SWASAN: ONLY FOR YOU [EPI-98]
sitting in the study he was crying palming his face. he thought that she was horrified with what happened…. somewhere he felt that something bad had happened and when he was finding her then he knew that anything could have happened with her and he was ready to accept her in any way because he love her and she means his life….. but when she said that she was in coma and woke up just 10 days ago the thought of worse or something like this happened with swara was erased from his mind. but now when she herself is telling him about the happenings he is not able to console her… to set the damage happened….. he could feel her pain and broken form is stabbing his heart. he wished that in any way if he could have reached her earlier she would have been fine…. he needn’t see his life, his love crying and in pain like he is seeing now.
he curses himself for not finding her earlier….. after crying for some time he composed himself for swara. determining himself he walked towards his room to see swara exhausted because of crying but still tears endlessly coming out of her eyes….
[BEBASI DARD KA ALAM
TUM MUJHE DE DO APNE GAM]*2
KHAMOSIYAAN BHI DO, TANHAIYAAN BHI DO
BECHAINIYAAN BHI DO DE DO NAA
a girl can only feel that pain when someone unwantedly tries to touch and impose themselves on her.
BEBASI DARD KA ALAM
TUM MUJHE DE DO APNE GAM
KHAMOSIYAAN BHI DO, TANHAIYAAN BHI DO
BECHAINIYAAN BHI DO DE DO NAA
she was leaning on the bed with closed eyes with tears drenched face. sanskar slowly came in and sat beside her maintaining some distance in order not to scare her or create discomfort.
sanskar- [with concern and love] swara…
swara opened her eyes and wiped her tears but did not look at him.
BHEEGI PALKON SE CHOORA LUNGA NAMI
RAHNE DOONGA NAA KANHI KOI KAMI
HEY HEYYYYYEYY
sanskar- won’t you look at me….. [swara did not react] [broken voice] i am sorry swara i couldn’t keep you safe….i couldn’t protect you and find you….. infact i reached you because of your effort….i am so sorry….i am sorry…..swara please look at me once please.. [sanskar pleaded her]
BHEEGI PALKON SE CHOORA LUNGA NAMI
RAHNE DOONGA NAA KANHI KOI KAMI
TUMKO DAAMAN NAA BHEEGONE DUNGA
AB KABHI TUMKO NAA RONE DUNGA
for swara however she thinks that he doesn’t matter but the truth is she can’t bear him sad or pleading her. she turned towards him and looked at him with her red puffy eyes and pale face.
sanskar- i am sorry swara i am really sorry…it’s my mistake that i can’t protect you. but please don’t be like this. i am with you and will always be and you know this… we will come over all this…….[he forwarded his hand towards her but she slightly moved back]
sanskar took his hand back.
ULJHANE GAM KI PARCHAAYI
HOO DE DO MUJHE APNI TANHAAI
GUMNAMIYAA BHI DO NAKAMIYAAN BHI DO
VIRAANIYA BHI DO DE DO NAA
swara- sanskar stay away from me…. he made me impure.. he touched me….. he….. [closed her eyes in pain] you just stay away. i am not worth it..
sanskar- ok…i won’t come near you….i won’t touch you….i won’t… but it is not because that basta*d dared to malign you or he touc [couldn’t say] …….. i will not come near you because you are not comfortable….i won’t ever force you for anything….you take your time because i love you for what you are and not your body. you are the purest for me and never ever dare to say yourself impure…. i will wait and do all to get my swara back…. and you know what the most special character of my swara…it is her strength and her unconditional love for me and capability to stand for herself and others when it comes to truth. the one you are now is not my swara and i agree to this. u know you have unconditional love for me still, you are still thinking for others, you have capability to stand for truth but the most important thing which is lacking is your strength and the capability to see the truth which surely will come back in you with passing time and this is my belief. [swara looked at him stunned] TERE HONTHO PE SAJA DUNGA HASI
TERI RAANHON MEIN SAJA DUNGA KHUSHI
HO HOO TERE HONTHO PE SAJA DUNGA HASI
TERI RAANHON MEIN SAJA DUNGA KHUSHI
swara- it will never be back sanskar…… i don’t have any strength left in me and i won’t be able to love you back…..like before. so don’t expect
sanskar- if you don’t have your strength then i will become your strength swara because in no way i am going to give up on you. you are my life…i live only for you….for your love and i will earn that back same as i gained it years back and got at each step of my life whether what ever the condition was and will again get that in present and future because i am extremely selfish in this case. [swara was yet again stunned and surprised to see sanskar so determined]
TUM MUJHE APNA MANTO HO AGAR
YUN KHAFA HOKAR NAA JHUKAO NAZAR
MUSKILE APNI MAZBOORI
HOO DE DO MUJHE SAARI BENOORI
PARESHANIYAAN BHI DO
HAIRAANIYAAN BHI DO
NEIGEBAANIYAAN BHI DO DE DO NAA
sanskar moved forward and inspite of her reluctant wiped her tears and cupped her face and kissed her forehead affectionately.
