SWASAN: ONLY FOR YOU [EPI-99]

SWASAN: ONLY FOR YOU [EPI-99]

chubby you wanted to know what i think and what i feel when i write this ff and i told you that i will tell later. so now i will share what i feel.
whatever i have written in this ff is more real than fictional. all the feelings and emotions i have mentioned is all from the real life except at few points where it may seem to you as fictional. let me explain.

1. swasan leaving mm and breaking there relation with maheshwari’s and gadodias—- in my very own house i have seen few relations breaking because of misbehaviour between two family members and mistrust. so this is very real.

2. greed of property and plantings’ to gain them- i have seen many families separating because of this issues. in some cases realisation dawns in people that they are wrong later like in case of aadarsh but in some cases we see people going to any extent to gain what they want like parineeta but that case is in less people but that is also seen.

3. rashika bonding with sanskar and family- relations like these are very rare to be seen but if you find around you, you can find few of them. there are many relations like this formed. in my school i have seen few of my friends sharing brother and sister relation and it’s quite strong. although i have never been so talkative and been very friendly with anyone except few. so i myself have not felt them but yaa i have seen relations like that. well i have always a hidden desire to make someone my sister or brother or atleast bestest friend to whom i can share all my secrets and all that i want to do and that close one help me in everything out. i have always been like a reserved girl not in sense of tradition or like that but someone who keeps herself and her thoughts and desires within herself. otherwise i am very outspoken when it comes to right or wrong and quite strict or angry type of girl as all tells me.

but i don’t actually wanna be like that. i too want to enjoy life and all my fantasies but i need someone who will understand me and whom i will trust more than anything in this world and share everything with that person and most probably i want it to be my life partner. although i say i won’t marry but i know i will get married when it will be my age and correct time and so i have saved many of my dreams to share with my life partner. i wanna roam different places with him and do pranks on someone as i have never done one on anyone till now.

4. the case of shekhar suffering from cancer and ayush need of a father.- well one of my distant cousin’s father suffered from cancer and died when he was i think 13 years of age. what i have written here is absolutely the truth of life. he got to know about his cancer late and so could not be saved and another problem was money too. i have made sumi and shekhar together because of a reason. my cousin in that tender age used to go with his father for his check ups and the treatment he used to take.

in that age he came to know the reality of world. his father used to earn a little which could not support the family living and they used to live at my aunt’s parents house with all facilities provided by them. he loved his children but when it was about work he was not much successful and neither he tried much. the impact later was that after he died my cousin did not shed a tear and went into depression for some time and also heard taunts from his classmates and they made fun of him too. it’s only me with whom he shared all this because inspite of differences between us when it comes to understanding and atleast in these matters we shared a good bond. that’s why i have written this part.

in this case for few years my aunt lived separately from uncle too when my cousin was small but she truly loved him and hence they were back together. many a times these all seem to be not so worth being together and or may be when i write you feel this is fictional and wrong but it’s the reality of life.

5. raglak coming with shekhar and visiting swasan or there meets- well although you break your relations with someone then also there are many situations when you have to face each other. you can break relations with one but not with the whole world. in one or other way people come face to face and in families relations are so interrelated that even if you break relations with one you can’t with other. same is case raglak have no relation with swasan but they do have relation with shekhar and ayush and sumi who considered ragini as daughter then also.

5. well the case of sahil kidnapping swara—-i don’t know how much can that be real but from the news we often see that girl runaway with lover or obsessed lover kidnapped a girl and also that becoming boyfriend he/she tricked them etc. based on those news you can predict sahil kidnapping swara as real case. and then misbehaving and trying to rape her is totally real if you see the news every now and then.

