SWASAN – MR MAHESHWARI AND I
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chapter 45
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Wedding Special Part 2
CHAPTER 46
Uttara : Swara bhabhi! From today, This will be your room as well.
Swara blushed.
Uttara : Can I ask you something Swara?
Swara : Haan Uttara! Bol!
Uttara (teasing) : Why are you blushing today? You’ve come to his room so many times. In fact you even slept on his shoulder once, then why blush now? Is it because….. of the…. first night?
Swara (blushing crimson, a bit shocked) : UTTARA! Kuch bhi…
She entered the room and closed the door. A laughing Uttara called her once again.
Uttara : Arre… Meri bhai ki patni… Enjoy your first night… I want all details tomorrow.
Swara : UTTARA ki bacchi.. I will kill you. LEAVE….
Uttara went away snorting with laughter. Swara smiled goofily and looked round the room. Sanskaar’s room…. She couldn’t believe that she was going to be here from now on.
Swara Gadodia had been a simple girl. Swara Maheshwari was the wife of one of the most powerful and intelligent businessman in India!
Swara Gadodia was not beautiful. Swara Maheshwari believed that her husband thought her beautiful.
Swara Gadodia never expected to fall in love. She was supposed to be a spinster forever. Swara Maheshwari fell in love and now….
Now she was married to the man she loved.
She smiled.
Swara : Swara Sanskaar Maheshwari…. I think you’re going to be very happy from now on.
She moved and stood in front of the mirror. Swara touched her mangalsutra and saw her sindoor in wonder.
Swara (thinking) : I am actually married. It’s a miracle…. A medical miracle as Ragini would say.
She sighed thinking about Ragini and Ma… Last night had been so nice. Ragini, Sakshi and she had stayed up most of the night with their mother and spoken about so many things. Funny memories of when they were little, memories of Papa, School, college, their small but cozy home in their town.
Swara (thinking) : How will I ever live without Ma and Ragini right beside me? Who will advise me? Will I ever feel like home here?
She thought of Badi Ma, mom, Adarsh, Laksh and smiled.
Swara (thinking) : How will I not feel at home here? Everyone here cares for me…. Love me… Even Sanskaar…
She stopped. A dull ache grew in her heart again. Her mind went back to when Sanskaar told her I don’t love you.
Swara (pushing away the thought, thinking fiercely) : It doesn’t matter. You cannot think about that now. You have to first bring back the old Sanskaar. Then you can think about making him fall in love with you..
She nodded her head and went to her suitcase.
Swara : Saree? Salwar? Nightsuit? What the hell should I wear? Oh God… Why am I feeling so nervous? Swara, Stop thinking so much, choose something at random and go.
She chose something and went to the washroom to freshen up and change. After about 10 minutes, she came out of the washroom wearing a simple dark blue saree. Her hair was left open but she still had to remove her jewelry, though she had already removed her bangles.
But when she came out, she saw Sanskaar sitting on the sofa, his turban undone and his hair messed up. Looking at his hair, Swara felt the utmost need to tousle it and run her fingers through the soft silky mass. But all she did was smile at him…
Swara (somewhat awkwardly) : Sanskaar!
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Sanskaar looked up and saw Swara. His Swara in a dark blue saree.. very simple after her wedding dress. She was smiling now…. but in a few minutes from now….
Swara : Sanskaar!
Sanskaar started and focused on her. He smiled slightly and got up. They both stood awkwardly for some time.
Swara : Umm.. I’ll just go remove these (Gesturing to her jewelry)
Sanskaar nodded. Swara went and sat in front of the dressing table. Sanskaar pulled another chair and sat besides her.
Swara : Kya?
Sanskaar (shaking his head) : Kuch nahi. Kyun… I can’t sit here?
Swara (chuckling) : No… Of course you can!
They grew silent again as she began removing her earrings, necklace. Finally, the only jewelry she had on was her engagement ring and mangalsutra.
Sanskaar (smiling) : Both indicating that she is mine… (smile fading) But for how long?
Sanskaar : Swara….
Swara : hmm?
Sanskaar hit his head mentally. He had not meant to tell anything now. He wanted to avoid this conversation as long as possible.
Sanskaar : Swara!
