SWASAN: AASHIYAN [EPISODE-3]
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let’s start with the story.
3 days later-
a man entered in mm engrossed in checking the mail in his mobile and headed towards his room. he was so engrossed that he did not realise of surroundings or where he is going, it seems that he has forgotten everything in his work. he entered inside the room where a lady was folding clothes and then keeping it properly in the cupboard. a pile of clothes were placed on bed, some folded and some unfolded.
the lady was wearing a saree and has tucked the end of the pallu on her waist showing her waist. she was lost in her own world while doing the work. the man was busy with his phone and so unintentionally closed the door a little hardly.
listening to the door closing sound lady’s trance broke and she turned to find sanskar. a nervous smile played on her lips and then she initiated the conversation with sanskar who was busy with his phone and unconscious of her presence. then as she started speaking he kept his bag on couch and looked at her. he actually did not remembered anything when he looked at her.
swara- sanskar you came. freshen up till then i will bring your tea and i also need to talk to yo….u……so..me…thin..g….im..por..t..a
she stammered as sanskar came close to her looking at her intensely and pulled her holding her waist and then finally sushed her keeping his index finger on her lips. she shivered slightly as he lightly caressed her bare waist.
swara looked at him confused, nervous and shy and mostly shocked. she wanted to speak but his finger on her lips didn’t allow her to. with a number of things going on in her mind she went numb when sanskar rubbed her lips with his thumb sensuously. she immediately closed her eyes being shy. he was lost seeing her and not in his senses.
WARNING A LITTLE OF ROMANCE AND MATURE CONTENT.
PEE LOON, TERE NEELE NEELE NAINON SE SABNAM
PEE LOON TERE GEELE GEELE HONTHON KI SARGAM
PEE LOON, HAI PEENE KA MAUSAM
sanskar looked at her closed eyes and kissed them softly to which she opened them instantly and their eyes get locked. her eyes showed love, immense love with tinge of guilt and pain. his eyes showed love, desires.
[TERE SANG ISHQ KARI HAI
TERE SANG EK KHOMARI HAI
TERE SANG CHAIN BHI MUJHKO
TERE SANG BEKARARI HAI]*2
swara- sans…kar
as soon as she opened her mouth to speak she stammered and stopped as he removed the tucked in pallu touching her belly making her shiver and tighten her hold on his shoulder. he felt her voice as a soft melody and was intoxicated. he did not remember anything else at this moment just that swara, his love is standing in front of him, just that and nothing else. no other thought came in his mind.
TERE BIN JI NAHI LAGTA
TERE BIN JI NAHI SAKTA
TUJH PE HARE MAINE WARE DO JAHAN
sanskar- [leaning towards her ear leaving his hot breath on her skin] sshhhhhhhh
he kissed her earlobe from over her earrings and she closed her eyes feeling his touch after a long time. he trailed down wet kisses over her neck line and shoulders. she tilted her head giving him access under the spell of his touch and her breathing got heavy and hold even tighter in anticipation of the upcoming moment, forgetting every other matter.
QURBAAN MEHERBAAN
KI MAIN TO QURBAAN
SUN LE SADA
TERE QURBAAN
sanskar moved his head back to look at her breathing heavily and eyes closed. he caressed and kissed her cheeks sensuously. both looked at each other. she was about to speak but only squeal of surprise escaped her lips as sanskar lifted her in bridal style.
HOSH MEIN RAHUN KYUN AAJ MAIN
TU MERI BAAHOON MEIN SIMTI HAI
MUJH ME SAMAYI HAI YUN
looking intensely at her he carried her and softly placed on bed. sitting beside her he leaned over her gazing her lips and just when he was an inch or two away from her she hugged him tightly in shyness.
JIS TARAH TU KOI HO NADI
TU MERE SEENE MEIN CHUPTI HAI
SAGAR TUMHARA MAIN HOON
he gave lingering kisses on her neck and shoulders while she was hugging him making her moan his name making him crazy. he snaked his hand on her back and slightly lifting her while she was in the hug he undid her dori and caressed her back making her arch backwards.
PEE LOON TERE DHIMI DHIMI LAHRO KI CHAM CHAM
PEE LOON TERI SHONDHI SONDHI SAANSON KO HAR DUM
PEE LOON HAI PEENE KA MAUSAM
he laid her back and cupped her face with one hand and the other on her waist caressing there and without wasting a single second kissed on her lips first sweetly and softly and then passionately. sometimes sucking her lower lip and sometimes the upper one or taking both at once. she too reciprocated him with same passion and pulled him more and more on herself by holding his shoulder by one hand and other on the back of his head caressing his hairs.