6. want or need for body that we call lust is the most terrifying reality of the society at present. swara’s reaction after what happened with her is totally justified. actually we can’t know the exact pain until we go through it and my prayers are that no one should ever experience that because the pain and fear is unbearable. we can imagine it and that only will give us innumerable shocking and unknown fear. well i do feel fear inside although i act bold when i am walking through roads and especially if it is quite silent or when it is evening or night. eve teasing is a much smaller part or experience of kind of rape a girl goes through most of the day .

i fear to walk on roads thinking that someone will try to touch me or speak filthy things. even i have experienced it too sometimes. a person from bike was going who just went by me touching my shoulders and then moving his head back and smiling at me. it’s two years since the incident and still it is in mnid.that’s just like a nightmare which most of you would have went through or have seen it happening such kind in front of you and not being able to stop it and that’s the worst part where we feel helpless.

7. the love and care swasan gives to their children is justified and many of you would have experienced such love by your parents. some parents call there child munna, ladla, lala, shona, baccha, baby, sonu…etc..many kinds of nickname. instead of champ or angel. it’s just a special way of parents referring there child.

8. the dream of swara to feel father’s love and see a beautiful and happy childhood of hers through saniya is also justified because in my home my mother lives her dream through me by completing my wishes and me working upon her’s. due to early marriage and not so financial support she could not pursue higher studies and same goes with my father. so both have worked and provided us all there time support and necessities to us for our bright future. my father is fond of study and he wants to complete that dream through us. my mother wanted me to become a doctor and this is my dream too which i am chasing. and my father may not call me angel but have always made me feel one of luckiest daughter. on my first birthday he self decorated everything and at that time my family lived in village and he invited whole village for my first birthday. he had done many things for me and when i see all old photographs that reflects his immense love for me and same goes with my mother who cares for me a lot.

9. parents may scold us, may be sometimes harsh to us too but it’s all for our betterment and that’s what i have experienced with myself. well i would say my parents are best in themselves. many a times children don’t understand there parents and many times parents don’t understand a child as in case of ram and sujata and ap dp. in those cases family breaks leaving people shattered and hence i would say love your parents, respect them and try always to be truthful to them and always make them understand your opinion by sitting with them. that is what keeps family together.

10. siblings relation is quite pious in which you can live many relation like of mother and child or father and child when there are siblings of differnt age and then best friends, secret keeper etc. just live all of them.

11. in all whatever i have written in my ff is real and mostly i have tried to put what i feel for a relation and how should a relation be. i have tried my best to showcase all emotions perfectly and whatever i have written is first i have tried to feel it myself. in scenes where i have written quite emotional then i have cried writing it and imagining it.

so now let’s start the episode.

swasan with family in a beautiful resort. all settled and freshened up and took rest for sometime. evening all met in the lobby and decided to see through the resort and explore it. all were roaming around happily, after all they got such beautiful and happy time after a long three months. their happiness had no bounds. the most excited were swayyam, sanu, rashika, and tanmay. rashika and tanmay were behaving like kids of 5-10 years. squealing and behaving like child. tanmay specially taking manik in his arms and telling him about things happily as if he is understanding everything while uttara was seeing them lovingly and amused too.

tanmay has always been calm, understanding, loving and jolly mood with rashika and swara but after manik was born she got to see his new shade, kiddish one. with manik around he is a caring father as well as kid too. well at the time of swayyam and sanu too he was somewhat like that but now when she can see him 24 hours and note his every behaviour, when she has freedom to see his every shade, to stare him and what not…..she has just found in him a better person each new day. sometimes a bit careless and lazy and a bit less ambitious for himself but yet very responsible towards family and dear ones, a hard working guy and very loving and adorable person is what she have concluded about him and she loves the way he is.

tanmay’s love was same for uttara as it was at the first sight when he saw her….same love and respect, the change was that now he knows her better… he is free with her, he can share anything with her and she would correct him, scold him, but ultimately she loves him. he is very happy with his family. and after manik was born he was overjoyed with happiness. he loved swayyam and sanu a lot and now he got someone who has started calling him papa. but still for tanmay swayyam is very special and so is sanu.

afterall swayyam was his champ as they all call him and the attachment and bond they shared was incredible. he has a good equation with sanu too and she is the most pampered among all. absolutely adorable and understanding nature.