Swara : Haan? Bolo na?
Sanskaar : Er… er.. I will make space in that cupboard there. You can keep your things there.. I will move my suits and all.
Swara : It’s ok Sanskaar! I will do it myself tomorrow.
Sanskaar : Nahi, I’ll do it now na…
Swara : Arre.. Par.. You will be tired. Let me just do it tomorrow na..
Sanskaar (glaring at her) : Why are you behaving like a typical wife? Always doing everything…
Swara (glaring back) : Typical kisko kaha? I am not typical at any cost.. Understood?
Sanskaar : Swara, Why are you nagging me?
Swara (mouth dropping in shock) : I, nagging you?
Sanskaar (Crossing his arms, smirking) : Yes?
Swara : Sanskaar… When did I nag you? You’re the one troubling me…
Sanskaar : Kaisi patni ho tum… Fighting with me already?
Swara : Accha ji? Aur aap? What are you doing?
Sanskaar : Swara!
Swara : Sanskaar!
Laksh (from outside) : Offo! Even now you both are fighting? Arre, thoda romance toh karo.. .Yeh kya hai?
Swara (exasperated) : LAKSH? Why the hell are you eavesdropping? Leaveee… NOW…
Laksh (amused) : I am ready to go Swara! But the newest member of our household is very anxious to meet you.
Swara (confused) : Newest member?
WOOF was her answer.
Swara’s eyes lit up just as Sanskaar’s drooped.
Sanskaar (groaning) : Is that
Swara (excitedly) : ZOZO!!!!!
She ran and opened the door and saw her scottie in Laksh’s arms. But he immediately jumped down and went to Swara as soon as he saw her. She knelt down and picked him up.
Swara (hugging Zozo tightly) : I missed you so much. Who asked you to go to the farm for so many days? You were supposed to go for 3 days… You went for an entire 8 days. Bad boy Zozo.. Bad bad boy…
She hit him lightly on his back. Zozo yelped reproachfully and whined at her.
Swara : Accha baba! Good boy Zozo…Good good boy… I love you!
Sanskaar : That monster is going to live here?
Swara (glaring) : He’s not a monster. Shut up Sanskaar… You come inside baby!
She pushed Zozo inside then hugged Laksh.
Swara : Thank you… who brought him here?
Laksh (the pleasure in his eyes dimming) : Ragini.. Someone had brought him back from the farm to Gadodia Nivas. But Zozo was really restless there and you know Sumi aunty.
Swara rolled her eyes. She did know her mother.
Swara : Jo bhi ho… My Zozo’s hereee….. YAYYYYY!
Laksh (teasing softly so that Sanskaar wouldn’t hear) : Swara! Vaise, Saare kissies Zozo ko mat do… Thoda Sanskaar ke liye bhi bacha lo…
Swara blushed hard and glared at him.
Swara : Besharam… Go now. BYE!
She slammed the door on his face and came and cuddled Zozo again,
Swara : My BABY!!!! I missed you soooooooooo much!
Sanskaar (disgustedly) : You missed this creature?
Swara (cooing at Zozo) : Zozo darling… Dekho na Sanskaar ko.. He’s just angry with you because you splashed water on him once. See, Such a big man is scared of you.
Sanskaar (raising his voice) : I am scared of no one and I am not angry with the dog.
Swara (scowling) : Then WHAT IS your problem? Wait… Are you jealous?
Sanskaar (scoffing) : Why would I be jealous?
Swara : Kyunki I looooove my Zozo… He’s so cute.. I love cuddling him. And he will never do anything to me.
Sanskaar : Haan toh?
Swara : Toh…
And she stopped. She had been about to say that wouldn’t Sanskaar like her to cuddle him also like that.
Swara (thinking) : Pagal ladki… Can’t even remain quiet!
Swara (thinking) : Toh… You are jealous that he doesn’t love you as much as he does me.
Sanskaar (dismissively) : He loves me.. Everyone loves me.
Swara (raising an eyebrow) : Accha? Zozo.. (pointing towards Sanskaar) GO…
Zozo woofed happily and went for Sanskaar’s ankles. But being a man of fast thinking, Sanskaar moved aside and began running around the room.