sanskar- i don’t like tears in your eyes. go and wash your face and come down… champ and angel must be waiting for us.
[BEBASI DARD KA ALAM
TUM MUJHE DE DO APNE GAM]*2
KHAMOSIYAAN BHI DO, TANHAIYAAN BHI DO
BECHAINIYAAN BHI DO DE DO NAA
sanskar got up and exited the room while swara looked at his retreating figure and came down and joined the kids, followed by swara after sometime.
sanu- mumma mumma…. [she chirped as she saw swara downstairs coming towards them and jumped from sanskar’s lap] mumma you know papa told that tomorrow something special will happen. do you know mumma what is tomorrow. papa is not telling me. [said with a pout]
swayyam- yes mumma do you know.
swara nodded in no and looked at sanskar who just shrugged and continued looking in his mobile.
sanu- you also don’t know.. huh!
sanu- [came to sanskar] papa tell naa what is the surprise.
sanskar- angel it is surprise and surprises are not meant to be told. you see tomorrow. when i went i told i have surprise for you and brought mumma back so this time also you wait for the surprise. you will like it. [kissed on her cheek] now i have some work… i will come in some time till then you be with mumma.
sanskar- [getting up from sofa] swara i will come in an hour or so. you will be ok…
swara nodded confused.
swayyam- papa bring rasgullas…
sanskar- champ eat less sweets…
swayyam- papa i asked for mumma. it is her favourite…[pouted]
sanskar- [pulled his cheeks lightly] ok i will bring don’t give this expression and i will bring your favourite chocolates too. happy.
swayyam- hmm. happy…
sanskar- uff champ is back to old form… good [kissed his forehead]
sanskar went leaving confused swara.
swara- [in mind] what he is planning….i hope he understands that i am..imp..[thoughts interrupted]
sanu- mumma play with me naa. come..
swayyam- no mumma this bandariyaa always plays with that dolls and makes me play with that kitchen stuffs. huh! mumma let’s play video games.
sanu- bhaiyuuuuu i am not bandariyaa…. you are bandar bhaiyuu… and mumma i don’t understand that games.. you come with me and play with me…
they fought like this for sometime and swara played with them one by one and then made them study. sanskar came back after 3-4 hours but did not say about where he went and for what. swara found his behaviour strange and in all this she is not realising that she is coming out of her thoughts slowly. she is again thinking about sanskar like she did earlier.
swayyam- mumma i am not able to do this….
swara- baby see this way.. [she solved it by doing the sum] now you do by yourself..
swayyam again tried but couldn’t
swayyam- mumma i can’t.. huh! i don’t want to do it.. leave it..
swara- baby see we should never lose hope. we should try and try till we reach success. until we fail how will we understand what wrong we are doing. so when you fail it’s not your mistake. learn from it and always keep hope. that gives us strength to do our work properly. now my baby will try naa.
swayyam- ok i will try again.
sanu- haan bhaiyuu learn from me. see i have written all alphabets correctly and also learnt the names also.
swayyam- when i was small like you i also learnt and see i can do so many questions.
swara- baby when she will grow like you then she will also learn all this. sanu show me what have you written. [swara saw it] good. accha come we will learn this poem.
like this swara made them study and sanskar who was back was seeing everything from outside the room. he entered the room.
sanskar- champ angel i have prepared the surprise. just we have to wait for tomorrow morning.
sanu- papa tell naa what surprise. i will not tell anyone..
sanskar- sorry angel but you have to wait. accha now complete your works and then we will have dinner. ok
sanskar went out of room and swara came behind him.