sanu’s behaviour is somewhat complex as till now swasan could also not guess on whom has she gone sanskar or swara. she likes to be with everyone…..she is quite sensitive sometimes but act so mature at sometimes unexpected in this age itself seems wonder for all. as much as she is emotional that much she is an angry bird too. although she gets angry rarely but her anger is very high. well she loves sanskar a lot and why not, she is his angel. for all things she needs sanskar. then she gets most irritated by swayyam, her bhaiyuu, whom she loves a lot too. when he is around she complains about him and when he is not around she asks for him and finds him. unexpressable beautiful relation.

swara and sanu always shows a perfect mother daughter relation but one fact is quite interesting that when people will see them then they will tell that swara and swayyam are more close and sanu and sanskar are extremely close which is truth but when we go deeper into their relation then we will find that swayyam has a special bond with sanskar. he shares all his problems with sanskar hiding from swara and sanu shares her problems and queries with swara. a much adorable family we can say with each relation having it’s own importance.

swayyam and sanu calls risabh and nikita as dada and dadi and manik calls them nana and nani. they also treat them as their grandchildren. they both remain busy with their work and whatever time they get from work they spend it with everyone. well sanu being only girl child gets importance but as much as she is pampered, same goes the case with rashika. rashika has joined in business and sanskar taught her many things along with risabh till swara’s missing. she was a fast learner and has quickly grasped everything. now she is working successfully with risabh. in major deals risabh has always been by her side to support her and help her along with sanskar and tanmay. she has till now not stopped playing pranks on tanmay and that unique relation of jiju-saali is also very special for them.

uttara has continued office even after delivering manik because swara was always there. swara has managed her all works very efficiently. the music academy, orphanage and old age homes. she has prepared a perfect routine for regular visits there along with managing home and kids. for uttara along with being bhabhi she has been like a supporter and second mother figure too same like sumi whom she considered maa.

about the little member manuu aka manik is now quite small only 1.5 years and hence there’s not much to describe about him but still he is also a calm child like his father and mother too. he is happy go lucky child who plays within himself. just toys kept around and he will play by himself for hours. he likes sanu’s and swayyam’s company and if any unknown picks him up then he cries so loud to burst others ears.

back in the resort…..
all explored the resort had their dinner together and retarded to their rooms planning for their next day.
swasan were with kids in their room. for swara’s comfort as he knew that she couldn’t be alone with him as she would feel uncomfortable so they all are in one room and will be living with kids for her comfort. and after swara’s return they have never slept together or been in same room alone except during their confrontation. so they were kids. they all talked watched tv and finally sllept.swayyam in swara’s embrace and sanu in sanskar’s and they were sleeping peacefully.

next day-
swara was sitting at pool side wearing top and leggings along with nikita and uttara holding manik, both in somewhat same outfit as swara. but where were others?
well let’s see in the direction in which all the three ladies are looking and smiling that is in the pool.
sanyamsanu,risabh, tanmay and risabh were in the pool playing and enjoying. swayyam and sanu were in air filled tubes and all were throwing water on one another sometimes and sometimes playing with ball. sanskar kept sanu by her side as she is just 4 years old and small for being in pool alone. swayyam had already learnt swimming [he is not an expert but he knows it] and so sanskar was relaxed about him.

sanu- [while playing] papa why are only we playing. call mumma bua and dadi also naa.
sanskar- angel good idea. wait let me call.
sanskar- swara uttara maam…
all three looked at him.

sanskar- come and join us.
uttara- bhai someone needs to be with mannu. so i will be here. [to swara and nikita] bhabhi maam you both go.
swara- [hesitant] uttara give mannu to me and you go. and i couldn’t spend much time since i came back. [pinching manik’s cheek] hai naa mannu… will spend time with mami naa. [mannu stared at swara]
swara- see naa uttara it seems that he doesn’t remember me now. let me spend time with him you go.
uttara- bhabhi but you go and enjoy sometime with all.

swara- no it’s ok…give him to me and you go.
sanskar was looking at swara and was understanding her hesitation. uttara nodded and stood up.
here rashika to tanmay slowly-
rashika- jiju let’s add some tadka…. why don’t you bring di here. i mean see she is walking. go and lift her up and give special welcome.