Sanskaar (glaring at a laughing Swara while trying to evade Zozo) : Swara! i’ll get you for this. How could you? Pagal ho kya? God… I shouldn’t have married you. Jeenna mushkil kardogi tum! Uff.. You cur! STOP!
He stopped running and turned to Zozo, A fierce scowl on his face.
Sanskaar : STOP ZOZO!
Zozo stopped and looked at Sanskaar adoringly. Swara stood looking astonished.
Sanskaar (pointing to a far corner) : SIT now.
Zozo obediently trotted off to his spot.
Swara (protesting) : You can’t order my dog like that.
Sanskaar turned to her, A mischevious grin on his face.
Sanskaar : At least, the dog knows who’s in charge.
Swara : You are so not in charge. You… aaaah.. Sanskaar stop chasing me..
She ran around the bed as she tried to avoid getting caught by Sanskaar.
Sanskaar : You can run but you won’t last Swara… See.. I’m almost touching you now.. Swara, I’ve caught you now….. Eeeeughhh UFF.
As he caught Swara, She slipped and fell on the bed and he on top of her. A sharp crackling sound was heard and then sound of muffled laughter from outside. But Swara and Sanskaar couldn’t or rather, didn’t pay attention to it. They were staring at each other. Swara’s soft brown eyes met Sanskaar’s intense ones and automatically their arms moved to entangle themselves.
Swara’s breathing grew shallow and ragged with desire. She could clearly see Sanskaar’s desire in his eyes as well.
Swara (whispering) : Sanskaar!
Sanskaar : Hmm?
Swara : Kiss me…
Sanskaar smiled triumphantly and bent down to kiss Swara. Just as their lips were about to touch, his eyes grew wide and he got up disgusted with himself. Swara too got up confused.
Swara : Sanskaar?
Sanskaar didn’t answer. He was battling withing himself. This was the moment of truth. He couldn’t allow himself to become weak again. Steeling himself, He turned around to look at Swara.
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Swara stared at him, clear confusion in her eyes. She didn’t know what was wrong. Just a few minutes ago, He was so happy to be with her. But now, She could see the reserved expression in his eyes. He was trying to remove all the emotion on his face.
Swara : Sanskaar?
Sanskaar (his voice wooden but clear) : Swara! Do you love me?
Swara’s eyes widened. She hadn’t expected this question at all. Should she allow herself to hope that maybe…
Sanskaar : Swara? Tell me, Do you love me? And I know the truth so you have no need to lie.
Swara straightened herself. Maybe this was all for the best… She had been apprehensive about telling him but if he really knew… Well, Swara Maheshwari (nee Gadodia) was not a coward.
Swara (eyes straightforward) : Yes! I love you Sanskaar… I’ve loved you for a long time now. Ever since Darjeeling.. Maybe even before that, But I realised it then only.
Sanskaar : Why?
Swara (her smile faltering a bit) : I don’t know. I just know that I love you.
Sanskaar (shaking his head) : You made a mistake.
Swara ( a slight fire reaching her eyes) : What do you mean?
Sanskaar : I told you…. It would be a mistake loving me. I don’t love you.
Swara (quietly) : I know. (raising her voice a little) I know you don’t love me Sanskaar… I know you don’t. But still, I love you.
Sanskaar : BUT YOU SHOULDN’T…
Swara (horrified by his attitude) : Sanskaar? What is wrong with you? I love you… That’s my problem.. Why are you bothered?
Sanskaar : Because I CAN NEVER love you Swara!
Swara : I KNOW… You’ve told me that many times. It’s really quite irritating now.
Sanskaar (moving forward and pinning Swara to the wall) : You DON’T understand… I can never love you.
Swara (crying out in pain) : OUCH!!! Why are you being like this? You can never love me fine… Do you love someone else?
Sanskaar didn’t answer.
Swara (now angry) : SANSKAAR MAHESHWARI! Leave me right now.
He left her and turned away. She blinked back the sudden tears that were appearing on her face.
Swara : Sanskaar!
He didn’t turn around to look at her. His eyes were red… He hated every minute of this. But it was done…. Only the catalyst remained.. Then Swara would hate him and he would deserve it.
Swara : I don’t think you love someone else. But.. If you do.. WHY did you marry me? You should have told me.
