Helllloooooooooooooooooooooooo to all my dear readers…. So how are you all?? Hope you all are happy seeing me back.
So without any more bak bak lets start the episode.
The sun was rising and it seemed like the very next moment it was setting. The rain was drizzling. The flowers were blooming, his breath was still going on, his heart was still beating. The life was moving on. The river was still flowing and there were still tides in the ocean.
Everything is just as it was, but was it still the same for Sanskaar ??
NO. a big no. there was nothing same in his life. His mom was not here to take care for him, his father was not here to give him some advice, his small sister was not here to make him smile.
And the most important thing. HIS PRINCESS, she is not here, to hug him, to wipe the tears that are flowing from his eyes continuously, to soothe him with her words, to tease him.
Where are you SWARA?? His heart was screaming this question again and again. Where is she?? Is she alright?? What’s she doing?? What might she be eating?? Where is she living?? And what if the doctor’s words were true?? No no he can’t even think about it. There’s no way she is going to leave him.
If only he would have been more sensible, if only he would have not let his ego come in between them, if only they would have sorted out this matter.
He sighed thinking all this, his thoughts drifted away to that fateful day when she left him, FOR RAGINI.
Mumbai :
Swara was sitting in the balcony sipping some hot chocolate. There’s no need for me to tell about whom she was thinking.
There’s only one person in this world around whom all her thoughts revolve. Only one person who could make her feel weak in her knees just by his gaze. Only one person whom she observes to the core about whom she cares the most.
Yes that day one reason for her to leave him was RAGINI.
Ragini was a really weak person from heart. That day if she would have not been with her then she would have surely taken some wrong step.
But was this the only reason for her to leave him??? Naaah…. It was SANSKAAR too.
Her mind drifted back to that day… the day that changed her life completely.
Even Sanskaar is thinking about that day… just imagine guys that both swasan are thinking about that day together…..
Flash back :
Swara had already taken the risk of putting the gun at her forehead.
It may sound stupid to others, they may think that she is mad to do all this. To risk her life for the people who never did cared for her, for him, for them.
But still she wanted to prove him innocent and in the heat of moment she couldn’t find a way better then this.
But luckily she was saved. Sanskaar had already said that whether he comes back alive or dead, their relation is over. Like seriously how easily did he say this THEIR RELATION IS OVER. For which they fought so much, they craved to be united with each other and now is it so easy to say that it’s all over.
‘then what’s the reason for me to be alive, better I die after uniting him with his family, at least he will get everything back in his life. He will forget me like a bad memory’. She smiled sadly thinking this to herself.
But then came that tragic moment which she thought would never ever come in their life.
Everything was just revolving round n round in her mind.
Laksh missing, ragini’s cries, badi maa and bade papa accusing Sanskaar, mom’s taunts to her, and at the last sanskaar’s words.
His bitter words…
‘Whether I come home today alive or dead. OUR RELATION IS OVER. You are none to me swara, none’
Swara opened her closed eyes breathing heavily. She wasn’t in a state to decide anything, ANYTHING.
She was a human after all. Her mind got numb. Unable to think anything, rage surrounded her as his words finally hit her mind.
Swara : bassss…. Enough. Where is laksh Sanskaar?? [she asked in a calm voice]
Sanskaar was craving for someone’s trust and here his love, his life, his swara. When she asked this question to him he was half broken, sadness, loneliness and guilt began to cover him.
Sanskaar : [broken voice] sw… swara.. even you.. you are doubting me.. i…. I really don’t know where he is.. why will I lie…. He.. he… he is my brother….
Swara : [blinded by anger and sadness] I don’t know anything Sanskaar, you have to bring laksh back that’s it.
Ragini who was sitting at a place crying stands up.
Ragini : [weeping] maa papa.. I can’t stay here… laksh ji’s memories keeps haunting me here. Please take me from here.
Ragini had always been swara’s weakness. She forgave her in her every single mistake.
She had to leave Sanskaar and go with her during their first night too. On the day of their marriage.
Swara : [sternly, masking her emotions, broken voice] wait.. ragini.. until Sanskaar finds laksh even I will stay in baadi.
Listening her sanskaar’s whole world came crashing down. His eyes turned glassy, his hands formed in tight fists.
His eyes turning red.
Swara’s condition was no less then him.
IF WE ARE HURT BY OUR LOVED ONES IT HURTS SO MUCH, BUT IT HURTS MORE TO DELIBERATELY HURT OUR LOVED ONE.
And that’s what swara was experiencing.
She was choking her own words but still controlling her feelings.
She was barely controlling her tears.
Swara : I will return to mm as sanskaar’s wife only when he finds laksh. Till then I will not be staying here.
Sanskaar’s eyes turned a shade darker hearing this. His anger crossing all his limits.
Even he had seen enough for today. First hearing all the rubbish that stupid laksh was speaking.
Him going missing, swara’s words, his family’s blame.
Every person has his/her limit. And both swasan’s limit was crossed for that day.
Both of them had let go off their patience and were blinded by anger now.
Sanskaar : [sternly] okay swara, if you have taken this decision, then I will not stop you from going… [hardly speaking] but if you cross the doors of this house today, then you will never return to this house as my wife.. as MRS SWARA SANSKAAR MAHESHWARI.
This came out as a blow for swara. How could he say this…. This was the second time in this one day that he was staking their relation, was it so easy for him to say this…. To let him go…..
How could you Sanskaar?? Was the only thing her mind was screaming to her……
But then again anger blinded her eyes.
Swara : okay Sanskaar, if this is your final decision, then I will not stop you from doing so… I am going… GOING FORVER……
Flashback over…
Swara opens her eyes with a jerk remembering that day.
She was so blinded by her anger that she was unable to take the right decision.
When one of them was being immature the other one had to handle the situation with ease and maturity.
And both of them failed doing so.
Their relation was over now….. this was the only thing she kept saying to her mind again n again……
Ahmedabad :
Sanskaar was sitting there totally blank…. His eyes red by crying.
He so wished that he didn’t do that stupidity that day.
He… he .. just wasn’t able to think where all this was leading to..
It is easier said then done.
He told her that day that their relation was over.. he told her many times that he hates her now, she means nothing to him… but what does this lead to now.
He meant nothing from it but…. All that she took by heart….
And now he doesn’t know how to convince her.. how to find her…
Come back swara…. Please come back……
Huff…. Guys am stopping this part here…
I know this is the worst thing I have written till now…
Well I know this story is not good enough to read that’s why am getting such less reponse on it…
But to all the readers who are reading this story..
Am not going to leave it incomplete coz this depicts my swasan’s pain.. especially swara’s pain..
So I will complete it..
Maybe 5-10 parts maximum..
And wil continue if you people like it…
Guys a sincere request to vote and comment on any swasan ff you read not only mine…
Nowadays there are really less comments on swasan ffs…
Please guys we have to keep swasan alive.. we could not save the shoe but at least we can keep swasan alive in this way…
So please writers do write more on swasan and readers do comment more….
Am really sorry for this extra boring part…
Meet you in the next part till then bubye….