STILL I LOVE YOU…ss…part 5

Hai guys…..so sorry for being late……. So guys…. First of all….thank you all for the support and here is the 5th and final part…….so without anymore useless talks lets start….but……..pls do comment and let me know how was it???….hope I won’t bore you all……and sorry for the typing errors…..

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The girl’s thoughts…..
God…..why did you send me here…???? Do you hate me this much that you always take away from me my reason to live…… Me….Swara Sanskar Maheshwari…..no….now its again Aashi Singhania…. the most unlucky person in the world…..I should’nt have been born…..I’m always a curse to my loved ones…..pain…..all get just pain….when I’m around them…… People always used to say that I’m cursed…but I never gave a darm….but now I think all are right… Why god…..why did you snatch my mother from me???? Was it my fault that my mom died giving birth to me?????dad didn’t even look at me with love….but when he started loving me…you took him too!!!..yes…it’s you who made me an orphan.. Even chachu likes me he never supported me when chachi used to taunt me saying that I’m cursed and will destroy their happiness……..but….g god….you are not that bad…… You gave me a sweet and lovely brother and cute sisters…..and later….Sanskar and mom………. The people who love me like anything……. It was only aarav bhaiyya kavya dee and ragu stood beside me in all situations….they used to fight with chachi for me in house and with society it was..my dear Kavita….my only soul friend… Whenever I feel useless and sad their faces gives me strength to live and face the situation…they were my world….but it seems no one likes my happiness….. I still remember the day I met Sanskar….. It was my kavya dees marriage….I was studying in Mumbai,..I had an important assignment so I couldn’t attend otther functions… I just came back from college that day….I wish I didn’t…..
After that Sanskar and sahil who became my brother later and I met at the park….we three enjoyed a lot….they also made a space in my heart which was only for little family… Even arjun could not get that space…. You all must be thinking who is this arjun…??.. He is arjun kapoor….my best friend after Kavita….he once proposed me….but even after my disapproval…he never behave like other guys who think the girl who said no to them is not worth to live….. He became my best friend…may be he still love me…but….I had already fallen for someone’s chocolate eyes……
Days passed….I had fallen for Sanskar….his eyes said a lot….but….I still wonder…they didn’t know my name still….and one day I decided to talk to them…. As usual they were there…waiting for me…..ohh…..Sanskar was just looking like a greek god…..when I was moving towards them….my phone rang. I thought it was arju…bcuz I had told him about my feelings and it has been a long time he called me…..but….it was kavya dee….. There was no response from other side….may be dialed by mistake…. wait….Dee and jiju were talking..no…shouting each other….her sound seemed too sad….her chocking voice panicked me..and the call ended with a thud ….she was far from me…but l can sense that something was worrying her…..so I went back immediately….I just looked at them and rushed….I didn’t tell bhaiyya and ragu….I just packed and went to meet her…..
Mumbai…the place I used to love…but this city changed my life…. When I reached jijus house I really sensed something wrong…Dee was too pale…..”why did you come here shona…just go…” this was her words when she saw me…..and she was pushing me out….I didn’t understand….but…..then I heard a voice….”why are you pushing my live kavya???”.. It was jiju….but wait…did he say love???? What the hell???
I couldn’t figure out that was happening….all I remember was dee shouting at him and he slapping my dee pushing me inside…..my head banged with the door and I fell unconscious…..
When I opened my eyes…. I saw dee sitting on the couch….I observed her….her eyes were red…..there was blood oozing from her forehead and lips…what!!!!…he slapped her…..I got furious and rushed to her and hugged her…..she mourned….I looked to her hands….my tears flowed like anything seeing all the marks….the marks of torture she went….
“Call anyone and just escape from here shona…” she said…. I couldn’t control anymore….I cried aloud….and told her…”if I go from here…you will be with me…”..and I took my phone to call….the first one who came to my mind was bhai…but….I called arju….shit….his phone was out of coverage area…..I kept on trying and I was shocked to hear the ring from downstairs…..we both rushed down……. I couldn’t believe what I saw….arju was lying there unconscious and him…my so called jiju was sitting with a devil smile….
He saw us and came towards me….Dee covered me at her back…. He said with the same devil smirk..:…aww…shona baby…. these people made me like this……ur dee is too stubborn…. she denied to give me divorce…..
” I won’t let you destroy her life as you did with mine..mr karthik mehra…”..dee shouted…
And there was a heated argument…..I was just looking helplessly….at my dee and my best friend….but…why and how did he get arju…???
I rushed to arjun….
“Arju….wake up…..what is this arju…..pls….”..I cried…
“Ooo….what a love scene???… Deing Lover boy Amma crying lover girl…”..he said smirking..