tanmay gave confused look to her and she whispered something to which tanmay blushingly smirked.
tanmay immediately went out of pool and came to uttara who was nearing pool.
tanmay- [to sanskar loudly] sanskar bhai i hope you won’t have problem with this…….[sanskar looked confused at tanmay while rashika giggled] and you shouldn’t have also…afterall she is my wife.

uttara- tanmay what… [couldn’t complete as tanmay scooped her up]
uttara- tanmay what are you doing….put me down. [she said being embarrassed and red and a little angry]
rashika- well done jiju.

tanmay- ready baby [slowly to uttara making her confuse]

tanmay- 1….[rashika said in chorus] 2……..3SPLASSSHHHHH
tanmay dropped uttara in water….
uttara- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
uttara went deep in water and then she jumped out and stabilised herself and looked at tanmay angrily while others were laughing.

uttara- youuuuuu……
tanmay- haan i am coming [and he dived and came out just beside uttara] say you were saying something.
uttara- [angrily moved her hands towards his neck] i will not leave you.. why you threw me in water..
tanmay- [holding her hands] arrreeee i never asked you to leave me… and by the way idea given by rashika….
uttara- but implemented by you [she freed her hand and was going to hit him]

tanmay- sorry uttara but it was fun…. saying this he swimmed far from her so that she couldn’t catch him.
all others were laughing…while uttara looked towards tanmay angrily and he held his one ear and mouthed sorry and love you to uttara for which she smiled. swara was smiling seeing everyone happy and was playing with mannu.
sanu- [splashing her hands in water] papa i also want to jump in water like that….

sanskar- [looked at sanu amazed] angel they are for big people. now you are small. when you will become big then you can also do….
sanu- [sadly and stubbornly] no papa i want to do like that…. [she is saying about diving]
swayyam- oyeee sanu you can’t do….. you are small…but i can do…see i will do….
sanskar- champ no…

swayyam- arre papa see naa i learnt in school…
swara- swayyam baby you shouldn’t….[before she could say swayyam was already in action mode]
swayyam went out of pool and dived in perfectly and came out of water but not being expert he wasn’t able to stabilise himself and sanskar immediately moved to him with tube and made him wear it. swara worriedly looked at everything and sighed in relief seeing sanskar handling swayyam.
sanskar- i said you naa not to do…this pool is deep not like one in your school… [said calmly yet in a bit scolding voice]

swayyam- [smiled sheepishly] papa but i did naa…
sanskar-[sighed] yes you did but champ you shouldn’t have done here. now no more stunts here…. first you will learn properly and become a little more big then you can do things like this ok.
swayyam- ok papa.
sanu- [crying voice] papa i also want to do… see bhaiyuu also done…
sanskar- angel you are small…. don’t be stubborn..
sanu- i will also do…you teach me….
swara- sanu you are a good girl naa…..so listen what we said..
sanu- [sadly] ok mumma….

sanskar looked at his daughter’s sad face and felt bad.
sanskar- [cupping her face] you want to do it…
sanu only nodded her head with sad pout.
sanskar- ok… come do as i say…
swara- [worriedly] sanskar..she is s small…
sanskar- swara relax… trust me. [swara nodded]

sanskar made sanu stand at the edge.
sanskar- angel you close your nose like this and jump in water.
sanu- papa how will i come out.

sanskar- first you jump and haan don’t open your mouth in water and also don’t leave your nose. ok [sanu nodded] [moving a little back] jump angel…..

sanu obliged and jumped holding her nose tight and here sanskar went under water and held her and came out as fast as he can and stod holding sanu protectively against his chest by one hand while he moved his hand through his wet hairs.
sanskar- phew…angel open your eyes [he said removing her hand from her nose which she was holding tightly]
sanu- papa i did it…

sanskar- yes my angel did it.
sanu- yeyyyyy…. [showed her tongue to swayyam] see bhaiyuu i also did it…
swayyam– but papa helped you… [said he protesting]
sanu- so papa also helped you… hai naa papa..
sanskar- arree stop fighting….you both did it and did very nicely…. and also you both need to learn more…. huh!
sanskar put sanu in tube. swara was smiling seeing everything. sanskar handled everything so well.
rashika- wow bhai..you are great….[to risabh] dad did you play with me like this when i was small…
risabh- [wide eyes] beta why are you asking so…..