swara- sanskar [sanskar stopped] sanskar what are you thinking to do. please stop all this and accept the reality.. i can’t..be with you and keep up your hopes. please understand..
sanskar- someone right now said that we should always keep hopes and try and try we will reach success. i am just following.
swara- [dumbfounded] sanakar..i…
sanskar- swara you know what i can see the hope in your eyes. it’s you who need to realise. by the way i have some work. bye.
after dinner swara went with kids to their room.
sanu- mumma tell us story naa..
swayyam- no mumma sing for us naa. you know when you were not here then many times papa played your recording but now you sing..
sanu- yes mumma…
swara- hmmm…
swara started singing-
[AA LEKE CHALU TUJHKO EK AISE DESH MEIN]*2
[MILTI HAI JAHAN KHUSIYAAN PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN]*2
PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN…. AA LEKE CHALU TUJHKO
[HOO CHAND CHAHE AADHA..HOO PHIR BHI ROSHNI]*2
UMEED JO NAA CHUTE HAR BAATH HAI BANI
RAATOON KE SUR SE NIKLE SUBAH KI RAGINI
[LORI TUJHE SUNAUN]*2 BACHPAN KI EK MAIN
LORI TUJHE SUNAUN BACHPAN KI EK MAIN
[MILTI HAI JAHAN KHUSIYAAN PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN]*2
PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN…….
AA LEKE CHALU TUJHKO….
[MAIN AASMAAN SE KHIDKIYOON KO GHAR MEIN LAYI HUN]*2
SAARI KI SAARE TARE YAHAN CHUN KE LAYI HUN
SAPNO MEIN RANG MAN KE YAHAN BHAR KE AYI HUN
[HAR DARD BHUL JAUN]*2 YUNHI KHEL KHEL MEIN
HAR DARD BHUL JAUN YUNHI KHEL KHEL MEIN
[MILTI HAI JAHAN KHUSIYAN PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN]*2
PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN…AA LEKE CHALU TUJHKO
[DENA TU MAN KI SAKTI MALIK MERE MUJHE]*2
MERI KATHA VYATHA HAI SAB PATA TUJHE
MAIN JAB BHI DAGMAGAUN TU THAMNA MUJHE
[CHODE HAI SWAPN SARE]*2 TERI DEKH REKH MEIN
CHODE HAI SWAPN SARE TERI DEKH REKH MEIN
[MILTI HAI JAHAN KHUSIYAAN PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN]*2
PARIYOON KE BHESH MEIN….
AA LEKE CHALU TUJHKO….HMMMM …LALALA…HMMMM ..LALALAL…HMMMM…HMMM…
both of them slept. sanskar came in.
sanskar- swara [swara turned to see sanskar and was nervous] medicines [forwarded the medicines]
swara took them and gulped them looking at sanskar through corner of her eyes.
sanskar- sleep. [pulled the comforter above covering her]
kissed her forehead and both the kids and settled himself on couch.
swara- [hesitantly] sanskar it will cause you pain sleeping there… you go in the room and sleep comfortably.
sanskar- then i can’t look at you three naa. here i can sleep peacefully.
swara- then you..come..on bed..and sleep..
sanskar- you won’t be comfortable…
swara- [avoided looking at him] i wil be..you please come and sleep here….. [before he could deny] otherwise i will feel guilty.
sanskar came and slept on other side of bed with a smile and unknowingly swara too slept happily.
next day they all got ready and sanskar already told swara that kids won’t go school that day and knowing this swayyam and sanu were really happy. they all came down and sanskar said swara to go in inhouse temple and wait for him. he will come therein a while.
swara confusedly went in the temple along with kids and waited. till then uttmay with manik and rashika and rishita too came there and seeing swara in temple they all went there.
uttara- bhabhi all ready.
swara- all ready means.. and why are you ready like going somehwere.
rashika- cutie why are you asking as if you don’t know.
swara- i don’t know…
sanskar- kiddo till now i didn’t tell them as it was surprise for them and one surprise for you all. [sanskar said coming towards them with a bag]
sanskar- come all of you.
sanskar- swara let’s pray first.
swasan did aarti of god and swara distributed prasad to all.
sanskar stood in front of her.
