more that twinkle who escapes from study and all credits just goes to him. He was only one who brings the best in me. He wasn’t a random guy but he was my human dairy… One that I kept locked with not just by password but promises. He was my Kunj.
I still remember the poem I had wrote for him as friendship day was approaching so just to make him realize how much he matters to me. It was nice to remember how childishly and innocently he was reading that poem.
Flashback shows.
Kunj reading the poem having a cute smile in his face while twinkle is standing beside her.
“I meet you deep down in my life…
When everything seems to be so dark…
But today when I look back into past…
I realized you’re that favorite light…
Which make my life shine more bright…
And you entered my life to make me show…
That everything happens for a reason you know…
You make me look into the future…
When I was getting low…
And Just you made me know…
What I am…I should show…
Trust me bcaz of you only i am here right now…
Otherwise i had died a long back in that flow…
Believe me i am saying what I always wanted you to know…
You made my mistakes to shroud…
And gave me a reason to live…
When I don’t even have single reason to survive…”
Fb ends
Its pleasure to reminisce those moments spent with him. But after that our life took a sudden turns or I should say everything changed but still remained unchanged, noticed but still unnoticed. We passed our 9th with flying colours. But as we entered 10th he started behaving differently. It took sometime for me but then I realized that he had some feelings for me. I use to ignore that as we are Besties. And he also didn’t confessed his feelings to me.
Sometimes he use to send me some pictures. I still have them with me. It was fun to read those pics “Zyada ladte hai aur harr baar kehte hai ki ‘BAAT MAAT KARNA KABHI’ par unhi ke bina ek pal bhi nahi reh sakte”. But those lines are completely true only. Yes we aren’t in any relationship but still we use to talk with each other whole day and night. It’s fun to spend time with him.
I remembered once I asked a silly question to him.
Fb shows
Twinkle and Kunj talking with each other.
Twinkle:- Kunj I wanna ask something.
Kunj:- Ask
Twinkle:- How does a real angel look like?
Kunj:- Just like the one who is asking this question.
Fb ends
And again 7 months passed and with him I never realize the time. Its time to bid goodbye to our school i.e. farewell. We all have to take participate in this as it was necessary. And I decided to sang my favorite “WHAT DO YOU MEAN”!!
But I have never hoped that farewell day will led this to happen. That song which I choosed to sing “What do you mean!!” He had planned to reply me on that. Yes finally he directly confessed his feelings to me.
Fb shows
Twinkle singing the song. While everyone else was hooting on the lyrics. As soon as song ended and Twinkle left the stage. Kunj came from somewhere and took Twinkle with him holding her hand.
Twinkle:- Where are you taking me Kunj?
Kunj:- Wait for sometime. You’ll get to know soon.
Twinkle like a cute baby followed his order. They reached to the backyard of school when Kunj ask Twinkle to wait and eloped from there. While Twinkle was waiting for Kunj. Someone closed her eyes from back. The person is none other than Kunj.
Kunj:-Twinkle. Don’t open your eyes till I won’t ask you to.
Twinkle just nodded. And Kunj sat on his knees.
Kunj:- Twinkle Dekh main ghuma phira ke nahi bolta. Saaf saaf kehta hun jo bhi hai. Dekh main ye kehna chahta hun ki. Mujhe nahi pata ye kab hua. Kaise hua. Kyun hua. Lekin aab jo bhi hai tu meri zindagi bann gayi hai. Tu nahi hoti toh kuch aacha nahi lagta aur tum hoti ho toh tumse durr jane ka mann nahi karta. Ye nahi janta tujhse kya baat karun lekin tumse dinn bhar baat karna chahta hun. Dekh directly bolta hun main tumse beintehaa mohabbat karne laga hun Twinkle.
Without even waiting for a second after confession Twinkle left from there.
Fb ends
I thought that day everything will change. I will loose him forever but no it didn’t happen. As always he managed the situation. He called me and talked just like before. It seems like nothing happened. He knew well how to handle me.
Fb shows
Twinkle and Kunj are seen talking to each other in call.
Twinkle:- What do you mean by all that Kunj?
Kunj:- I mean I love you Twinkle.
Twinkle:- But…
Kunj:- I know Twinkle as per you we are better as friends. Right?
Twinkle:- Hmm
Kunj:- Don’t think much Twinki. I promise I will never make my love to become hurdle in our friendship. I won’t allow my feelings to overcome my priority which is your happiness. I won’t ever force you to accept my love. But I will always love you only. And I hope you’re comfortable as friends. And am sorry if I hurted you.
Twinkle:- Tum itne aache kyun ho Kunj?
Kunj:- Bcaz I have you in my life.
Fb ends.
Nothing changed between us. But with time our friendship increases. He cares for me so much. He was my half boyfriend. We are meant to be with each other. Nothing and anything can change the things between us. With the time his care for me increased. He never let his love to overpowered in his friendship. His smile the symbol of that unconditional love was only the thing which use to make me happy even in worst situation.
He was perfect and the best friend that no one else can have. As he was just one piece in this whole world.
Rather I should say he was my soulmate. It tooks me sometime for realization but yes I realized that I also love her. Love the one who always brings smile in my face. The one who changed me in all aspects. The one who loves me unconditionally and unexpectedly.
That day we are talking to him when I was about to tell him my feelings for him.
Fb shows
Twinkle:- Kunj I want to tell you……
Kunj:- Twinkle I will call you later. Bye.
Twinkle:- Kunj..
But the call was already disconnected.
Fb ends
I didn’t knew that his “I will call you later” was going to come never. Earlier my phone used to ring alot due to him and I used to get irritated but now I just waits for one ring from him to talk which is never gonna come.
Yes I loosed him forever in an accident. I loosed him on that day only when I realized my feelings. I lost the one who was mine. Now all the time my wet eyes eagerly wait to see those smile which use to make me happy even in worst situations but I had lost it. Now all I have is his memories and dairy.
Yes a dairy which make me knew While I was ignoring his feelings I forget that I mean the world to him.
In that dairy I read a line by him “I WISH I COULD IGNORE U…LIKE U IGNORE ME…. BUT I JUST CAN’T!!! ” that broke me into tears.
Now I just think how our destiny made us A PART of each other and how it also made us APART. I just want to tell I love you and will always do till my last breathe. But in the world full of temporary forever he gave me his final goodbye.
I somehow controlled myself and added one more Shayari in his dairy which is going to be published soon.
Chahe tum paas ho ya na ho…
Main marungi teri chahat pe…
Tum saath ho ya na ho…
Main jiyungi teri mohabbat se….
Mana kismaat ne kar diya humein juda…
Magar ek na ek dinn hum jarur milenge phir jannat mein…..
From talking to him about moon to talking to moon about him. “US” left behind.
THE END
No one knows when the last goodbye is. We feels like we have enough time but sometimes we just have limited time to spent with the person. Don’t know when you’re talking to the person for last time. No body knows if you can never meet or be able to talk the person again. So don’t waste any moment that you can spend with the one whom you love. Not everyone is lucky to live for years. Not everyone is that much lucky. A prank played by destiny beyond our thinking. We never know how destiny makes people a part of it and how to made us apart from them that too when we can’t even think of living without that person.
The end…….