rashika- i want to know that did you play with me like bhai plays with sanu.
risabh- beta you never demanded to dive in water when you were small… and moreover you learnt swimming later.. why such questions now….
rashika- because i am jealous of sanu. i thought i am the most pampered girl by my dad but i think i am wrong. sanu is the most pampered one…. see how bhai fulfil her every wish…
she said making funny faces like a young child.

all laughed seeing her and listening her talks.
nikita- beta he also fulfilled every wish of yours before you spoke it the second time. now stop being jealous of sanu and moreover how can you get jealous of my small baby.
sanu- papa what is jealous.

sanskar looked at sanu as if what to explain….
swayyam- arree sanu this means bua does not like the way papa loves you [he said in a manner to make her understand]
sanu hearing this held sanskar’s hand taking it in a wrong way.
sanu- bua this is bad[making angry face at rashika]. papa don’t listen to bua. i love you so much..you also love me and don’t talk to bua.

rashika- buddy you are instigating sanu against me.[said in high pitched voice]
swayyam- bua i was only explaining her. [said he being scared at her sudden reaction]
tanmay- stop stop stop….. sanu jealous means she also wants to be loved like your papa loves you.
sanu– oooo bhaiyuu why you told wrong thing… and bua your papa also loves you. see dadu takes you to work and then brings you back like papa takes me to school and brings me back and dadu buys things for you like papa brings things for me and papa takes my side and dadu takes your side…see same same…

tanmay whistled…—-wahhh sanu you are the most intelligent. [to swara] bhabhi in this matter she completely went on you…what an understanding….
although sanu told all these things in her childishness but what she told made everyone stunned. she stated the fact so easily. everyonr’s way of loving and showering there love is different and it should not be compared ever because the love we get is precious.
rashika- bhai cutie i said all these things jokingly but this little cutie blown me completely.[sanskar proudly hugged sanu]…[squealed happily] hey i got new name for sanu…little cutie..wow it perfectly suits her.

uttara- uff one more new name….rashika only you can keep such new names…
rashika- [dramatically]thank you thank you.[all laughed]

they all again started palying. nikita saw sanskar taking glances of swara who was busy in happily playing with manik. she smiled and making excuse of being tired went out of pool. changing herself she came to swara and took manik from her and forced her to go in pool. swara unwillingly get in and sanskar became happy seeing this. he smiled widely and swara played for some time with them. sanskar noticed swara being uncomfortable being completely wet. although she enjoyed but her discomfort around everyone was also understandable.

sanskar- now enough of playing. i think we should now move. soon it will be lunch time.
all agreed. sanskar first made sanu out of pool and then swayyam and forwarded his hand to swara who was about to out by herself. swara looked at sanskar and gave her hand. he helped her out and himself came out too. before swara he went and brought towels and wrapped one around swara and blinking his eyes gave her confidence and moved to swayyam and sanu. swara too came forward and took sanu in her arms who happily went in her mother’s arms and started playing with her wet hairs talking childishly. all departed and got changed.

two days passed like this and swara was now slowly opening up and talking to all like before but still her fear didn’t go. she gets nightmares with the same incident and maintains distance from males specially. sanskar comforted her in all the ways possible. it was there last day stay in that resort. they all planned a fancy dress competition as sanu was too excited about it and she narrated about her school function of fancy dress.
sanskar came in their room with some packets in his hand. swayyam who first saw him excitedly came to him.
swayyam- papa what is in these packets.