[TERE SANG ISHQ KARI HAI
TERE SANG EK KHOMARI HAI
TERE SANG CHAIN BHI MUJHKO
TERE SANG BEKARARI HAI]*2
with the lack of oxygen both parted away breathing heavily. she had her eyes closed and her chest raised rhythmically due to heavy breathing. he looked at her panting and unable to control himself again pulled her into another passionate kiss dominating her making her senseless with his intensity and passion.
SHAAM KO MILU JO MAIN TUJHE
TO BURA SUBAHNA JANE KYUN
KUCH MAN JATI HAI YEH
he dugged in her neck and kissed and sucked and bit her making her moan senselessly. he unpinned her saree pallu and removed it from her upper half exposing her cleavage from above her blouse and her tummy and navel. a sigh escaped from her as she realised it and shut her eyes tightly in extreme shyness being like this in front of her love after such a long span.
HAR LAMHA, HAR GADHI HAR PEHER
HI TERI YAADON SE TADPAKE
MUJHKO JALATI HAI YEH
he looked at her intently and she felt like burning under his gaze. leaning over her leaving his hot breath on her cleavage he made her restless and arch her head back making her look more tempting and this grew his desires. he gave an open mouth kiss on her throat making her gulp her saliva. he planted numerous kisses on her collar bone, cleavage and on her bre*st above her blouse.
PEE LOON MAIN DHEERE DHEERE JALNE KA YE GAM
PEE LOON IN GORE GORE HANTHON SE HUMDAM
PEE LOON HAI PEENE KA MAUSAM
he came down and nuzzled his nose on her tummy and kissed over her navel. she moaned high and clutched the bed sheet tightly with one hand while the other went into his hairs pressing him more.
swara- ahhhh sanskarrrr.
both were at peaks of their desire. sanskar freed bed sheet from her clutch and kissed her hand in and out and interwined his hand with hers pressing them against the bed and then started giving open mouth kisses all over her waist and navel. he gently bite on her waist and sucked her navel causing pleasureful sensation all over her body.
[TERE SANG ISHQ KARI HAI
TERE SANG EK KHOMARI HAI
TERE SANG CHAIN BHI MUJHKO
TERE SANG BEKARARI HAI]*2
he came up and kissed her lips passionately while his finger roamed around her belly button sensuously making her shiver in excitement. she reciprocated him and held onto his shoulders tightly. they parted away and her hands reached his shirt buttons but he gently removed her hands and started blowing hot air all over her neck, ears and cleavage. the pleasure her love was giving her was uncontrollable.
TERE BIN JI NAHI LAGTA
TERE BIN JI NAHI SAKTA
TUJH PE HARE MAINE WARE DO JAHAN
QURBAAN MEHERBAAN
KI MAIN TO QURBAAN
SUN LE SADA
TERE QURBAAN
his fingers working around her belly button, him blowing warm air sensuously on her sensitive areas were driving her crazy. her breathing got unsteady and heavy and her forehead formed creases and her lips parted due to her continuous sighs and moans. she grew restless with each passing second and finally reached the last stage of the beginning of her orgasm when sanskar’s phone rang but he didn’t move and kept his work on.
but with the third ring he backed off shockingly and moved towards table to pick his call while swara opened her eyes due to loss of his touch feeling completely restless only to find him picking up his call.
she was completely restless and was slightly moving her legs over the bed crumbling the bed sheet and fisting her palms to control herself and looking at sanskar. sweating profusely due to se*ual excitation on its peak she became more restless with the passing second. she was still breathing heavily and was out of sense because of his touch after so long. she was just there as it is without moving an inch as she could not think anything at this moment.
when sanskar turned cutting the call she looked at him with love and desires but then lowered her gaze being shy but her restlessness to reach her orgasm grew. he looked at her but then avoided looking at her and came near. she closed her eyes thinking that he will continue but he covered her with her saree pallu and moved back muttering a sorry. she instantly opened her eyes and looked at him.
sanskar- sorry swara. [she looked at him confused while he avoided eye contact and moved back] [making an excuse] there’s an important work. need to go.
swara looked at him restlessly while he just turned back avoiding looking at her and was about to go when she held his hand making him shut his eyes in guilt. she composed herself making a fist by other hand and pressing her toes in the bed. she closed her eyes and took a long breath and said.
swara- ohk….go safely.
sanskar removed his hand from her hold without turning back and moved towards door.
swara- bye…….love you.
he just walked out closing the door behind. he stormed out of the house without paying any heed to anyone and sat in his car and drove off.
