SWASAN: ONLY FOR YOU [EPI-83]
i am so sorry for writing all about myself in the ff. it’s just came out which i never wished to share with anyone. but i feel so good now. and i wrote all that in last episode because first bubbly asked me to express my feelings and second because while i started typing my last episode that same cousin visited my house and then my brother was busy with her and this triggered all my feelings and i shared everything with you all. thank you all for the support and love.
so here is the next episode.
swara’s side-
the whole day swara did not had anything and nor did anyone come to her room. at night at dinner time mp came in the room and knowing that she did not eat anything from morning he was annoyed.
mp- [angry] what the hell is this. why didn’t you had your food.
swara- no reply.
mp- [more angry] [goes near her and fists her hair causing her pain] i asked you something.
swara- [wincing in pain] i will not have it. i eat or not that is none of your concern.[swara said in her weak voice protesting]
swara’s condition was very bad. her health was poor.
mp- ohh so you will protest me. now listen to me carefully. you silently have your dinner and from now on you will follow whatever i say or else i have other ways to get things done.
swara- you can’t do anything.
mp- will you eat or not.
swara – nooo
mp- ok then.
mp leaned towards swara with smirk and was so close to her while swara was beyond shocked and feared to what he is going to do.
swara- [stammering] what….. ar..e you ……doing. stay ….away.
mp- what can i do if you don’t listen. now that i am getting annoyed by your stubbornness and also impatient and can’t wait till you get fine completely.
swara was shocked. she pushed him with all her strength.
swara- dare you come near me. stay away.
mp- [laughed] baby you can’t keep me away. you are at my place. come on let me come close to you. [said this moving close to her]
swara- don’t i said stay away.
mp- how can i when you don’t listen to me.
swara- [moving back seeing him approaching her] i don’t want to listen to you. don’t come near me. just stay away.
mp- no baby.i can’t
swara- i will eat. i will eat the dinner. now stay away. go from here.
mp- how do i believe you.
swara- i will eat now. you see yourself and go.
swara moved to take plate being as far as possible from him and started eating.
mp- that’s good. have a good sleep. see you tomorrow.
mp left from there while swara cried out her heart and slept due to tiredness.
at sanskar’s side.
sanskar made the kids sleep and thinking about the past.
swara completed her third month and all went smooth till now. raglak shekhar visited once more during this span making swara annoyed but sanskar was there to calm her before she burst out on anyone.
one particular day at night both swasan were pretending to sleep for each other. first they slept as usual in each other’s embrace but then swara moved out and slept turning other side. sanskar who was pretending to sleep felt this but still pretended. he thought that it is even more better. now both were lying facing each other’s back. guess they are waiting for something and for them time was passing very slowly but somehow they managed without speaking and without letting the other know that they are awake. when the clock striked 12 both got up slowly and turned to the other and got surprised to see the other awake.
swara/sanskar- you were awake.
swasan smiled as they spoke simultaneously.
swara/sanskar- happy wedding anniversary sanskar/swara.
swasan laughed a little.
swara- hmm so my prince was awake to wish me.
sanskar- no i was awake to wish my wife and my life.
swara- oo seems you love your wife a lot.
sanskar- yes that toh i do.
swara- you know i too love my husband a lot. today i became my husband’s wife with whole heart and soul [sanskar smiled on swara’s confession which he already knows]. you know my husband became my friend first then best friend and then we got tied up with him loving me but me considering him my friend and finally i fell for him.[swara was smiling blushingly while telling all this]
sanskar was staring her with love.
sanskar- [cupped swara’s face] swara [huskily] i love you, will love you till eternity. [kissed her forehead]
swara- love you too sanskar. happy wedding anniversary.
sanskar- happy wedding anniversary. [he claimed her lips into a soft kiss with love with her reciprocating her]
they were disturbed by the knock on the door but sanskar didn’t leave swara until he kissed her till he wished. they parted and swara slightly hit him on chest while blushing.
swara- you naa.
sansakr- yes i your love.