“What??? Lover????he is my friend…..and how the hell did you know about him???” I yelled…
“Ooo….friend???? Dear I’ve been stalking you since I met you in my marriage…..he was always behind you…and l would do everything to make my way clear to reach you…..”he said moving towards me….
I was frightened seeing his evil face….
I looked around to find someone….”there is nobody here baby…..I’ve send all out of town… Even mom and dad will be back after a week….I’ve made a perfect plan na????” He said making me freak out in fear….
Suddenly dee pushed him and slapped him tight yelling at him….
“How dare you bl**y….” he shouted and pushed dee hard…..I was struggling to move to dee and he caught me…..
Then I saw…dee moving to him with a knife…???? But….he was such a devil….he pushed me and caught my dee….slapped her……snatched the knife and twisted her hands….she was crying….I cursed myself for ruining my dees life….
Before I could react….he was moving with the knife to dee…I ran and covered her closing my eyes tight….but….I didn’t feel pain….why???….I opened my eyes to find arjun collapsing on the floor with blood oozing from his stomach…..
“ARJUN……” I cried and moved to him……I patted his cheeks and cried…..
“Ahhhhh…”another cry made me look towards my dee….
“Deee……..”I yelled seeing her falling on the floor covered in blood and breathing heavily….
Before I could shout he moved to me and closed my mouth….I struggled to get free from his blo*dy clutches…..his touch made me hate myself…..he dragged me…to a room….I could guess what was he thinking to do…..I was still struggling…..he threw me to the floor….and came forward….I kicked him….and tried to run….but…..he again caught me…..he slapped me asking how dare you…..he had a fist of my hair and was pulling it and twisting my hand hard making me cry in pain…..and again he pushed me hard……and when he was moving towards me…..I saw arjun…..he was struggling to stand straight but still was trying his hard to help me….I could do nothing for him but..only to cry for him and dee….he indeed is the best friend anyone could get….he risked his life for tots unlucky cursed girl…..
“Get out and run aashi…” he yelled…”don’t worry about me…” he added….
I was just staring at him……”RUN”…he yelled and I went out looking him with teary eyes….I reached the hall and found my dee trying hard to breath……I rushed to her….”deee….I’m sorry….it’s all bcuz of me….forgive me dee…”….I cried….
She looked at me…and said…..”love you shona…..and…PUNISH HiM…..and everything silent…. Her hand slipped from mine….
“Ahhhhhhh…”it was arjun…..all I could do was just run…….
I decided to go back and talk to bhai everything as soon as possible……but…..till I reached there….there was another story spread…..
When I reached home….chachi welcomed me with her slap….
“how could u do this…???? She loved you as ur sister….and you tried to ruin her life….????….why did you snatch my daughter from me?????she asked
this time chachu too joined her….
“You are really unlucky for all…..now…pls stay away from my family….” he said with pure hatred…..
“Enough papa….. We know how our shona is and pls…..don’t anyone dare to speak such shit to her”aarav bhai and ragu still supported me…..
How could they love me this much…????…but I should not fall weak….I’ve promised dee to punish that bas***……
And we lodged case against him……Laksh Maheshwari….he was our lawyer….not even one backdrop till now in his career…
We struggled a lot for justice….but……..one the day of final hearing……he showed my dees pics blackmailing to backout….how could I spoil my dees image even if she is no more in this world?????…soooo…I decided to run away….from all my loved ones…..
And I successfully left bhai and ragu…changed my identity…..I know they will try to find me….but….sorry….I’ll never return to their lifes….and thats why I wrote a letter asking them not to search for me and delete me from their life..and made my swear…I know they won’t break my swear….
I eloped to Lucknow…..1 yr passed….none found me…but I know what was happening there…..ragu is committed with laksh….bhai….still struggling to find me….. I hid from all but…… Not from Kavita……she found me……she was settled there with her husband…Sahil…..they took me with them forcefully…..I said everything to them…..and denied to come out from my fake identity…….I said if they try to inform bhai or even Sanskar…I’ll die….or move away where noone will find me…… They knew I was serious so kept quiet…. I leaved qith them for two years….i never opened up to them…. I had lost my self confidence….. I lost my charm… I was afraid to make friends….i preferred to stay alone…in these time even though I buried my feelings in my heart… Sahil became my brother….he supported me like aarav bhai and arjun did….
Before 6 months…again I met Sanskar…..how can I forgot that both are best friends…..Sanskar was too happy seeing me….me too…but …..I was not ready to accept that….bcuz….I think myself unlucky for all around me…..
But Sanskar….he was too adamant…..all tried to make me realize the feelings……and….I failed…they won……one day I blurted out my heart….and….he became my better half….sahil told that he had already told Sanskar everything…..and I believed…..he tried to build the lost confidence in me……. He was the one who made me strong…again….