here in the room-
swara was still in same position on the bed with eyes closed and just she has pulled the comforter covering herself letting the clothes fall of the bed. reducing the temperature of ac she tried to calm herself down. amidst all these smile never left her face. restlessness was a different thing but the happiness she felt by sanskar’s touch, his love was beyond everything. with these thoughts, she drifted into a slumber.
sanskar’s side-
he was driving his car very fast. his eyes showed fury and pain, immense pain. he was doing rash driving. he stopped abruptly at a shop and bought a water bottle and gulped it down. buying other 2-3 bottles he again sat in his car and drove off to a lonely road driving rashly. coming out of his car he banged on the car top in frustration.
he leaned on the car and closed his eyes but the memories of recent happenings and past haunted him. he took out a bottle and splashed water on his face multiple times to wash away those memories but alas does this ever happen.
he climbed on the bonnet and sat resting his back on the car’s front glass and remembered swara’s face, her expressions, their moments of him being close to her and she accepting without any question. remembering her face which showed her restlessness and her hand rolled into fist to control herself. the moment she held his hand, how much he controlled not to melt down and just mark her his once again.
remembering these he was in guilt. guilt of going close to her when he didn’t intended to do so. the last moment when she didn’t plead him to stay but rather just allowed him to go with the wish to be safe and expressed her love……
[ swara- ok……go safely
swara- bye…..love you]
what he did? just walked out. how much had he wished to be near her and hear those three magical words from her which soothed his heart taking away all his miseries and agony in the time being when she was away.
but today for the first time those words aren’t soothing but piercing his heart million times making it bleed for the thing he did. guilt drowning him and pain killing him each second making him feel suffocated.
he was angry on himself for forgetting everything. he was angry on himself for going close to her. he was burning in his own fury for mistakenly letting his desires overrule him forgetting everything and he was angry for touching her that way when he had no intentions and doing so in his subconscious state. he was angry on himself for making her restless and leaving her in the mid that way when her eyes were showing her desire and love for him being with her. but… but he can’t stay with her. he can’t do that with her.
never have he wished for such a situation in his life. they both had dreamt of a happy life together. a life expecting nothing else but their togetherness which is their strength.
but……. but destiny, his fate and he himself can’t keep him away from pain. how much ever he fights with everything to keep himself strong but he is breaking each and every second. how could life be so miserable for someone who never wished to harm anyone. who only for once took wrong path of revenge and hurted the one who became his life, his everything. but then life became beautiful with her being with him. for all that he has to face she was beside him holding his hand just before the storm which came and destroyed everything.
the hands which held each other tightly were separated. the fingers which entangled with the other showing their togetherness were pointing each other. the pull on his collar which were to mischievously show her love and tantrums dramatically, pulled him to put allegations. the hands which pulled him ever along with her to take blessings from elder for them being happy and together till lifelong brought him in front of all to show him as a culprit.
the eyes which drowned into the other in the depth of love was just filled with questions, hurt and accusations. was this the fate of their relationship. separation, pain, distrust, accusations.
tears threatened to roll down his eyes thinking of all this but yet again he didn’t cry and his eyes became red with anger and unbearable pain.
pain…… pain is the only thing left in his life which is increasing every moment and now anger. anger, anger on himself for going close to her and losing his self control, anger on her for leaving his hand just for the sake of her sister. was he nothing to her? why did she leave him. even if she wanted to go to baadi he wouldn’t have stopped her but keeping their relation at stake and accusing him and putting all blame on him, did he deserve this for loving her so much.
back in the room the moment he looked up to her from his mobile, he lost himself in her like the other times and when he went close and started kissing her and till the time the phone rang he was loving her, he did not realise what he is doing. she was looking his swara, his wife, his love standing in his room in the saree tucked on her waist as she usually does when she is working. she was looking enticing.
if not for the mobile ring he heard on the third ring he would have stopped only after marking her his completely without his realisation. each time her touch, her closeness had made him insane. his sanity never works when she is around.
but now he has left her restless there and he is restless here. even at this moment the image of her makes his finger itch to touch her. and this feeling for her makes him hate himself because he can’t hate her ever. moving down the bonnet he stood and pulled his hairs and could not control anymore so he spoke out loudly and shouted out loud to take out his frustration, hurt, and pain which is buried deep inside his heart from so much time.
sanskar- WHY? WHY? WHY?………….. WHY CAN’T I CONTROL MYSELF WHEN YOU ARE AROUND? WHY CAN’T I EVER HATE YOU? WHY?