sanskar- swara first step. after so much happened i want to start our lives like it was. sorry for not able to prevent all that happened and now let’s begin from where we left.
swayyam- papa what are you saying we can’t understand.
sanskar- champ you remember you asked once that you wanna see my and mumma’s marriage.
swayyam nodded.
sanskar- so now not completely but we you can see some moments of my and mumma’s marriage.. first ring ceremony.
swayyam and sanu jumped in excitement while others were happy and swara shocked.
sanskar took out two ring boxes and gave one to swara.
he asked for her hand and swara in shocked state just forwarded her hand. but sanskar stopped and moved towards god’s idol. he wrapped moli [sacred thread] around the ring and then came to swara and made her wear the ring while all clapped happily.
sanskar- swara your turn..
swara- haann..haann
swara too made him wear the ring.
sanskar- champ angel you know when it was our engagement then by mistake i lost mumma’s ring just before the ceremony and then i made ring of moli and made her wear and that’s why today i wrapped that ring with moli. right swara.
swara remembered their actual ring ceremony and smiled unknowingly and nodded her head.
MANGALAM BHAGWAN VISHNU….mantra plays in background
then sanskar took out the mangalsutra and made swara wear it and when his hand touched her skin she became nervous but sanskar just gave an assuring smile to her. he then filled her hairline with vermillion and swara closed her eyes and a lone tear escaped her eyes.
sanskar- [slowly to swara while all clapped] i know the importance of vermillion for you.
he then took out bangles and sakha pola [white and red bangles swara wore in serial] and made swara wear them delicately and lastly made her wear new SS pendent.
sanskar- we will always be together. what if for some time he took the symbol of togetherness we will remake it because the symbol is important only if we are together.
uttmay- congrats bhai and bhabhi.
sanskar smiled and swara just looked at sanskar emotionally.
swayyam- wow papa i will tell my classmates that i saw your and mumma’s marriage.
sanu- i will also tell. it was just like in serial… yeyyy. mumma papa come down naa.
swasan kneeled in front of them and both kissed them on their cheeks.
swayyam- papa very good surprise.
sanskar- real surprise for you both is waiting. we are going for a trip and we will enjoy there a lot.
swayyam/sanu- yeyyyy thank you papa. you are best.
sanskar- hahaha i know.
swayyam- bua are you not excited.
rashika- i am and buddy the idea was mine only so praise me.
swayyam- ok ok but papa is taking us naa. but you are also great. happy.
rashika- very happy.
sanskar- chalo all will have breakfast.
everyone moved and swara was also going when sanskar held her wrist making her nervous again. sanskar left her hand and whispered sorry.
sanskar- sorry voh something more is left. one minute.
sanskar took out beautiful earrings from the polybag and came near swara.
sanskar- first time unknowingly i admired you and observed you when dida came for muhdikhai and you were putting your earrings in nervousness. [showing her the earrings] can i?
swara hesitantly agreed and sanskar carefully made her wear the earrings making sure he does not touch her objectionably or make her uncomfortable.
sanskar- swara i stopped praying god after you left but today i again entered here and prayed god because my belief on him is only if you are with me. I LOVE YOU SWARA. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD, MORE THAN MYSELF. I LOVE YOU A LOT.
swara didn’t replied only looked down not able to meet his gaze which gives her immense hopes love honesty and happiness which she fears to accept. she was in tears.
sanskar kissed on her forehead wiping her tears.
sanskar- you don’t need to think much because i know your heaart is full of love for me. chalo everyone is waiting. and swara now you look completely like my swara. smile and genuine happiness in your eyes are left which soon will come to you and then you will be my swara again. come.
sanskar moved towards holding swara’s hand.
they all had breakfast and after packing their stuffs all sat in a vanity and drove to a beautiful resort. as soon as they reached there all exclaimed in happiness. sanskar has booked the complete resort for themselves with t
ight security. swara was nervous coming out but sanskar held her hand and said don’t worry and move on. i am there. we are under high security. don’t worry. just trust me.
swara moved inside with him holding her hand along with others trusting him because that is something which will never break.
done with this part.
next epi i think i will post after two days so please wait.
guys what happens is never in one’s hand. but it’s us and the people around us who influence us the most. good or bad is written by destiny but how to take it and handle is in our hand.