Ragsan ff – REALITY (episode 13)

so 13th part. So Leela appi how is your fasting going on. now l m all fine with me as l remain in AC whole day but what what will happen once school will reopen and guess what it is from 21:(: and then my devil friends who will bring best cuisine of the world to tease me. They are no less now ……………..as l m getting thier daily menu card from whatsapp.

EPISODE 13
“Kyo bhaiya how much time is left for exams.” Uttara asked me.
I answered her casually ‘one week’. Then reality hit me, only one week is left for exams. Though these days I always repeat in my mind the importance of these exams but didn’t realized that only one week is left for it. After that all my thoughts started revolving around exams only. I forgot about Uttara’s presence and her question.

Then suddenly a question hit my head, “Am I going mad?” I tried to deny the question with the same speed with which it fit me. I am perfectly normal. Else I am more sensitive than other people. The more I tried to make myself understand that I am not abnormal the more the thought that something is wrong with me was popping in my mind. OK if this was happening too then from where all these started?

Then unknowingly that slap with all my strength, ragini dangling to other side and my harsh words to her came in my mind. Is that continue repentance and guilt is the reason of all this? Again all that started. How could I raise my hand on her? How can I do that wild thing?

But I was continuously trying decrease my guilt with stupid reasons. She should not do this. Could she not differentiate between normal and sacred thread? How much bhabhi must have been hurt by this? After allit was her daughter’s naming ceremony. Forgetting all your customs and ritual is not right.she really needed some msg for that mistake. ( I need to tell here that his family is a typical conservative family where much importance is given to customs. And leaving tradional rituals is thought to be very wrong. Though Sanskar has modern thought but he could not simply avoid his up brings. And there clash happens within his reforming thoughts and tradional thought.)

February had arrived, only two days have been left for exams. Most of the time I studied in hardik’s house( his friend. I will later give his detail introduction.) as I couldn’t concentrate my mind in house. Sometime I stay at his house in night too. Honestly speaking I get more peace in his house than mine. In mine house always a scene would have happened or would be happening. But in all this a thing sometime give a hard blow on my heart. That was Ragini’s emotionless and unchanging face. There was never a complain, sadness, happiness, hurt, pain or anything in her eyes. The spark in her eyes which I saw in her earlier was missing. Was am I reason of all this?

One day when I returned from Hardik’s house. I saw maa telling herin a caring tone-“ why don’t you right any letters to your parents. They must be worried about you. At least write anything to your mother.” No matter how much irritating she must be but she was a mother and she understand the pain of not knowing what is happening in your daughter’s life.

I saw her eyes watering up. A emotion from her after a long time. She immediately composed herself and answered-“ what to write maa? There is nothing to write her.” Her answered somewhere pinched my heart but I totally avoided it as once if I will start thinking about it, then I will not be able to concentrate to anything else.

RECAP- AN EMOTIONAL MOMENT IN THE FAMILY.

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