Sanskaar turned around finally. This was it…
Sanskaar : I married you because I…. I want you Swara.
Swara : Huh?
Sanskaar : I mean that I desire you. I like kissing you. I like the way your desire shows in your eyes when I touch you. I love the chemistry between us. But.. I don’t love you. I want you… but that is not the same as love.
A myriad of emotions crossed Swara’s face. Shock, hopelessness, anger, misery and finally anger again.
Swara : Liar!
Sanskaar’s eyes widened.
Swara : I would never have loved a man who spoke to me like that. I don’t know why you’re doing this, but this is not funny. I love you, right.. You will never love me, I know that. What is your problem, Mr Maheshwari?
He remained silent. Swara came forward and kept a hand on his arm.
Swara (softly) : Please don’t shut me out. Tell me…We can solve it together.
How Sanskaar wanted to take her up on that offer. But the memory of Kavita prevented him. He could not bear to tell her his core belief.
Sanskaar (in a wooden, slightly choking voice) : You heard me.
Swara removed her hand in shock. They stood like that for several minutes, then Swara spoke again frustrated.
Swara : I don’t understand you…. You make me feel like a princess all these days. You make me believe I’m beautiful. You make me believe in myself. Then why do you act like this? It’s like…. It’s like you are TRYING TO MAKE ME HATE YOU.
Sanskaar’s eyes glazed and Swara knew she was right.
Swara (gasping) : Oh My God! Oh My God! I’m right, aren’t I ? You are trying to make me hate you. You don’t want me to love you.
He looked down, silent.
Swara (fire in her eyes) : Mr Maheshwari, LOOK AT ME! I said, Look at me.
He raised his eyes to look at his beautiful angry Goddess. She was literally glowing in her anger. Her nostrils were flared and her mouth was quivering.
At Swara’s shout, Zozo got up and crouched, whining. He ran below the bed and he waited there.
Swara : Listen hard… And listen well, Mr Maheshwari! I love you. You can’t change that. I have seen you… I know what you are.. I couldn’t have made a mistake by loving you.
Sanskaar stared at her in wonder.
Swara : Are you listening? I KNOW THE REAL YOU.. AND THIS IS NOT IT! You are hiding like you’ve always done, like you always will.
Sanskaar’s lips tightened and he held Swara’s arms tightly.
Sanskaar : I am NOT hiding.
Swara : Yes, You are. You have always been hiding. When I first met you, When we argued, when we decided to get married, during our dates, during all the wedding ceremonies… Why , Even now, when we are blo*dy so called husband and wife (Sanskaar flinches at her tone), You are hiding.
Sanskaar (his resolve weakening) : I am NOT!
Swara : Accha? Then tell me what is the matter with you and your Bade papa! Why are you so distant from your family?
Sanskaar (shocked at having all his home truths out) : Swara… STOP IT!
Swara : No! Why should I?
Sanskaar : Swara! That’s enough! I don’t want to talk about this anymore. Just stop loving me. PLEASE… I don’t need your love.
Swara stood silent for a few minutes. Zozo peeked out but then Swara spoke again and he crouched back in.
Swara : Sanskaar! You have told you don’t need my love. Fair enough… Maybe you don’t! But you also have no right to tell me that I can’t love you. You want the whole truth… Here it is.
Sanskaar looked at her devoid of emotion.
Swara : I know you have some big secret that you’re keeping from all of us. I know you are hurting inside. I know that you are keeping yourself apart from everyone. And I know that your secret concerns your Bade Papa! I have tried and tried to make you tell me.. That you could trust me…. But…
She stopped and turned away, blinking back sudden tears. No.. Now was not the time for tears.
Swara : Sanskaar! You are hurting. You have suffered, I get that. WHAT you don’t get is that everyone else also suffers when you suffer. Badi Ma, Mom, your brothers, Uttara, Me for that matter.. We all suffer when we see the guarded look in your eye. We suffer when you are quiet due to your grief. I know you were close to your Bade Papa… But what you don’t understand is that we are close to you as well.
Sanskaar tried to gauge what Swara was saying.
Swara : Please tell me.. What is the matter with you?
Sanskaar remained stony-faced. Swara waited for 2 minutes, then smiled sadly.
