Peak of my Craziness by Ooshi

Firstly i thought to give it title ‘Base of my Life’ then gave this title but actually it;s a mixture of love,life,heart and my craziness.
At last today God gave me the permission to write article on the base of my Life. So my life’s base is my heart and my Love. In this article i will also talk about sequences of love and types of love.
Now my Life totally depends onlove. through love i also lives life instead of being spending it. And other than love some of my heart’s craziness also makes me able to live life specially enjoying fast/strong wind.
I talk about different types of love. It includes love as a mother,love as sister,love as brother etc but in my case i am not much attached with anyone except my sister and her baby. And this love will hurt me for whole life very much. Above mentioned were blood relations. Now let’s come to heart relations. For now i have some sisters and a brother heartily with me. But there are many people who lives in my heart but aren’t in my life. From them some are the people whom i miss and some are ones whom i need very much. From them some are the ones without whom I am incomplete and some are the ones in whom’s absence i can’t even die and still i am alive. I also accepts the fact that no ones’ life easy but to have someone to share your life like sister,mother or some one else with whom you are comfortable is also a sign of being lucky. Di Your Pri needs you please come back. GJ,NB,MB,ZB,ND & HB i will be alive to spend my life’s last moments with you all. Love all the people who came in my life or heart and also thankful to them as their’s presence helped me to be alive and living life till now and afterwards.And also verymuch thankful to Allah G for making them all enter in my life.
LOVE love is a vast emotion.
Sometimes it helps us to be alive:
1 when we get the person we love in this case you give your love one his/her space and trust him/her and SOMETIMES it also results not good as you want
2 when we start living for the people selflessly(it’s so much hard) in this case you can’t be always with the one you love and if you doesn’t raise your voice against your parents decision(as you shouldn’t do this too) and can’t do any thing for your love one in the flow of this obedience it also hurts.
Sometimes it kills and ruins the lover when the lover looses his/her loved one it results as suicide or lose of trust for everyone
Sometimes it gives someone life again when the ruined one gets true love but to live and gain such love is very rare,hard and lucky.
When love makes us strong to face the chalanges of life and world(by getting our love one) it also makes us weak in front of our love one like his/her protection,to be strict with our love one for his/her betterness.
My love scares me for everyone and specially for the ones who aren’t muslims but i love them. To me it’s very hard or almost impossible to limit my heart or love and the most my love increases the more my grieves/frights increases and because of this limitless love i pray to Allah to show non-muslims the right path to Him and it makes me feel myself different from all others.And i can’t understand that this difference is good or bad.The same happens when i thoughts about the people whom my father don’t like.Now many will think that why my love also includes religion. So the reason is to me and all muslims life is an exam and it’s result will be out on the day of judgement and i gets frightened by the result of my loveones who are muslims and non-muslims and more for non-muslims. I am thankful to my madness as it’s existence helps me to be alive but also hurts me that due to it i am a burden to my father and it kills but i doesn’t dies.
When you care for the people about whom any of your family family member(brother & father) doesn’t like then it makes you feel hurt that why are you thinking about the people whom your family members don’t. It hurts very much.
Life taught me that every relation we gets by blood or by heart gives us happiness as well as grieves and is an exam to us that will we live that relation in a good way or not and also the grieves we get from that relation makes our life difficult mentally/heartily.

Moreover when any matter of your life effects badly your parents and also effects the life if a person in a way that you don’t know it’s bad or good and you yourself are in such a situation like your exams were happened in june 2014 and you hope to be succeed but your result doesn’t declare till now while it’s april 2018. Some people hoping you to be succeedand making future plans,you want to get a supply and between this dragging neither you can move on nor can improve your studies but just a burden to your father and not only a burden but according to him you are his mad,un lucky and mistaken children. The original word is mad. The others two are my self’s addition and you also find yourself guilty to be his children and as you think about the people whom he hates it’s increases your guilt and in these all situations the people you are near the most are in your heart but not in life.
LIFE YOU ARE VERY DIFFICULT BUT I HAVE TO FACE YOU BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE ANY OTHER OPTION AND I HAVE A DEMAND WHICH YOU WILL FULFILL BEFORE MY DEATH.
ONE MORE THING
OUR GRIEVES KILLS YOU PHYSICALLY AND HEATILY BUT OUR NEAR ONES’S GRIEVE KILLS US THE MOST BECAUSE WE CAN’T FEEL THAT GRIEVE
And in both these situations we are getting killed but we are actually alive which is the fact and it’s not easy at all because
IF WE GOT KILLED ACTUALLY THEN IT’S JUST ONE PROPER DEATH AND NO PAIN/GRIEVE AFTER THAT BUT THE FACT IS WE ARE GETTING KILLED REGULARLY THROUGH THIS WAY AND ALSO PREPARES FOR NEXT DAY’S DEATH AND ALSO FOR LIFE(HAPPINESS) IF WE HAVE IT IN OUR DESTINY.
And i agree that
A girl and boy can’t be friends and if it happens actually it’s rare
so try your best to not be frank with any male except your brothers and father because if someone loves you and you hurt him intentionly or un intentionly if you came to know this it hurts you the most as you knows your pain but don’t realize the pain others face because of you or because of destiny and their deeds.And thinking about someone also leads to love so do your best to over comeit and avoid it but if you fall in love don’t confess it and try your best to hide it till you make sure that this love has good future.
As i said to being away from male so i want to mention that from my GJ,NB,MB,ZB,ND,HB there’s no male and others i have in my life no one is male except 4. 1 is my friend and i have no contact with him since sep 2015(wish him to be married hope he has been married but know nothing about him after that),2nd is a major uncle whom i meets in hospital and within this year i finish the hospital so get away from him(i am sure that he is also married but didn’t ask),3rd is my driver uncle whom i didn’t met since 15 march 2017 and are married and 4th is a boy of our van whom thoughts i overcome and others are children heartily and these all lives in my heart and also will be.
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LESSONS
BE STRONG BECAUSE LIFE IS THE SAME AND WE HAD TO LIVE IT.
THERE’S ALWAYS A POSITIVE SIDE OF EVERYTHING SO TRY TO FIND THAT AS WELL.
A question
in the article where i said ‘Sometimes it helps us to be alive’ there are 2 options after this line so guess what is my way of living. Will be Happy to read answer of this question.