Swaras thoughts ends…….
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At the same time….sahkav finished saying about swaras past……
Sahil:(to Sanskar)..sorry dude for hiding all these…..but at that time I did what my heart said…..but I guess that was a wrong decision….
dp rp and ap was in guilt for not giving her a chance to explain……suju was just staring at sahkav….ragu was crying and laksh was consoling her…..aarav’s eyes were filled but pretended to be strong….. Sanskar was drowned in immense pain and staring at his right hand……he remembered how he slapped her calling her a cheat……
Suju:(sad but in anger)…now are you all happy….I told each and everyone of you to listen to her….but no…….all were waiting to throw her out……(to Sanskar)…and you……just go and bring my daughter back…..else don’t show ur face to me….
Sanskar:(painful voice)…mom……I’m sorry…….(to aarav)…..you know where is she…..pl….
Aarav(cuts):…yes I know…..but why you want to know……you didn’t even ask her the problem……
Sanskar:…..please aarav……don’t make me hate myself……please….gi..ve…o..ne… .. cha…nce to ….
Aarav:did you give her a chance???? Was this ur love?????and how could you…..???? How could you slap her????….do u know why she was waiting for you all….????….why was she excited to talk to you??????
Sanskar(thinks something and nods no)…..
Aarav:..bcuz she was going to be a mother….????she is carrying that person’s baby whom she loved the most……the person who didn’t believe her……!!!
All were happy and sad as well…..they now were in deep guilt……
Suju:(to aarav)….beta….I know they have done a mistake….but…..pls take us to her….I want to meet my daughter…..
Aarav:but….
Ragini:..bhai….. you didn’t even tell me…..and bhai……in all these…..I think there is no fault of sujatha aunty…..pls bhai….I want to see shona….pls….
Aarav:(sighs) hmmmm….fine ….. She is at my farmhouse…..come….
And all rushed to aaravs house…….
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Back to swara…..

Swaras thoughts continues………..

And we married after world war 3 at Maheshwari mansion…..Sanskar was right….both dads were just like hitlers…..when he said that we will leave the house…..they agreed as they didn’t want their reputation face problem….. I got a mother…..suji maa…always cared for me….and I was successful in making my place in their hearts…..even with laksh….Sanskar’s brother….I have not seen him…but have talked….he too became my brother….I didn’t know that he was the same lawyer…..but when I did…..I thought Sanskar knew everything….so no problem……..
I mended the fathers-sons broken relation…..everything was perfect……now I was only Sanskar’s……but again…….my destiny played……..I was happily waiting for them to say that soon a small member will join the family……yes……..I was pregnant……the symbol of mine and Sanskar’s Love……..but…..he came……the destroyer of my life…..the one who killed my dee and best friend……I didn’t believe him when he said that they will soon throw me out…..bcuz….I thought Sanskar knew everything……..suddenly….the world spinned around me……..when spinning stopped and I opened my eyes ……I was shocked…… He was kissing me……I pushed him and slapped him tight…….but…….Sanskar and the whole family was there…….staring at me…..then within minutes karthik mehra proved me wrong……I was thinking why Sanskar didn’t take my side…..it wss only mom who talked for me……but when he told them that I had a bf……Before I could explain myself me cheeks burned…..yes…….my Sanskar slapped me calling me a cheat…. He tried to snatch my mangalsutra……and it broke….just like my life…..I didn’t want mom to fight with her family for me….so I left……. When I was about to finish my life…I didn’t even think about a new life inside me….but aarav bhaiyya stopped me….I don’t know how he found me…..but I didn’t ask all that….I just hugged him tight and cried……and said everything……he tried to console me……and took me to his farmhouse……
I couldn’t sleep whole night……that dreadful flashes again came before me…..memories of Sanskar didn’t let me sleep….bhai was beside me…patting my head….slowly sleep covered my eyes….I know bhai would have given me pills to make me sleep…..

and I woke this noon…….I didn’t find bhai….but him….. Karthik Mehra……the devil born as human……..near my bed……
“You look so cute while sleeping baby….”he said smirking…..
I couldn’t even say a word…..my throat is blocked…..I got up in a hurry….pushed him and tried to run……but was pulled back…..again I tried pushing him and ran out of the room shutting it….I tried to call bhai from the landline…..but…..it was not working…..suddenly I felt a pain in my head……and again….everything started to spinn around…..
I felt myself being dragged and carried……I felt being thrown…..and hitting my stomach at the edge of the bed….and this made me wake up…….”AHHHHhhhhhhhh” this was the only sound escaped from my mouth…..I clutched my stomach tight……I could hear my baby crying…..I too cried aloud…..in pain…….now only god could help me…..