WHY YOU DID THIS TO ME SWARA, WHY YOU DID THIS TO US? I LOVED YOU SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BUT THEN WHY YOU GAVE ME THIS PAIN? WHY? WHY DID YOU ACCUSE ME SWARA? [by now he started crying and knelt down on road] WHY?
after a long span he is crying. how much he wants to control his tears, how much he wants not to break down but today he is unable to control. he just can’t suppress those tears any more. that burning sensation when he just doesn’t allows those tears to slip out his eyelashes each time his eyes became moist was over today because the heart that is burning could not control them anymore.
Sanskar- [slowly to himself while crying] you were the only one i wanted in my life by my side but you left me accusing me for laksh’s disappearance. why you gave this pain to me swara. it’s killing me from the day you went. and now when you are back i can’t just accept you and let you be with me the way you want because now i can’t take this anymore.
i have my own feelings, i am a human too damn it. I HAVE FEELINGS SWARA [ he shouted] I HAVE FEELINGS. I FEEL HURT, I FEEL PAINED, I FEEL EMPTY AND LONELY…….AND IT’S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU….it’s all because of you. i want to hate you swara, i want to forget you but i can’t. i just can’t and over this , this pain i can’t handle swara. what have you done to me. you broke me swara…you broke me today finally. finally you broke this sanskar maheshwari who never learnt to break in any way, at any cost. you broke me in your love, in the pain you gave, in the loneliness of my life and emptiness of my heart swara. i can’t even die swara and this pain doesn’t let me live peacefully.
why couldn’t you trust me and live with me when i loved you and supported you each time with all my heart and soul. why you had to leave me and destroy everything? [he cried more for sometime and then stood up wiping his tears]
no…. i won’t cry. if i went through this pain then now swara you will feel the same pain which i went through. you felt my love but now feel my pain swara. feel how it is being lonely even though you are around so many people. feel how desperate people become to go to someone but couldn’t. [with determined voice yet pain quite visible in his eyes] i will make you crave for me, my love and my support. i will make you feel the pain of negligence and loneliness when the one you need the most and relied on leaves you. and after this you will understand swara what it feels like to be when you are alone, when your own room haunts with the memories of when you were happy.
sorry but i can’t let you go but at the same time i can’t accept you without making you realise my importance and knowing the exact place i hold in your life. i know what i am going to do will pain me more when i will do it and when i will see you bear everything but i need to do that. i need to know how strong our love and relation is which according to me comes the last for you when this relation is the most important for me.
sanskar- aaahhhhhhhh……. you are making me hate myself for doing this to you even before i did something. i can’t withstand this. i can’t.
sanskar drove off to a bar and started drinking. one, two, three…..nine, ten, eleven..
sanskar- one more…[in drunken voice]
bartender- sir you have drunk a lot.
sanskar- i said give me one more. [said angrily shouting]
bartender- but sir…
sanskar took out money from his wallet and kept on the counter.
sanskar- take this and give me a bottle[said rudely]
bartender- sir how will you go home. please sir i think you should…..
sanskar- i said give me a bottle. [said dangerously]
bartender helplessly gave him a bottle and sanskar woobly walked out from there. sitting in the car he started driving but could not control the steering and DASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in mm- at dining table.
sujata- swara sanskar kathe hai. ab tak naa aaya ke [swara where is sanskar. didn’t he come till now]
swara- mom i don’t know exactly. he came in the evening but he got a call and he said that he has an important work and went. he must be coming. you all have your food. i will look after him when he comes.
sujata- haan dekh lena. chora bilkul bhi dhyan naa rakhe hai khud ka. aur ghar mein toh bilkul na dikhta aaj kal. [yes see to it. he doesn’t care for himself and doesn’t even be in the house.]
swara nodded and all started having their food while swara served them all and constantly looked towards the door for sanskar. soon all completed their dinner and retarded to their rooms. seeing raglak happily together she smiled and wished for their better future.
after sometime picking up her mobile she dialled sanskar’s number to know about his whereabouts as it was too late.
she was disappointed when it said that his mobile is switched off.
swara- why has he to switch off his mobile. now how should i know where is he? huh! when will he understand that people wait for him and he needs to inform them about his whereabouts. [she looked upward] god what should i do now. i am hungry but i want to eat with him and also i have to tell him everything. when will he come. in evening too when he came he did not let me speak and…[realising what she was thinking she blushed red and grabbed an apple while waiting for her sanskar]
don’t be confuse. today episode is from three days later from where i left the last episode. what happened in past i will tell you. so guys wait for the next episode. and i bet you, you will like the story a lot only if you read the further episodes.
and next episode tomorrow itself. so happy reading and thanks a lot for the comments.
and seebu thanks for informing me about my story being selected in wattpad and giving the link.