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Kunj Sarna POV
Life is unpredictable atleast mine is. I have surely imagined my happily ever after with twinkle so many times but with the passing time it was becoming an distant dream. But dreams do come true may be a tad bit late but they surely do.
I never thought I had it in me to love someone to the point that it hurts to even picture a future without twinkle in it.
I thank my lucky stars everyday for sending her in my life.
She is the only thing which keeps me sane during highest highs or my lowest lows.
She is a source of strength and happiness for me and it shows. Every person who knows me on a personal level tells me about how my face lights up when I see her or how my smile never leaves my face whenever I am talking about her or how much whipped I am for her.
I love her for who she is with her flaws and imperfections. No one is perfect but twinkle for me is perfect.
I usually annoy her by singing the perfect song by ed just to let her know how much she means to me. But tone down my feelings into a funny ambience just to not scare her off with the extremity and depth of my feelings for her.
I sometimes think that may be she won’t ever feel more than just liking for me because as much as I know her extreme emotions scare her be it anger sadness happiness so she often sticks with her blank look.
But I am holding on my dear life with a hope that may be one day. One day we’ll be on the same page of our emotions.
The day when she told me that she likes me and feels something for me I was happy but shocked nonetheless.
Because she never admits about how is she feeling. She is not expressive even her eyes stay blank she has an extreme control over her emotions and it’s her strength.
And it scares me that she keeps bottling up her emotions it’s not healthy.
Somewhere deep down I had some doubts about her sudden confession because as much as it makes me happy it scares me that may be I am missing out on something which can cause trouble for my heart.
But for once I let my heart overrule my mind. I am going to trust twinkle and let her set the pace of our relationship the way she wants because I know myself I often f**k up the best moments of my life.
I am letting my guards down for twinkle completely. I am trusting her with my heart and just hoping that I won’t end up heartbroken.
Since that day things between me and twinkle were going smoothly. Just the way they used to be except a bit longer eye locks , holding hands, hanging out a bit more , staying up a bit more late , parting hugs, saving up a place in the food mess. Such small gestures were a bit more prominent than the usual explaining the greater step toward our relationship.
I really thought we were discreet with our advances that no one noticed but I was wrong the suspicious stares from my friends were raising up the bar of my anxiety.
I even talked about it with twinkle but she wanted to remain under low profile.
I let it the way it is not confirming anything but it’s been almost 2 months now and I don’t really have a problem with sharing the news with my friends cause I trust them and I know they’ll would be more than happy about the news because each and everyone knows how I feel about twinkle and they’ll respected my privacy and never disclosed it in front of her. Never teasing me in front of her or setting us together.
But they surely tried their level best to get me in her good books and those ideas and situations are embarrassing as well as really funny and I can’t help but be irritated with thier plans and low key admire all of them for thier efforts.
Twinkle too have the same friend circle as of me except few and she really adores them all but i don’t know what was stopping her from disclosing this situation with them.
Even though she tries to assure me that she just needs time and don’t want unnecessary attention I can’t help but feel that something is off with her. May be I am just being paranoid for no reason at all as I should respect her decision not get repulsed by it.
But the tiny insecurities leaves me in a confused state with a constant debate in my mind of her not wanting to be seen with me or of her not being happy in the whole situation.
But somehow I controlled my racing thoughts before doing anything stupid in front of twinkle. I can’t let my insecurities and doubts get in between us destroy what we have built so far.
It was the day of the Sahil’s birthday by best mate since school days. Somehow fate kept us together and our bond just got stronger with time. He turned 29 so he wanted to throw a party stating that this is his last party in his twenties and he wants to end up thus phase of his life with a bang. As he states
So after the office hours it was decided that the party would be in his newly built house near the base area which was quite convenient for all of us.
I somehow managed to convince twinkle to come with me in the party reason being I didn’t wanted her to be alone in the night I know she is more than capable of taking care of herself but you can’t convince a man in love.
I pulled infront of her apartment and honked after a good 20 seconds I heard the click of doors I raised my head up to see her but I froze in my place.
Twinkle looked so beautiful in her red lace dress with thin straps around the shoulders. With her hair down and minimal make up she looked eternal. I was awestruck by her beauty and elegance. She was wearing heels which was something really new I never thought she ever owned a pair of heels.
She was holding a coat in her left hand and was busy setting the keys of the apartment in her golden clutch. I was at loss of words when she waved at me and smiled and slid inside the door with buckling her seatbelt.
I was still staring at her with adoration and love and all the feelings i felt for her somehow trying to convey them with my eyes.
I decided to snap out of my trance before I creep her out.
I held both of her hands surprising her and raised them to my mouth and placed a chaste kiss on each of the knuckles.
“You look so gorgeous twinkle I can’t take my eyes off you”
And she visibly blushed at my comment and just murdered a small thankyou.
Twinkle was shy infront of me and that was something new.
