HER PAIN.. ( won’t go back to him) (part 8) by Neptune….

Helllllllooooooooooooo guys…. so am back with the next part of her pain..

Am sorry for being late.. and especially sorry to adishu for making you wait for this long.. but I have college, hostel and studies to manage..

So without wasting anymore time.. let’s Start with the update…

swasan were still standing there hugging each other tightly.. sanskaar just burried himslef more n more in her neck.. his eyes were moist but still a wide smile was playing on his lips..

as his mind finally believed that it was TRUTH.. it was truth and not a dream again.. he hugged her as much as tight as he can.. not even allowing air to pass between them..

but swara’s condition was surely not similar to his.. she too was hugging him tightly as she pulled him more n more closer… she smiled at first finally meeting him but the suddenly her expressions changed..

her smile faded and heavy tears began to fall from her eyes rapidly.. she clinged to him more tightly as she tried to control her loud cries.. but how could sanskaar not hear his love’s cries…

he separated himself from her only to be shocked to see her crying so miserably…  he quickly cupped her face bringing her more close to him and began wiping her tears as they flew more n more freely now…

she separated herself from him pushing him behind nodding in a no continuosly…

sanskaar : [trying to move towards her as she was moving behind] swara…. swara.. no.. no.. jaan please please don’t go away from me… no.. swara please…..

his voice was just a mere whisper now and it cracked in the end seeing her moving away from him…

swara : [her voice a mere whisper now] no.. no… please… no… please don’t come near me… i… i will hurt you… i will hurt you again…..

and she ran out of the cabin leaving sanskaar utterly in a shock..

His wide eyes showing utter shock… something was breaking in him.. he was feeling at loss in something…

He sat there closing eyes reminiscing what did just happen now..

Why was she behaving like this?? Why was she so weak?? Why was she so broken???

But all these questions just remained in his heart unanswered…

He took a deep breath and stood up to go…

As he went out..

He saw swara talking to someone on the phone and walking very fastly..

She was almost running.. looking at her he could easily guess that she was really tensed..

But where was she going in this much hurry…

He ran from there trying to follow her but before he could reach her she quickly sat on her scooter and zoomed off from there..

Evening…

Swara’s apartment…..

Vraj was sitting there on the sofa in a tensed state..

In the afternoon after swara had departed there was no news of her…
He was really worried about her..

And also he came to know that swara and Sanskaar met each other..

He knew that now it would be more difficult for her to control her feelings, her fears and her unshed tears..

How much he wanted to unite both of them.. but swara had given him her swear and now he could do nothing but sit there and let the destiny play it’s game…

After more then 15 mins swara arrived into the apartment looking really tired and upset…

She was looking really worn out…

Her hairs were messy and she was really tired.. her eyes were almost drooping…

She came and sat in the sofa and drank water that vraj had fetched for her…..

She was avoiding him wantedly.. as she knew that he would again start the conversation of them (swasan) to be united…

Vraj : swara nothing will happen how much ever you avoid this question and this conversation.. this is the question of your whole life dear… you love him and he loves you.. just because some issues some problems came between you both doesn’t mean that your love has faded… please think calmly dear…. please you both have to reunite…

The tears swara was controlling from the time she came to home started flowing freely from her eyes…

Swara : (choking on her own words due to tears) I… can’t.. I can’t… every… everytime.. I.. I think of going.. going back to him…. those memories…. those memories haunt me…. the guilt.. the guilt… of hurting him haunts me… I can’t.. I can’t.. it’s… it’s not that I don’t trust him.. it’s.. it’s just that I don’t trust myself anymore… I.. I don’t know… like… like everytime.. I take some decision… people think it’s it’s wrong.. so when every decision I take is wrong.. it’s .. it’s just because I want to become mahaan in others eyes then no… no let it be.. I won’t take any decision now onwards… and… and about sanskaar… then I… I.. have hurt him enough.. now.. now not anymore.. if .. if .. I go back to him.. am afraid that I will hurt him more.. and I .. I don’t have the power to bear any more guilt… so I I won’t go back to him….

She went away from there…

Precap: sanskaar: all your fears are worthless swara… all your fears are worthless until am there with you… enough of our separation.. now not anymore.. we are born for each other… and we will REUNITE for sure…

Huff so guys.. for today please bear this small update as am little busy today… I promise the next one to be longer with lots of swasan scenes…

If any scene request then please do tell.. it will help me and the story to become more n more better…

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Meet you all in the next part till then bubye..

Love you all..
LOVE SWASAN…