Asaalam alikom all
I know i didn’t update last week
But my lap broken down and it was hard for me to write the update all over again
I am sorry to you all
And i am sorry if its short boring update but promise you it will be more intense from now on as i hope…
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Swara
I sat on my desk trying to control my fasting breathes… dear lord help me… thank lord aman wasn’t here to see me like this… calm down swara… calm down… he is just a man… a normal man…. A very intimidating man who held a spell power over me… my lord..
I fold my hands to pray for brave and calmness…
Why does he affect me to much my lord.. why I am so weak near him… this shouldn’t be happening, I can’t have those feelings…
But that didn’t stop you from loving him, did it
Myself mocked me with sarcasm and I feel ashamed of my feelings and pray harder in my hear.. dear lord give me brevity and power to fight my wicked feelings…
You wasn’t praying much inside looking at his s*xy lips, did you?
“are you ok miss swara?”
I was snapped from my thoughts by the voice with some accent hint
“ji.. jiii… alano sir.. welcome..”
“ohh easy the chill, just call me alano”
…: hai beauty..
There was a man with alano sir, calling me that made me shiver in fear and cross my arms in comfort
“shut up kabeer…. Sorry swara.. don’t mind him, he is always like this…
I gave him small smile feeling uneasy
“so this is the swara you talk about!” said the person name kapeer giving me chills
Alano: just let Sanskar hear you but make sure you grand your death wish first.
Kapeer: f**k off
“haaaa” I gaped and sealed my palm on my lip gaining a confuse look
“cur.. cursing…is… no.. good”
I averted my gaze and like the floor was most interisiting thing in the room…
Alano: anyone with Sanskar?
(no) said mr Sanskar as he leaned to his door before I answer…
Alano: see you later swara
I simply nodded and after three went inside but not before I get mr Sanskar sweet smile… lord please…. I chanted in my inners… I put my protect glasses on and start working…. But even like that my only body was working but my mind was with him along with my heart… his charming looks, the deep hazel eyes guarded by his long eyelashes giving him a look I never phased in my life for any man. Some days he would be shaved clean and others his stubble would grow lightly…. His cheeks, his nose, his lips and its curve how I want….
I gasped at my self…. What I was doing? Dear lord… I left everything and went to rest room locking myself… I fold my hands and inside I saw myself staring to durga ma
“help me durga maa, don’t let his thoughts warp around me as I am weak to stop it, help me durgaa ma.. let me forget him… and kill his love in me”
I pray and pray but still his pictures come to my head, when my dad told me his decision about working in charity of mr Maheshwary, I searched secretly that night and his pictures filled my phone. Sanskar Maheshwary… my secret, my crush, and my deep buried love…
Gathering myself I went again to my office typing… time passed until strong perfume hit my nostrils and it was so feminine
“who are you??”
I looked at the woman who asked me that question, I saw knee boots and tight jeans then off shoulder top and beautiful hair and most beautiful face… she screamed with beautiful and alluring all around, I knew her on sight..
“mis.. miss kavita”
She simple huffed her hair in an attitude: and I said who are you?
I was still gazing her, she is Sanskar fiancée
“are you deaf??”
“no, no, I am not. I am swara, I am…”
She raised her hand ceasing my talk: save it behenji… is Sanskar inside?”
“i.. i.. don’t… means … I think so”
I got nervous and muffled my duptta… she was far beautiful than the pictures… than me..
“ahhh useless…” she said walking to the office before a voice stop her
“call her that ever again and I will make sure you pay for it”…I snapped my head to the person, why?
“huh really” said kavita…
“pruebame…inutil” “try me useless”
“what??”
“Come on miss swara, lets have some tea at the café”
I was shocked as why mr alano would say that for me or would be rude with golden godess like mis kavita. He came closer to me and hold his gesture in polite way (please) I muffled with my duptta even more and didn’t know what to do but walking with him and mr kapeer..
“ouch, it hurt” I heard mr kapeer say to miss kavita then we left to the cafee… durga ma please be by my side…
Sanskar
Kavita came through my door fuming already
“who is this girl Sanskar?’
“who?”
“the girl outside your office”
“ohh she is a trainer”
“and what a bihinji trainer like her do in this company and more over her desk is at your office”
Ok I am irrating but I will calm “it’s because this is My Company… and someone important recommend her to this company…”
“is she the girlfriend of that half friend, he is very annoying and…”
“KAVITA” when I shouted I swear she almost died, her eyes were wide of fear, her body stilled, and I almost could hear her heart beats…
“never ever again call alano that name. he is my close friend so give him respect.. had you got that?” I spoke slowly emphazing each word with venom making sure she got my threat. I hated when someone disrespect alano, I hate it to the guts, he had enough taunts and suffer in his life and I swore I won’t let it happen anymore.
“sanksar, you shout me… for him?, you.. you never shout me”
I sight cause it was true, its first time I do but she pushed me to it “you made me kavita, I warned you a lot about alano”
I sat on the coach holding my temples, dam…. Shshshs Sanskar, huh like I am not having enough… she came from behind and I felt her hands massage my shoulders
“I am.. huh..huh sorry.. Sanskar” she was softly sopping and i felt bad, her hands massaged my head and I relaxed.. I grap her hand and guide her to sit beside me…
“sorry”
She nodded, her eyes were sad but no tears, huh… I hugged her to me but my body was squirming uncomfortably, and I still don’t know the answer, why I don’t feel it right with my going to be wife while with tigersita it was most thing right I ever did…
“lets go out Sanskar it has been a while, please”
“ok”
I had to do this, I need to stop what I am doing and go back to my life and control it, no matter what.
Kavita gave me small smile, I touched her cheek and she purred softly… I must mind myself, for her, I leaned in and took her lips in mine. A knock disturbed our moment and we a parted
“come in”
Came aman giving me some papers but a sound caught my intention… a giggle
I go to the door and the scene I saw hitch my breath… swara was giggling, her hand covered her lips and was giggling
“you are such an idiot kapeer, you gave me salt”
“how I know diference yaar, they look same…”
“how do I drink now ah… idiot stupid”
“make new one yaar why u”
“hahahahahahhahahaha”
It seem alano and kapeer were silly fighting again and it make swara laugh… she was laughing trying to hide her lips behind her pam and try to hold her laugh miserably failing and I felt my heart flitter, her laugh bolted me like a lighting bolt and all I could do was smiling.
Alano and kapeer stood still on her sounds too, it was just so angilic… she stopped and notice us all eyes on her, she mumble her lips like she want to talk but didn’t know what to say, then she walk out hurry from the office
“what a weird behenji huh”
Kavita broke our trance and we looked at her, very weird how I see kavita now, she looked different to me, but what is it. I don’t know.
I went out with her and we lunched together then went to my house and she sat with family and left soon, I went to my room for rest as I decided to call alano as asked him about meuu.
“hi alano, any news from meuu”
“why would you ask me about this girl sanskar, blo*dy gir”
“alano what is your problem with this girl?”
“huh nothing sanskar… I don’t know…. Please don’t ask me, see kapeer ok”
“ok… see you later”
I didn’t know what is it with him, hope he is ok… I called kapeer and after a while I knew where meuu will be. Should I go or no?? I want to focus on kavita…. All right, today is last day, I wont look for her again, if I didn’t find her today I wont search ever and stop all this madness