So decided to take up the chance for once
” You are really planning to kill me tonight don’t you , do you even know how much tempting you look in this dress” I teased her and twinkle turned the shade of red matching her dress.
“Kunjjjjj” she whined signalling me to stop teasing her and she was uncontrollably blushing.
My thumbs were rubbing circles on her both knuckles
” Twinkle you really making this hard for me right now I just hate the fact that more guys are going to see you in this dress looking so freaking gorgeous” and I do mean it because I know how beautiful she is and she is going to gain some attention tonight.
Even though my jealousy is prominent but it also pumps up my ego and esteem that I have such an amazing and breathtaking girlfriend who is exclusively mine.
” You are exaggerating so many girls are going to be thier no one would notice me except you” she explained shyly still blushing a bit and trying to control her smile
“Trust me babe the situation is going to be other way around but right now we are getting late so let’s proceed” I said while kissing her knuckles again
I knew she surprised with the endearment I used for her and i don’t know if she appreciates it or not but the shy smile on her face tells me otherwise.
I start the car and twinkle settles with gazing outside with a sly smile on her face and my situation is no different.
I have this sudden urge to kiss her to hold her but it is taking every fibre of my will power to stop myself infront of her. The chemistry between us is undeniable and the urge to kiss her remains stronger
We had our almost kiss moments but every time something happens or the situation which never allows us. My luck surely hates me sometime.
” Waise kunj you too don’t look bad yourself ” she said still staring outside and my smile just grew broader.
I was wearing formal darkest shade of brown pants with a crisp black button down shirt tucked inside my pants with the first button open and rolled up sleeves till my elbows. I just looked fine nothing special .
I glanced at her and she too glanced at me and we both smiled. I feel like a teenager again on getting attention form my crush.
I took her hand in my free hand entwining our fingers and letting them rest on my thigh.
I sent a glance at her to see any trace of discomfort on her face but just finding the constant shy smile on her face I took that as a yes and continued our journey.
In no time u was parking my car in the provided space while twinkle was already inside the building as I told her to go inside cause I knew she is still hesitant to be seen with me and I am going to give her space and the time she needs because our moment in the car was enough to keep my mood bright for the party.
I stepped out of my car and checked again if it’s locked or not. After checking I made my way inside the building and was nearing the elevator when I saw twinkle still standing there clothing her coat tightly in the chilled atmosphere. To say I was surprised would be an understatement cause I expected her to be already inside Sahil’s house.
I strode towards her as fast as I could
” What are you doing here I thought you were already inside ”
” I was waiting for you ” I happily surprised a surge of warmth spread in my body and smile took over my features.
” But why I told you to go inside its quite cold outside”
” I know but you didn’t took so long and we are here together so it’s better if we go inside together too” she explained
” You know why I told you to go ahead” I countered
” I know you are respecting my space and decision right now but that doesn’t mean we can’t arrive together we are friends before anything else and it won’t look suspicious ”
Twinkle knew I was trying for her and she thought to help me ease up my doubts filled me with happiness and joy.
” You’re right let’s go before we freeze to death ”
She chuckled and joined me inside the elevator.
The party was in full swing I met many people some school buddies some with whom I was posted once. The vibe of the party was really nice. And his house is really nice and spacious the home we all need in our life his long time girlfriend ananya renovated the whole house and designed almost everything in the house and she did an excellent job being a interior designer.
Twinkle was with her girl friends while I was with the guys sitting on the sofa with soda can in my hands. I don’t drink I really don’t like the smell of alcohol plus I can’t handle it the one time I tried it on my 18th on Sahil’s request I ended up puking my guts out in the hotel washroom.
I glanced at twinkle she was laughing at something her friend told and in that moment she looked so beautiful I couldn’t take my eyes off her and thinking how did I got so lucky.
Sahil and Nitin my other really good friend tapped my shoulder and looked at me with questioning eyes.
” What !?” I asked tearing my eyes off her
” That’s what we are asking you about what’s going on between you and her and don’t deny it cause I can feel you are hiding something” exclaimed Nitin with sahil agreeing with him with nod
For a moment I thought of sharing it with them but then again it would be not fair on twinkles part and I can’t do anything about it right now.
“There’s nothing going on between us you guys are just miscalculating everything okay ” I lied through my teeth and felt horrible after looking at thier disappointed faces.
Sahil shook his head and smiled slightly
“We trust you kunj and we care for you that’s why we are asking you about it and you can take your time just remember we are there for you” I smiled at him sadly and nodded my head and I knew sahil is not going to stretch it further.
Nitin decided to break the silence
” Ay sahil when are you popping up the question it’s high time don’t you think. Ananya has been with you since high school how much are you going to let her wait for you”
And it’s true sahil and ananya are the high school sweethearts thier love story is something worth remembering they always stood together with each other and always so much in love. Ananya sacrificed her job in the US just to be near him and he was really upset about her missing out on such a big opportunity cause of him. But somehow they managed through all the hardships and difficult situations and there bond became more stronger.