swara- now let’s open the door or will have to be embarrassed by their teasing.
sanskar- hmm.
both got down the bed and sanskar opened the door and all shouted in chorus happy wedding anniversary while swasan were smiling but closed their ears on their shout. when they became silent then swasan sighed and thanked them.
swasan- thank you.
tanmay- what took you both so much time to open the door.
sanskar- [raised his eyebrows] so much time means. you all are here at midnight and obviously we would be sleeping at this hour so…..
rashika- haan so bhai…..
sanskar furrowed his brows- so it took time to open the door.
rashika- oooo.
swara- [excitedly] hmmm so rashika can i have the pleasure to take those gifts you have brought.
sanskar looked at swara’s excitement.
sanskar- swara aren’t you excited a bit more than other times.
swara- [pout] sanskarrr they have gifts in their hands and obviously it’s for me so will be excited naa.
sanskar- gifts for you or us. let me remind you it’s our wedding anniversary swara so it’s for us and not you alone.
swara- [angry] sanskar are you going to explain this or let me take the gifts and mr. [pointing a finger to him] what is yours is mine too. yes or no?
sanskar- obviously it is but….
swara- if it mine then from where but came from. [with frown]
all of them were giggling seeing there cute fights.
sanskar- [calmly] swara i was telling that….
uttara- [interrupting] bhai was telling that you can take gifts bhabhi. so you take first gift from me. [handed a packet]
swara- [smiling and hugged uttara] thank you uttara.
uttara- my pleasure bhabhi.
rashika- [to tease swara] bhaiii this is my gift. [giving packet to sanskar]
swara was looking at them and uttmay and rishita were giggling while sumi was seeing her daughter’s antics and rashika was having a teasing smile and sanskar was in confusion that what reaction to give.
swara- rashika is it only for sanskar.
sanskar- n….[interrupted]
rashika- yaa cutie. see di jiju gave gift to you toh i should gift to bhai naa otherwise he will be left.
swara nodded understandingly.
sanskar- now enough. swara gifts are for both of us and if you want you can open it and keep them also. ok.i won’t mind.
swara- but anniversary is for both of us naa. so gifts is for both of us.
sanskar- now only you wanted to take all gifts and now you want to share.
swara- haan gifts are for we two of us not only me. that’s why?
sanskar- [fake smile] haan [in mind] her mood swings have started sanskar. don’t forget.
then swasan took blessings of sumi and rishita and talking for a while they left for their respective homes and rooms.
in swasan room-
sanskar- [back hugging swara] so princess what do you want as your gift.
swara- whatever you give but haan attach a pack of cadbury celebrations in it. ok.
sanskar- [smiled at swara’s demand] ok princess [kissed her cheeks from back] but still say me if you want something specific.
swara turned around and putting her arms across his neck.
swara- sanskar you gave me everything i needed and i don’t want anything more than this. just we live like this always and you be happy and smile like this. it’s the best gift for me.
sanskar- [touched and felt extremely loved, tears formed in his eyes] he was looking at her with some passion.
swara- sanskar why are you looking at me like this.
sanskar- swara no one has loved me like this as you do. with all my flaws and sins i did, you accepted me and made me a better person i am and every time you make me feel so loved and that how important i am. i never felt like this with anyone. the people who raised me up who were with me in my life and who cared for me loved me always were loving me but their love was always bound by their expectations but it’s only you who expects things from me but that’s always for me, for my betterment.
sanskar- i love you swara. i love you so much. [said with tears finally flowing down his eyes making swara to cry]
swara- [crying] sanskar [wiped his tears] you are too bad.
sanskar- [composing himself seeing her crying and wiping her tears] ssshhhh why are you crying.
swara- you made me cry. it’s your fault.
sanskar- sorry baba but how did i make you cry.
swara- you were crying naa and you talked so emotionally that i felt to cry. so it is your mistake naa. [rubbing her nose]
sanskar- [smiled with tears] yes it’s my mistake [wiped his tears] accha see i am not crying now so you too stop crying.