sanskar- your dresses for the fashion show. come i will show you.
sanu- papa first mine…
sanskar- ok first my angel’s..
swayyam- not fair..i asked first so first mine..
swara- you both see by yourself. sanskar just hand them the packet.
sanskar gave them their respective packets as soon as swara told sanskar and gazed his lady love. feeling his gaze she tried to avoid it and looked at children who were excitedly opening the packets and took out their dresses.
sanu- [jumping on bed] yeyyy papa Cinderella dress.

swayyam- wow papa..this dress is so good. wait i will wear and show.
he ran in washroom taking his dress.
sanu- mumma i also want to wear my dress.

swara- come i will make you wear it.
soon sanu was looking extremely cute in her dress looking like a princess. she was jumping happily after wearing the dress. swasan smiled looking at her excitement.
swara- accha now stop jumping or you will fall.
at that time swayyam came out of washroom with unbuttoned shirt.
swara- [seeing him] what happened. [swayyam pointed his shirt] if you know you can’t then why do you ran in washroom rather than changing here.

swayyam- i am a big boy now mumma.
sanskar- big boy who can’t button his shirt. [he said chuckling]
swayyam- i know but sometimes i can’t… but i will learn soon.
sanskar- ok big boy. come here. [swayyam came to sanskar who buttoned his shirt properly and tucked in his trouser. then made him wear a coat and fixed the bow making him look like a prince. he inherited same charm as his father undoubtedly.

sanskar- both go and see if all are ready or not. we are coming in a while.
swasan[kids] ran to others room.
sanskar- swara..
swara- hmmm.

sanskar- [forwarding a dress] this ones for you.
swara- thank you.

sanskar to avoid awkwardness for swara took his dress and went in another room to get ready. here swara opened the dress and had a look. a beautiful elegant saree was in their. she roamed her hand over it and tears filled her eyes. she wiped them and went and got ready. she was all ready and was tring to tie her blouse dori but was unable to.
swara- that’s why i don’t like blouse with dori……i never am able to tie them by myself. huh![she murmured to herself and did not notice sanskar who entered the room]
sanskar heard her and went towards her and stood behind her. swara felt someone presence and got scared. she lifted her head and saw sanskar through mirror and relaxed a bit. sanskar felt bad seeing her in this state but he smiled for her.
sanskar- relax it’s me. shall i help.

swara looked here and there being hesitant. sanskar held her hand assurngly and turned her sensing her nervousness. he simply tied her dori without any delay and moved her hairs back which were kept one sided while she stared him guiltyly.
sanskar- come..
sanskar walked out followed by her and they were in a hall where all arrangements were done. rishita were made the judges and others were participants.

one by one everyone walked on the stage and it was turn of swara who was nervous.
sanskar- you can do it. just go and all the best.
swara walked on the stage but inside she was nervous and then came sanskar behind her as she paused on the stage for few seconds. sanskar came and stood by her side and then both walked back hand in hand.
then uttmay and manik came as family and then rashika came with swayyamsanu and last swasan came turn by turn. at last the programme ended on swasan giving the last pose.

don’t what happened with swara and she hugged sanskar and started crying startling him and making everyone shocked.
sanskar- [hugging her back] swara what happened. [said he patting her head]
swara- uunhhh sanskar… why? just saying this she started crying more.
sanskar signalled tanmay to handle everyone and he walked out with swara from there. tanmay somehow managed swayyam sanu.

here sanskar took swara to a room and made swara sit but swara was not leaving him and crying.
sanskar- swara [trying to cup her face and talk to her but she kept on crying]
sanskar- swara please say something. you are worrying me. what happened suddenly.
swara finally looked up at sanskar with tearful eyes, sobbing slowly.
swara- why sanskar?
sanskar- swara i am not getting what you intend to say.
swara- why sanskar..why are you so patient with me, why you love me so much… why can’t you move on from me? why? that man has touched me objectionably and you are adamant to be witth me when i myself am not sure about my state. why?
sanskar- [looked at her for sometime and then looking straight in her eyes] because you are my love my life and my everything. you always try to find way to fulfil your emptiness through me. don’t i have that right swara.