” Well guys I was going to share it with you today ” sahil said while showing a tiny box from the inside of his blazer rather nervously
“I am going to propose to her tonight and I am really nervous I don’t know what would be her reaction” he said nervously while scratching the back of his neck
As if she is going to reject him that women is in head over heels in love with this man. She would never in her worst nightmares reject him.
” Don’t be a coward and just do it I am more than sure that she is going to accept it ” Nitin said while hitting his forearm.
” I hope so ” sahil murmured to himself
I understood his inner turmoil and just squeezed his shoulder to go for it. He smiled and I too smiled back encouraging him .
Later that night sahil finally got some courage and went on his knees and popped up the question and to say ananya was happy would be an understatement she was ecstatic bubbling with happiness and eyes filled with tears.
The rest of the proposal followed by emotional exchange of feelings and heart felt kiss.
I admired them form the distance just hoping that one day me and twinkle are going to be this much happy and this much in love with each other . Even though this is a arrange marriage I want us to be in love with each other throughout our whole life.
I went inside the kitchen to grab another can of soda but stopped when I saw twinkle outing herself a drink in one of the cups.
I cautiously tiptoed beside her and yelled in her ears from behind followed by her low scream and her leaving the cup unfilled spilling some of the drinks over the shelf.
I boomed with laughter at her reaction she turned around with a murderous stare and murmured a ” I will kill you” and started hitting me with her hands on my arms and biceps.
I somehow managed to control my laughter as well as her advances and reversed our position so that my back was touching the corner of the kitchen shelf and her being hands stopped in mid air by my hands.
” Leave me kunjjjjj ” she said struggling and I again laughed at her struggle
” I swear I will kill you how could you scare my like that ” she said huffing clearly irritated and started struggling again
” Your face was worth everything ” I again teased her and she struggled again.
” Leave me kunjjjjjj” she again tried to remove herself from the grip and I pulled her close to me. Her breath hitched at my move and she stared in my eyes with her lips parted a gasp leaving her lips.
i stared into her hazel eyes amazed by the beauty of the orbs.
i removed my hand to only place it on her waist to pull her more close to me.
at this point I don’t know what I am doing but I am just letting my body coordinate with my heart.
my one hand was secured on her waist and I traced my other hand from her hands to her nape lightly touching her skin. She clearly shuddered under my touch and I internally smiled knowing that I have such effect on her.
i cupped her jaw and the back of her head with my thumb pressed against her cheek and slightly caressed her soft skin and feeling my touch twinkle looked at me with her hazel eyes mesmerising me
i tilted my head advancing toward her lips giving her time to show some sign of discomfort and allowing her to back off but when she didn’t my gaze flickered to her luscious lips and I couldn’t help but leaning towards them.
twinkle closed her eyes in anticipation and I placed my lips on her softly.
every fibre in my body felt alive at that moment when my lips met her soft and pink lips. My whole body felt a wave of electricity and connection at that instant.
fireworks exploded in my stomach setting my whole body on fire and burning in the passion of the moment. Twinkle shuddered under my touch and I tightened my grip on her body pulling her close to me and slightly moving my lips on hers and to my relief twinkle too responded with equal passion. She clutched the fibre of my shirt near my abdomen in order to stable herself.
our lips moved in sync and the chemistry was undeniable and I was glad she too felt it. I broke our kiss to look at her to trace any sort of regret or doubt in her eyes but I only found adoration satisfaction coated with a layer of lust. Mirroring her expression I quickly changed our position setting placing her on the kitchen slab with her legs dangling and me standing between her legs.
i again cupped her face and placed my lips on hers again with urgency and hunger that I felt at that moment the passion and tension was too much to bear the only thing mattered right now was twinkle and us.
this kiss was a bit rougher than the first one because of the feelings burning my veins I couldn’t help but to kiss her the ferocity which even amazed me.
Her lips felt so good against mine and I almost moaned when she crossed her arms in the back of my neck pulling me close to her.
The kiss felt so good and the tension was building up in the air drawing me close to her. Twinkle moaned when I nibbled on her lower lip and this encouraged me more to keep her close to me moving our lips perfect sync.
But I was just too focused on twinkle and the mind blowing kiss that I forget and I am sure twinkle too forgot that we are making out in Sahil’s kitchen even before the realisation hit us the shocked gasp of nitin and the clattering of glass hitting the floor was enough for us to know that we are in trouble .
To be continued
I know it’s been a while again but I really couldn’t help it but now that I have completed my school and got admitted in my choice of college I am finally updating
I had this written back in may but was this busy to not even open the site at all.
I just want to say I haven’t read any latest ffs but loving again by morusya has my heart really you go gurl
And shalini Di do message me somwhere if you can because I cannot find anything about your contacts or anything I don’t even know if you remember me but i love your updates just read the latest one and I loved it do post soon and lengthy.
Baki wish for me yll i am leaving for my university on 31st and i am going to say in hostel so wish me luck and strength.
I’ll try to update soon
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