Shani 15th May 2017 Written Episode Update

I want to do pooja for God (especially for Shani dev) from my hands. But this is not allowed in South Indian temples as girls & women are not allowed to enter the garbha-graha or near the idol and are entirely not allowed to touch the statue. They say it might reduce the pavitra of the God.

This happened when I was a small kid (6-7 yrs old). I went to a small temple near my house with my parents. That temple has a very cute Lord Ganesha. I touched his cheek and said you are really so cute and chubby. Then a priest came angrily and scolded that you should not touch the Lord. I asked why. He said this is not a doll for you to play but the Lord. Your touch might reduce the Lord’s Pavitra. I argued that I am also a human being who is created by the same God just as you do, but why I am forbidden to enter. But that ended in my parents shutting me badly infront of all.
I distinctly remember that moment, I asked from my soul to Lord Ganesha that, with the permission from the priest, I want to touch you. This has to happen on its own but not by influence of any human being, but by your influence. If you really don’t feel my touch good, then make it good as you have given these hands to me. Make it good enough to touch you, else I don’t want these hands. Respond immediately if you are really in there and not sleeping. I was angry at that time.
But within a month, he immediately responded. The same temple had a Kumbabhisheka function. Before keeping the new statue on the same place. They asked all people to keep Navarathnas, Coins & etc on the stambha/Peedam of the Lord. Then the same priest asked me to step inside the garbha-graha (room) and touch the Lord’s idol before it could be placed, because a kannika Naari (unmarried girl), has to do that ritual. My happiness had no bounds. I told him, now I agree that you are in there and hearing to all people. From that day, that Lord Ganesha became my best friend and he is very special for me. Whatever I ask him, he responds immediately. Sometimes, I feel that he is smiling at me.

I wish, the Earth & Time strucks for a moment as Lord Krishna did during the Kurukshetra war, I will go and fall on his feet and hug him. But, this time it can happen only in dreams…

But, I stayed in North India for a few years, that time, we were allowed to do pooja for any God by ourselves and there was no orders of the priest like, sit there, stand there, don’t touch….
I felt my eternal-self when I touched the Shiva linga. I felt something was running up and down in my spines & backbone. Now I miss that touch. I have also done a alankaram/makeover for Lord Krishna in that small temple in North India. That made me too close to Lord Krishna – My beloved Father of my soul (Paramathma)…. From that day, I used to call him Pithashree & I felt that he smiles (really with big smile) at me. I tried pinching myself. I asked my mom, can you see him smiling, she says not as much as you say but as usual he is having a happy face.
I miss those moment and acts…. I want to do a make over for Shani dev also…. No idea of how it will happen…..

People sometime call me fool, if I express this desire. they say, God is some one who so higher than us. (ooooopar wala, not upar-wala). So, you can’t reach him like this.
I used to reply, he accepts, any kind of bhakti, He listens to the simplest way of a small garland of flowers, filled with love & devotion rather than a big big yagna filled people having lists of what they want from that God and with stealthy heart that veda-mantras can console god for anything. I did not mean that veda-mantras can’t reach out to god, but a simple spot-less devotion will be given as first preference. People say Blah-Blah-Blah finally – Insulting me. I don’t mind. But it is true.

I want to share a scene from a tamil movie Adi Parashakti.

A fisherman, asks a Brahmin that why he is coming to the river bank and doing pooja and taking Water from the river in his hands and puts it again in the river. The Brahmin, boasts that, I can see the Goddess, if I do like this. But actually that he lies to the fisherman.
The fisherman finds it interesting and asks the Brahmin about the trick which the Brahmin refuses because the fisherman is from lower-caste. The fisherman says I will wnd my life in this river, if you don’t teach me. The Brahmin fears of Prana-hathi dosha (dosha of killing a living being with intension) and teaches him some sanskrit mantras.
But the fisherman can’t understand and says, teach in a way how I can understand. Then the brahmin, says you must have a vairagya to see the Goddess.
The fisherman asks how much (level) vairagya is required ? The Brahmin puts the fisherman’s head in the water and forces it inside. Then the fisherman understands the level of vairagya required that his life is also not important to see the goddess.
He then goes to a deeper place and keeps hold of his breath and says, My dear Ambha this is the way of my bhakti, come & save me if my devotion & vairagya is enough to summon you here, else take my soul to you. Oneway or other I want to see you. The goddess immediately appears and save him. He is shocked that, people used say, Ambha will come only if you do tapasya for 1000 years.
But I doubt you that are you real Goddess as you have come so early. She laughs that even God is put in doubt, if they come before time. The fisherman finds a way to solve this confusion and says that if you are the real Ambha then you should not move a step from this position. Ambha agrees it.
He goes and drags the Brahmin to the river bank to confirm that whether it is real Ambha (Goddess) as the brahmin has seen Ambha already. The brahmin, says you have gone mad, there is only water, no Ambha.

Then the fisherman says you have no eyes Brahmin, but I can see her laughing. The Brahmin confirms that this guy has gone mad and tries to leave home. But the fisherman asks him what should I do as Ambha has come here. Brahmin says prepare Sweet-pongal and give it to your Ambha.
The fisherman worries that he does not know how to make sweet-pongal. Ambha says your wife knows how to make it. He rushes home and asks his wife whether she knows to make it. She then prepares sweet-pongal for the Goddess.

The fisherman and his wife with full devotion, sing a small song praising the goddess in simple words with a pot of small sweet-rice for the Goddess as offering (Their hut was so small and he was so poor that he did not even have an idol of Ambha in his house) and on an other hand, a bunch of priest sing Lalitha Sahasranama with lots of varieties of food infront of a gold statue of Goddess.

The goddess comes to the fishman’s house and eats the offering and asks what do you want as I am happy with your devotion. He says, We don’t want anything for ourselves but we want you to give food for all living beings.
If you feel hungry, directly you must come to our hut and have food. She agains asks don’t you want anything for yourself. He declines. Ambha says I now understand what made me to come here, it is your pure devotion without wanting anything in return.
He also scolds the Goddess that, the sweet-rice pongal has not warm now, why didn’t you come earlier. The Goddess replies, I am sorry, I wont miss food on time in your house again.
Then he asks her to come to the Brahmin’s house also, and have that food as those people have cooked many varieties of food for you. She denies that her stomach is full. Fisherman says, people say that you have a big stomach to swallow the whole universe itself.
He says come on, we will go there by walk, so the food you ate in our house will digest. Don’t feel shy to eat there also. Upon his compulsion, she unwillingly comes to the Brahmin’s house, those same bunch of brahmins were having a feast with the food prepared for the goddess.
The people gathered there eat the food calling it as prasada but actually, they did not give time for the goddess to come & eat. Or they believed that Goddess won’t come while offering it to her.
The fisherman is shocked. Goddess says, This is why I refused to come her. I also do not hear their prayer as they believe that I won’t come. This means that they say don’t come while offering these food for me.
If I come once and eat food truely in this place as it happened in your house, these people will never place a single grain of rice infront of my idol.

This was an eye-opening scene in my life.

And after that, Lord Ganesha has eaten a modaka in our house on a Ganesh Chaturthi day (But that happened only once). We kept 10 modakas in a plate in the pooja room and went outside to keep one for crow. When we came back and found one more modaka vanished. Truely nobody else other than him could have done it as all of our family members were standing outside when that happened.

Talking about God never ends as his leela is too long to explain until the end of time.(Never ends…)