sanskar- swara you have known me better than i know myself. in my whole life i have twice acted selfish. first when i came for revenge and second when i got you. when i came for revenge i was a wrong person and you corrected me and when you reciprocated my love then i became selfish knowing that it’s only you who have that influence on me to keep me on correct path and give me all the love i craved for.

sanskar- directly or indirectly, told or untold only you have understood my pain so far. you look for a father’s love through me and i look for my all relations through you. a mother’s care, a father’s protection, a siblings support, and finally my lover and mother of my children. in these three months i was broken swara [he sat beside her and looked at the wall] we both have craved for family and understand it’s importance. when you weren’t there i somehow managed our kids. i never cared for having many people as family as far as you were there but you weren’t i felt the need of one. you complete me swara and all my relation. uttmay and rashika rishita have supported me lot when you were not there. but your need never decreased.

sanskar- swara i love you not your body. you need to fit this in your mind. and honestly being my old swara who does not think all this bullshits answer my few questions.
sanskar- is it a girl’s mistake that if she is molested or someone plays with her dignity.
swara- nodded no
sanskar- what if you find any such girl trying to attempt suicide. would you try to stop him or let her die.
swara- s.to..p..he..r
sanskar- is that punishable or the man who did that to her.
swara- [with tears] man.

sanskar- you yourself gave the answers to the thoughts and questions in your mind and heart. swara you are pure because you never cheated on me or anyone. if that moron tried to…… it’s his sin and he is punishable.. not you and here you are doing mistake by considering yourself im…[closed his eyes] swara i understand the mental trauma you must be going through but don’t let it affect you such that you can’t be able to differentiate between right and wrong. take your time to heal….i will always be there for you but never think of going away from me because i can’t live without you. i am empty without you and our kids too need us. and yes never think to cure yourself or pretend to for us. i want you to be fine for yourself. and remember i love you till the end of my life. [swara kept her hand on his mouth nodding no]

sanskar- [cupped her face] swara we both love each other and you know my love increase for you day by day. it feels like i loved you a little and still i have to love you more. i want to live my life with you as we have decided earlier. just take your time and come back to us. i swear i won’t touch you but just be by my side.
swara hugged sanskar cried feeling his love through his words. he too hugged her back and let her cry.

[THODA SA PYAR HUA HAI
THODA HAI BAKI]*2
[HUM TOH CHAHENGE TUJHE]*2
JAB TALAK JAAN HAI BAKI
[PYAR HUMNE KIYA HAI
PYAR TUMNE KIYA HAI
YAAR PHIR INTEHAAN KYUN
ZAMANE NE LIYA HAI]*2
[SAATH HUM DENGE TERA]*2
TUJSE VAADA HAI SAATHI
[DARD JITNA MILEGA
PYAR UTNA BADHEGA
APNI CHAHAT KE AAGE
YE ZAMANA JHUKEGA]*2
[DIL SE DIL MIL HI GAYEEE]*2
APNA MILNA HAI BAKI

[While hugging each other they both remembered there love and struggle to be together.
swara remembered there all the journey from starting and one thing was sure that sanskar never forced her for anything and has always been her pillar of support all throughout their journey. he has always been a gentleman who never dominated anyone but gave equal respect and love to all irrespective to what they are. he adopted her name as his title showing his greatness of thought.
sanskar remembered all their life and felt blessed to have swara who always trusted and supported him and stood for him each time and now he is determined to stand for her not out of pity, sympathy or concern but pure love and his need of survival because this is sure that he is nothing without her.]

6 months later

time passes away quite fast without realisation. since the time of their trip sanskar fully supported swara in all manners and slowly swara was recovering. they even consulted a doctor for medical guidance for the mental trauma she was going through. swara slowly started recovering and her bubbly and chubby nature was back. she now laughed whole heartedly and smiled all the time. like old times now all four of them tease each other and team up like sanu and sanskar and otherside swayyam and swara. pillow fight evening games and swasan making kids study together and sanu and sanskar’s wonder creations of painting which was disaster with sunday fun with all others and everything they did earlier was now repeating again.