Its getting dark……my eyes started to close…..now my only wish was to see my love…..for a last time…… Now I’m waiting…..for death…..I saw him approaching me…..I couldn’t move……but….I heard a sound…..sound of a car…..and I saw him panicking and running out………
I can feel a something in my mouth…..what is it???? It tastes like blood……God….Its getting darker…….I want to see my Sanskar……my family……just once…….for the last time……
“SWARA…..”I heard his voice…… With lot of struggling I opened my eyes……a smile appeared on my lips……its him…..my love….Sanskar…….
I can feel him patting my cheeks……I could feel hot tears on my face……I feel myself flying in air……I think Sanskar is carrying me…..I couldn’t hug him……tears flowed down through my eyes……. In the way I saw my loved ones….mom….papa…..badepapa….bademaa…ragu… And my three brothers…..beating the hell out of karthik……they were too furious……and again I looked up to Sanskar……and everything went out…..just darkness……..
Pov ends…..
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Sanskar’s pov….
I was in deep guilt for not believing my love……and when I heard she’s expecting….I felt so happy…..but…don’t know why……I’m feeling too restless…..we reached aaravs farmhouse asap…..we four….that is…me,aarav ,sahil and lucky… ran inside without wasting a min…..my heart was beating like anything……and it stopped seeing him….karthik mehra coming out……I couldn’t react…..my heart was ready to come out…..swaras brothers caught him…..they were beating him black and blue….I too wanted to beat him…..but…..swara was my priority….. I ran upstairs….and was frozen seeing it…..she was lying there…..partially unconscious…blood oozing from mouth………clutching her stomach…..First thing I could do was to scream out her name…… My burden of guilt increased when I saw her smiling at me…..god…..what did I do?????
I ran towards her…… carried her…and ran out…..I saw police coming..arresting that ba***d……and…..I looked to her face….noo….nooo…….she is closing her eyes….and it closed…..completely……
My legs froze…..I couldn’t move…..I could hear loud crying around me……I was staring at her pale face…..aarav sahil and lucky were just like me…..not able to believe our eyes…..
Sanskar’s pov ends……
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Ragini rushed to swara and checked her with trembling hands……she looked to aarav….
Ragini(chocking voice):….bha..iii…I…I…..can’t…….Her…..pu…ls…ee….h…as… ….ss…… ss..to…pp..ed……
Sanskar(comes out of his thoughts ):….noo….nooo……ragini……pls….don’t play…..
Ragini :..(nods no….and pats swaras cheeks)…shona…..pls……get up……pls…. and cries…
Sanskar was like a statue….he looked at everyone…..aarav sits with a thud on couch clutching his head…..sahil was not in a state to understand….laksh was staring at her…. Dp.and rp were in tears sitting near swara….. Ap suju and was staring at their daughter’s motionless body…..Kavita and ragini were hugging each other crying at their sister’s state……..
Sanskar went near swara and hugged her crying silently…..he saw her clenched fist and opens it to find the broken piece of mangalsutra…….
Sanskar:(cries)…SWARAAAAA…………NOOOOOO…………pls don’t do this……..(he shakes her.and hugs her tight and again cried aloud)..SWARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA…………
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Its night……we can see Sanskar standing at the balcony of his room staring at the stars…. He turns….we can see his eyes welled up…… He looks the same broken mangalsutra and moves inside and looks around……his room was filled with swaras photo….he moves and stands infront of the biggest among them…..in that swara had a shy yet cute and angelic smile…..her black shiny hairs was flying……….a garland was over it with her favorite flowers…..
Sanskar:….swara…..why did you punish me this much…..I know I did a sin…..but….this punishment is too big…..even though you were here for 6months….all have made you a habit…..we are incomplete without you shona…..it has been 2 years…..still we need you…. I need you….. Shona…..all are trying to get me married again……why can’t they understand that I need only you……they are expecting to give ur place in my heart to someone else…..no…..never ever..in my life…its only you that lives in my heart….and will always……….shona…..today ur Sanskar got best businessman award……I’m fulfilling all ur dreams…..now I’ve only one reason to live….that is ur dreams….and I’ll make each of them true…..I know it’s bcuz of me itself you are not with me……so I promise……
Today me and dad had a fight…..you know why…..same topic……but…..I can leave my life alone….not without you….but still can try to live with your memories….by each heartbeat is only for you…….STILL I LOVE YOU…..only you…….
A tear escape from his eyes…….he again moves out and stares the sky….with teary eyes…there was a star staring back with deep pain……
The screen freezes on teary Sanskar and the twinkling star….
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TaDa…….so…..I’ve successfully completed this ss……hope you all like it…….
say wether you all need an epilogue…..I’ll try…..but I can’t promise for one….but…..I’ll try….let me check how many of you need that…. :-P…