swara- haan but it is not in my control naa.
sanskar- accha but if you don’t stop crying then i will open the gifts myself.
swara- no sanskar i will also open. [she wiped her tears]
swara hurriedly sat on the bed and started opening first gift.
swara- [stopped opening] sanskar what gift you want from me.
sanskar- [sitting beside her] nothing.
swara- arree tell naa. what is nothing. think of something and tell me.
sanskar- what should i think and tell if i really don’t want anything as i have everything. you can declare me as a man with everything. hahaha.
swara- [fake angry] will you tell me or not.
sanskar- [sighing] swara i seriously don’t want anything. i have everything and all the happiness a person wants. you are with me, because of you maa and ayush are with us and you gave me our son our champ, and now you are expecting with our second baby[kept hand on her belly]. moreover i have two supporting sisters, such a good friend cum brother in law tanmay and sir and maam as guide in our life. what else do i need. see i have everything.
swara- [cupping his one cheek] sanskar i am asking a gift which i can give you on this occasion.
sanskar- you are so desperate to give a gift then ummmm…..yaa got it. you give me a kiss everyday and and drink milk and coconut water without much argument.
swara shocked hearing his demand.
swara- [sad] you want this from me. do i trouble and argue with you a lot.[tears formed in her eyes] i am sorry..
sanskar- [feeling guilty] no swara i am sorry. i didn’t mean it in that way. you don’t trouble me. [wiped her tears and cupped her face] you know how much i like when you demand something from me and argue with me. it makes me feel lively. i just said it unknowingly. i understand your condition. never ever think that you trouble me. ok. it becomes difficult sometimes to handle you in this state but i also know that it’s not with your will. [kissed her forehead]
sanskar- but swara you must give my gift. daily one kiss.
swara- [overwhelmed by his care and love] sanskar you kiss me daily then why are you asking me this as your gift.
sanskar- point to be noted my princess. i kiss you daily but i am asking kiss from you. you should kiss me daily without fail. so will you give me this gift.
swara- [blushing] sanskarrr.
sanskar- i know my name. say will you give me this gift or not.
swara- [smiling shyly] ok.
sanskar- what did you say.
swara looked at him and again said slowly- ok i will.
sanskar- [teasing] swara i didn’t heard. say naa properly.
swara angered a bit as she understood that he is acting and teasing. then she pulled him by collar and kissed him tight and before he responds she parted.
swara- got your answer.
sanskar shocked +happy.-hmm.
he smirked a little and then leaned on swara and kissed her without letting her to reciprocate and parted.
swara- what was that.
sanskar- tit for tat and dear you will kiss me then i should also kiss you. these are called manners.
swara- huh! such unique manners. from where did you learn.
sanskar- swara it’s your prince manners. so to learn them you should attend such classes from me. i will train you perfectly.
swara- ohhh but you know what i don’t need training from any shameless trainer like you.
sanskar- but i dearly want to train you.
swara- sanskar now stop all this and let us sleep. i am very sleepy.
sanskar- ok come. [he kept the gifts on table] now sleep.
he made swara lye properly and himself laid beside her and turning to her side kept his hand on her belly.
sanskar- swara think about the training.
swara- [hit him on chest] sanskar shut up. you naa are really so shameless. sleep.
sanskar- princess shameless toh i am but only for you. [swara was about to say something but sanskar interrupted] accha now sleep. i won’t disturb. good night.
swara- good night. [kept her hand over sanskar’s on her belly and both dozed off.
in the morning they offered prayers to god and no party as swara did not wanted. it was completely a homely function. swara prepared kheer for sanskar and other favourite dishes while sanskar too prepared breakfast for swara with his own hands.
all were at dining table. swara served sanskar and sanskar to swara. they both were very happy. after breakfast it was time for swara and swayyam to struggle drinking milk.
swayyam- [giving glass to swara] mumma finish it.
swara- baby i will but first you drink naa.
swayyam- mumma drink it fast then i will also drink.