Swara : You know what? I thought I had married a man who owned the world, who was so smart and confident. And I did. But he’s also the man who doesn’t love his wife. (Sanskaar closing his eyes in pain) He’s also the man who doesn’t trust his wife. He’s a man who’s hiding from the truth. I married such a man.
She paused, then strode upto Sanskaar, held his arms and made him look at her.
Swara (determinedly) : I am NOT those typical bahus you see in these daily soaps. I am not going to cry and just leave this matter. I am not going to allow you to get away with what you’ve told. Even if you had told that you were in love with someone else, I would have understood… But by saying the ONLY relationship between us is LUST, You have insulted me. You threw my love in my face but that doesn’t stop me from loving you. YOU DON’T GET TO TELL ME WHAT I HAVE TO DO!
Sanskaar opened his mouth to speak, but she cut him off.
Swara : I’m not done, Mr Maheshwari. I think you have forgotten what type of girl I am. I fought the whole society for Ragini. I shouted at a man because he insulted Sakshi. I am very fierce and unstoppable when it comes to someone’s protection. And now.. I will fight with you for my self respect. From today, YOU had better watch out. This is my challenge to you.
She gave a sarcastic laugh.
Swara : After all, We love challenges na.. Continue trying to make me hate you. Continue your pathetic attempts. But ultimately, You will learn what love is. I once told you what it means. Now I will show you what it means. I will punish you.. But I will show you.
She left Sanskaar’s arms and turned around. She began walking to the bed, but stopped and looked at Sanskaar again.
Swara : Mr Maheshwari…. You once told me that I will be a dutiful bahu and a good wife. I will fulfill the first half of you wish. As for the good wife part, Until you take back your words, I won’t be. I am Swara Gadodia still. The day you accept the truth of our relationship and feel like you can trust me, I will be Swara Maheshwari. There is not just lust between us.. And you know that. Now I’m going to bed… Good night! (talking softer) Zozo baby… Bahar aa jao.. I’m sorry I scared you.
She picked up Zozo and they sat on the bed.
Swara : Which side of the bed do you sleep?
Sanskaar was surpised but pointed to the left side. Swara nodded, then went to the left side and slept.
Swara : From today, You sleep in the right.
And huggng Zozo, She closed her eyes.
Sanskaar stared at Swara, her words echoing through his brain. Everything she had said was true. She had understood him so perfectly. But he hadn’t. He loved her… But he didn’t understand the depth of her love.
Finally he smiled.
Sanskaar : Thank you so much Swara for loving me. Thank you… But… I don’t deserve it. I really don’t! Why don’t you understand? I am sooo sorry but… I have to do this.
He went and kneeled next to her sleeping form and held her hand. He placed a feathery light kiss on her hand and came to the other side. He sat back and closed his eyes.
And that was when Swara allowed her tears to fall. She opened her eyes and saw his supposedly sleeping form.
Swara (thinking) : I definitely did not expect this to happen. What the hell happened to you that you cannot accept my love? (fiercely) I will change you. You cannot insult our relationship like that. We have more than lust and you will realise it. I don’t care if you don’t love me. But I will show you how much I love you. Yeh vaada raha!
Pyaar Hai Ya Saja, Aai Mere Dil Bata
Tootata Kyon Nahi Dard Ka Silsila
Is Pyaar Mein Hon Kaise Kaise Imntihaan
Ye Pyaar Likhe Kaisi Kaisi Dastaan
Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar
( Ho Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar )… (2)
Pyaar Hai Ya Saja, Aai Mere Dil Bata
Tootata Kyon Nahi Dard Ka Silsila
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And yeah, No Kavita… My pyaari si Zozo is back! Hopefully to help Swara.. 😛 😛 😛
Only Radhika suggested Zozo.. But she switched to Kavi.. Still 5 points to her.. 😀 😀
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LOVE YOU ALL!!! WILL BE BACK SOON 🙂 🙂
I will post pkdh within 2 days.. So sorry for the delay there…
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Again, Don’t be angry with my Sanskaar… Poor guy.. His behaviour is perfectly justified. I first thought of bringing another girl for him, like to make Swara jealous.. Then I changed my mind. NO FILMY STUFF 😛 😛
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