in all this while sanskar never touched swara. although they have started sleeping in the same room since last four months and now swara does not flinch or become nervous by any man’s presence and even swasan sleep in each other’s embrace now but sanskar never broke his promise. he never touched swara and other than sometimes his adorable forehead kiss he didn’t even kissed swara. he was and is a true gentleman and a pure hearted lover whom anyone would wish for.

in all this the best news is that sahil died after 5-7 days of that incident due to heavy burn which he could not tolerate. the day swara heard this news from sanskar she felt some kind happiness because for a woman who manhandles her or molests her always owes the worst punishment for themselves.

one more disheartening thing that swasan faced was a truth about swayyam. 3 months back after sending kids to school and sanskar to office swara went to terrace to dry some clothes. accidentally the terrace door got shut and jammed and when swara tried to open it she couldn’t. she tried a lot but no use. kamala bai was not at home and so she didn’t knew where swara was when she returned and thought that she must have gone somewhere and so she didn’t bothered and engaged herself in work while swara who tried multiple times became tired and due to sun rays she was sweating and being exhausted she slept unknowingly. when sanskar came back with kids he asked kamala for swara and she said that she thought she went outside informing sanskar and was not at home. listening this sanskar was shocked and a fear occupied his heart. he dialled her number and found her phone near the side table. he panicked and called the guards and they said that swara did not go outside and neither anyone came inside.

kids started crying and uttara too came there with manik and she too didn’t know about her whereabouts. they all searched whole house and situation got worse. snskar while checking the rooms of above floor heard voices from terrace and immediately went upstairs. he saw the door closed and heard swara calling for help.
sanskar- swara are you there.

swara- sanskar sanskar please open the door. it got jammed and i am stuck here from morning. please open the door.
sanskar- one minute swara. you move back.
sanskar pushed the door hardly and finally it opened. sanskar rushed and hugged swara.swayyam too reached there and others were climbing stairs.
swayyam- [hugged swara crying] mumma you were here. i was scared mumma. i thought that like you went missing few months back , same like that you again went somewhere.
swasan became shocked hearing swayyam.

swara- [parting from him] baby what are you saying. i went for work naa.
swayyam- no mumma i know that you did not go for work but you went missing. i heard papa saying that something bad happened with you and you went missing. he was crying a lot. he did not wanted to me and sanu to know this and so i never told papa that i know that you did not go for work. i was scared mumma ki like those bad uncles once took me and you this time they took you.[he explained his hidden worries making swasan shocked] mumma don’t go anywhere. please.
swara- [with tears] i am not going anywhere baby. i am not. mumma is always with you. [seeing sanu approaching them] baby saanu don’t know about this. does she.
swayyam- no.
swara- [wiping his tears] she should not know also. you are a good brother naa and she is your baby sister so never tell about this to her. ok.
swayyam nodded.

sanu too hugged swara and cried and then everyone sighed in relief. swasan were worried for swayyam and then they spend more time with him and made him understand and consoled him a lot and finally gave him strength.
that truth was shocking for them a lot but now situations were managed.
back to present. now everything is set and all are really very happy. and they are preparing for holi that is in two days.
done with this part.

precap- holi celebration and treat to readers and guys my ff will end in just two episode. the episode 100th and an epilogue.
not all are lucky to get husband and life partner like sanskar. women has to go through many sufferings in life. what we have to do is not always look for someone’s support instead make ourselves strong to face any kind of situation. never depend on others because one who is dependant is never able to do things solely.

make yourself strong enough that you need minimum help from others and remember one who helps himself/herself gets help from others. tackle situation smartly. may be swara could not prevent everything what happened to her but showing her courage she protected herself from getting her dignity completely destroyed.
i know i am late readers and sorry for that and yaa

HAPPY WOMEN’S DAY.
but one more thing i want to say is women’s day is not mere one day on 8th march but everyday if we keep confidence in us and move on and get success in the fields we are and fight for our rights.
mahira if you are reading my ff then i would like to appreciate what you wrote and it’s quite true. sorry i could not personally comment so sending my message through my ff.
thanks readers for your support