swasan my incomplete love story (Chapt 33)

Hi guys!!
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“You live your life once…. Live it to the fullest…. be happy….. Keep smiling :)”

Sanskaar’s pov:
I paced around my room trying to relax but since the horrible memory crossed my mind I am feeling more restless. I closed my eyes and took deep breaths..!
“Sanskaar!! Just close your eyes and don’t think of swara or aditi or……or anything else!! Stop thinking about it.” I said to myself.
The more I kept saying it to myself the more I kept seeing them.

I swept a whole array of perfumes, picture frames and everything else off my vanity dresser. I didn’t want to go back to any flashbacks but I involuntarily drifted back. I closed my eyes…. this time it wasn’t about aditi or college life…. It was about my first meeting with…….with…..diva….!! Urgh!! What’s wrong with u?? I mean swara.
It was when ragini was 8 year old. We recently moved in…. me and rags joined school… I eventually went to upper grades while she was in lower…. That very day she had found her best friend. She always used to bring her home. From then till now nothing’s changed about her/us except the fact that we were friends nothing else has changed. I really never liked the sight of her when I was small and of course as a big brother I have to fulfil my duties of irritating my dear rags and her friend (:) )…. I don’t know…. Even swara disliked me and I was pretty happy with that hate concept….. But time flew….. She grew and trust me she got damn hot by time….. Once I even caught myself drooling at her……. Oops….that’s not what I……uh……..me…..a ….I mean……. Uh…err… I’ve seen people drooling at her…. But she never gave a damn to them but why me??

Uff!! Sanskaar!! Why are u happy all of a sudden?? Be angry…. Yes…. That’s right be angry…… good.
Swara’s pov:
I still remember….. When I first saw him… when I was 8…. Ragini was a newbie… we spoke to each other and Voila!! We became friends!! Ragini was nearby to school and so was I!! So we walked home… and behind us was him of course!! For some years I hated it. Then slowly I started liking…..no loving it… I never really believed in love until…….. You know….!!
I never believed in true love and happy endings but I was helpless… when we were young… we had so many bets… and they were immeasurably hard for that age but I somehow how won… and despite winning everything against him I lost my heart to him…
I sobbed at the thought… my eyes blurred… I wanted to cry out loud… pour out all my worries… well sanskaar isn’t the only reason I am in this state….. I have other problems too…. I feel that my parents… never really loved me! I …. From when I was young… was always told I was adopted… I was taken in by them just to work for them… the family I got is not my real family. These kind of words were uttered by people close to me like my aunts and uncles and my parents… of course they said it with a laugh… which meant they were joking and I suppressed my tears by a forced smile….
They never knew how much they hurt me…. I always cry when I am hurt but they never understand it…. My life and I was never understand by anyone except rags…
And I had a feeling he would understand me but he too like everyone else failed miserably…
I was shivering…. It was a cold night… hmm… how weird life is… before whenever others had love failures and problems it was me who was the first one to stop them and advise them but now I am doing what I forbade everyone else to do… I took another glance around my room… I saw a book lying in the corner. I moved forward and grabbed it leaving a trail of blood behind. I OPENED IT… AND IMMEDIATELY I SMILED….

Sanskaar’s pov:
I just wish I had a delete button in my mind so I could delete all what I don’t want to remember again in my life… example swara.
I am not sure if I never did want to remember her again in my life but… the times I spent with her is enough to put a smile on face no matter how angry or furious I am…
She is a kid…. She loved pink!! She had a complete collection of Barbie dolls and her room was filled with pink…
I remember some of the pranks she played on me… or should I say we played on ragini…
**Fb**
Rags- Shona!!!!!! Am hungry!!
Yes our Shona was cooking for rags and sans
Swa- haan!! Gimme a min…
Sans-why are u yelling in my ear?? Do u want me to go deaf??
Swa- ok here u go!! Special one for u rags and here u go Mr. Idiot
Sanskaar made a face at her and she stuck her tongue at him.

Ragini took a bite and it was enough to bring tears in her eyes… not because it was tasty and reminded her of someone but it was too spicy…
Swa- kya Hua rags?? Why r u crying??
Rags- it’s so tasty Na that’s why!! Bhaiyya! Eat your food and comment about it…
She said with a smirk…
Sans- k… mm mm… swara it’s so tasty!!
And he finished the whole dish and actually asked for more!!
Rags had barely taken a bite!!
Swa- ragu?? Y aren’t you eating?? Isn’t the food tasty??
Rags- huh?? No… no it’s awesome…
Swa- do you want some more?
Rags- NO!! I mean maybe later…
Suddenly swasan took a look at her and started laughing and owned up!! Ragini was damn angry and made them both eat the whole “special dish”
**ends**

Sanskaar was laughing remembering it and on the other side swara remembered the same thing and was smiling weakly…
Swara was caressing a photo taken at that moment…. A tear dropped on the photo. She leaned against the wall and let her tears flow!! She was feeling weaker by the passing seconds…
Sanskaar suddenly stopped laughing…
Sanskaar pov:
Why are you laughing?? You shouldn’t be laughing!! You shud be angry!! You should be…. Uh!!What’s happening to me? No sanskaar! U know what aditi did to u!! Girls uses boys like tissue paper and u know that so stop all this nonsense at once!!
I mentally yelled at myself… I suddenly had this strong feeling that something very bad is going to happen…
I ignored the feeling!! Why am thinking so much about swara? I hat her urgh??
Oh no!! Am I….. Am I………… am I in….l….o…v…e…. with her???
“Yes” someone said. I turned and got shocked…
(read the note below…thank you)
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Precap- confrontation 🙂

Hi guys!! I am sorry for being late but I am too busy doing nothing 😛 lol!! Actually swaragini is going off air and I guess most of the people won’t visit this page anymore and I have a strong feeling that this story is dumb so I wanna stop it… plus I guess many have stopped reading my ff co it’s boring so…I want your suggestion
a- I stop it
b- I continue it
I will try my best to make it good if u all want me to continue and sorry I can’t be regular… pardon me for that!! And Thnx to my regular readers… you all are the only reason why I am still writing…. Thnx so much… sorry if the episode is boring… one more thing…
Chandu- the copper sulphate part is half true…I know a person who actually tasted that blue thing!!
i am extremely sorry if i couldnt reach your expectations guyz!! was the epi long or short??
Do comment and keep smiling 🙂