swara- baby it’s taste does not suit me. let it be and you drink yours.
swayyam- mumma this is for my baby so drink it and yes i have added bournvita also, so drink it. fast.
swara drank the milk and made yucky faces. sumi, ayush and sanskar were giggling.
swara- see i drank now your turn.
swayyam looked at his glass as if pleading it to vanish. he then picked up his glass and drank it in a go and he too made faces after that.
the day passed and whole day sanskar was with swara as it was her demand. in evening all young ones were gathered in the garden area and talking.[i.e. swasan uttmay and rashika. and swayyam and ayush were playing]
rashika- hmm so bhai tell something about your love story. i mean di have told me but it was so brief. i want to know more.
sanskar- what should i tell you when you know it already.
rashika- bhai tell us ….haan tell us what made you fall for her. i mean there must be some point when you got affected by cutie or when actually you started loving cutie.
sanskar thought for a while and then hesitantly answered.
sanskar- [lost] when i hurted her and her tears made me realise that i was doing wrong.
swara too was hearing him quitely and with concentration but his answer amazed her .
rashika- [felt that she asked wrong question] sorry bhai voh i just got curious to know. you don’t….
sanskar- no it’s ok.[to swara] swara do you remember that you came to take your mobile from repair shop and there a man snatched it from you, i mean i in disguise took the evidence from you and you questioned me that why i am doing it. you cried that day and that moment i felt bad infact something bothered me and that was your truthful eyes and those tears that came out of it. that made me restless. your eyes which held truth and innocence made me to think of my actions and i don’t know but i stopped doing anything which harms you. i mean i was so into my revenge but then when it was to hurt you i couldn’t. but yaa then too i couldn’t stop ragini and in sangeet function when you got drugged i felt bad. i think that was the start of you making your place in my heart. [sanskar said all what he felt while swara formed tears]
sanskar- [seeing her tears and guilty] i am sorry.
swara- [wiping her tears] no need. i already told you to forget about all that and we are not gonna talk about it in future too. that is past and has nothing to do with us in present. ok.
sanskar nodded.
rashika- offoo so senti are they. all time only crying. you know you both should join in tv shows. you will get high trps for making others cry.
then they started talking about other things. all cut the cake and had dinner together and finally they were back to their homes. the day was only foe swasan. they spent the whole day together and enjoyed and felt blessed to have each other.
at night in swasan room.
both were sitting on the bed. sanskar leaning on headboard and swara resting her back on his chest as if both are back hugging.
swara- accha sanskar you said that my eyes made you fall for me. what else was there in me that made you to love me.
sanskar- first you tell what made you to love me so much.
swara- won’t lie but it’s your unconditional love trust and support you showed for me made me to love you. no one in this world loved me the way you do and you made me feel special everytime. without for your own self you cared for me. everytime you tried to protect me and took blames on yourself for things you never did. these things made me to fall for you. you are handsome and have everything a girl wishes for but inspite of those things in you i loved your heart whose every beat made me to hear my name. you loved me selflessly but my love had a hidden selfishness and that was to be loved by love. [she looked at sanskar tilting her head who was smiling at her so true confession in which she missed to say that her selfish love for him was so selfless that she can give her life for him and again come back to him to give him love, to love him and be by his side trusting him and correct in his every step]
sanskar kissed her on cheek slightly.
swara- [smiled] accha now you say.
sanskar looked for a while at swara while she became confused as he did not respond.
swara- sanskar say naa.
sanskar made her to turn and face him and cupped her face.
sanskar- everything in you and everything about makes me to fall for you again and again. your these truthful eyes which are so deep yet an open book.
sanskar kissed on her forehead with a lot of affection and looked at her intensely.
AAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAA
PEE LOON TERE NILE NILE NAINOON SE SABNAM
PEE LOON TERE GEELE GEELE HONTHON KI SARGAM
PEE LOON HAI PEENE KA MAUSAM.
sanskar kissed on her eyes and caressed her cheeks and face sensuously.
[TERE SANG ISHQ KARI HAI
TERE SANG EK KHUMARI HAI
TERE SANG CHAIN BHI MUJHKO
TERE SANG BEKARARI HAI]*2
sanskar- i fell for your smile which gives me peace. [made swara lye and laid beside her] these lips [caressed her lower lip and then traced her lips with his thump completely making her breath heavily] when they curve into a perfect smile or when they part to bring out your giggle and laugh i fall for you that time.
TERE BIN JI NAHI LAGTA
TERE BIN JEE NAHI SAKTA
TUJHPE HAI HARE
MAINE WARE DO JAHAN
QURBAN MEHEBAAN
KI MAIN TOH QURBAAN
SUN LE SADA TERE QURBAAN.
sanskar- your presence around me which gives me pleasure and happiness, makes me fall for you. when you are not there i feel vacant empty as if i have nothing. my life depends on you swara.
HOSH MEIN RAHUN KYUN AAJ MAIN
TU MERE BAHOON MEIN SIMTI HAI
MUJHME SAMAYI HAI YUN
JIS TARAH TU KOI HO NADEEN
TU MERE SEENE MEIN CHUPTI HAI
SAGAR TUMHARA MAIN HUN
sanskar- your embrace where i feel the warmth of your love which no one gives me makes me fall for you. i want to live in your embrace and i know you want the same and feel the same as i do.
PEE LOON TERI DHIMIDHIMI
LAHROON KI CHAMCHAM
PEE LOON TERI SONDHI SONDHI
SAANSOON KO HAR DUM
PEE LOON HAI PEENE KA MAUSAM
sanskar- your voice that enchants my name makes me feel so good. i find my name the best when you take it because i feel your emotions through it. your voice not only is like a song but breath also feels like a melody which mingles with mine each time i come close to you. [he kissed on her nose tip]
[TERE SANG ISHQ KARI HAI
TERE SANG EK KHUMARI HAI
TERE SANG CHAIN BHI MUJHKO
TERE SANG BEKARARI HAI]*2
sanskar-swara your fragrance which drives me crazy for you. [smelled her nuzzling his face in her neck making her to blush and unknowingly to gasp at the proximity and the way he is telling everything to her]
SHAAM KO MILU JO MAIN TUJHE
TU BURA SUBAH NA JANE
KUCH MAAN JATI HAI YE
HAR LAMHA HAR GHADI HAR PEHER
BHI TERI YAADOON SE TADPA KE
MUJHKO JALATI HAI YE
sanskar- now that we are together since so long still i need your presence all the time around me. my need for you increases for you by every minute and separation kills me a thousand more times. i don’t know what exactly i love in you but i love you for what you are and i love you the most. just be with me like this forever.
PEE LOON MAIN DHEERE DHEERE
JALNE KA YE GAM
PEE LOON IN GORE GORE
HAATHON SE HAMDAM
PEE LOON HAI PEENE KA MAUSAM
sanskar kissed swara all over her face and she was burning in his touch. he placed his lips on her’s and they both were enjoying their intimacy with pure love.
[TERE SANG ISHQ KARI HAI
TERE SANG EK KHUMARI HAI
TERE SANG CHAIN BHI MUJHKO
TERE SANG BEKARARI HAI]*2
both forgetting everything were indulged in showering their love on the other.
AAAA TERE BIN JI NAHI LAGTA
TERE BIN JEE NAHI SAKTA
TUJHPE HAI HARE
MAINE WARE DO JAHAN
QURBAN MEHEBAAN
KI MAIN TOH QURBAAN
SUN LE SADAAA TERE QURBAAN.
they kissed and explored each other and finally slept in each other’s embrace mumbling i love you to each other. their pure love was their reason to live and completed them both. they needed no one else.
done with this part.
guys sorry for late update and now i will post next week and will see if i could do so earlier. thanks for the support and yaa i think in next part or the one after that will start with revelation of how is shekhar with sumi. and after the revelation will come the part of mp’s revelation and swasan reunion.