SWASAN – MR MAHESHWARI AND I
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Chapter 49
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Sanskaar finally begins to tell the truth
CHAPTER 50
THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO ALL MY READERS!!!
Sanskaar caught her hand.
Sanskaar : I can’t let you go. I WON’T let you go…
Swara (looking beseechingly) : Then tell me the truth.. Please?
Sanskaar became quiet. Swara smiled sadly. She placed her hands around Sanskaar’s cheek and kissed him gently. It was an act of surrender. An act of good-bye.
She began walking to go outside. Sanskaar started panicking. He COULDN’T lose Swara. Suddenly, The whole world went sideways for him. If Swara wasn’t there, nothing was.
And Sanskaar made his choice. SWARA was the choice.. He wouldn’t let her go. He would tell her the entire truth.
Sanskaar (falling to his knees, choking) : Swara…
Swara didn’t stop.
Sanskaar (louder) : SWARA! Please… I am begging you.. Please listen to me! Swara Maheshwari, I did all this because I AM GOING TO DIE!
Swara stopped. She didn’t have a choice. His words had startled her out of her wits. Sanskaar going to die? Swara’s throat clenched. Her stomach churned. She raised her hand to hold the door post and steadied herself.
The mere thought of Sanskaar dying had threwn her into a panic. She couldn’t think about anything else. She couldn’t turn around. She couldn’t see straight. Swara tied to calm herself but she couldn’t. She couldn’t bear the thought of losing Sanskaar!
Sanskaar…
Swara whipped around to see him on his knees, looking down and crying softly. And Swara changed. She didn’t panic anymore. She wouldn’t go into hysterics. Sanskaar needed her and she would not let him down.
She wiped her tears from her face and walked slowly to Sanskaar. She stood next to him and tousled his hair lightly. Sanskaar didn’t look at her but immediately raised his slumped form and put his arms around her waist and clutched her tightly. Swara closed her eyes as she felt his tears on her navel.
After some time, Once Sanskaar had regained his composure, Swara sank to her knees and placed her palms on his cheeks.
Swara (Whispering) : Look at me.
Sanskaar slowly raised his eyes.
Swara (still in the same tone) : Are you ill?
Sanskaar : No! I’m not ill.
Swara : Then what did you mean? What do you mean by saying you’re going to die?
Sanskaar closed his eyes for a moment, then stood, his fingers trailing through her grasp until finally they were no longer touching at all. For so many years he’d been careful to keep his odd convictions to himself. It seemed best. Either people would believe him and then worry or they wouldn’t and then think him insane.
Neither option was particularly appealing.
But now, in the heat of one terrified moment, he’d blurted it out to his wife. He couldn’t even remember exactly what he’d said. But it had been enough to make her curious. And Swara wasn’t the sort to let go of a curiosity. He could practice all the avoidance he wanted, but eventually she’d get it out of him. A more stubborn woman had never been born.
He walked to the window and leaned against the sill, gazing blankly in front of him.
Swara (getting up, softly) : Please Sanskaar! Now that you’ve started… Don’t stop. Are you dying? Are you ill? Are you not? These questions are filling my head with worry. Please.. Just tell me.
Sanskaar (softly) : Swara! There is something you should know about me.
She didn’t say anything, but he knew she’d heard.Maybe it was the sheer electricity in the air. But somehow he knew. And Swara knew he knew.
Sanskaar turned around. It would have been easier to speak his words to the curtains, but she deserved better from him. He walked towards her and guided her to a sofa in the corner. He then sat on his knees on the floor holding her hands.
Sanskaar : What I’m about to say may sound ridiculous…. Not may, It is ridiculous but… I….. I don’t know how to tell it to you.
Swara : Try me. Just try.
Sanskaar took a breath and nodded.
Sanskaar : When my Bade papa died, Something changed.
Swara (nodding) : You were very close to him right?
Sanskaar (whispering) : Yes.. I was closer to him than anyone else. Until I met you…
Swara (smiling sadly) : What happened?
Sanskaar : I was in Boston getting ready for dinner. It was 7 ‘o’ clock in the evening and I got a call. It was Laksh. His voice was so broken.
As Sanskaar continued to tell his story, Swara felt like she was living it. She could imagine a younger Sanskaar getting the call and it broke her heart. His entire life was about to be crushed.
Sanskaar continued.
Sanskaar : When I heard the news, I wasn’t shocked. I wasn’t sad. I wasn’t anything. I became blank. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what to tell Laksh. He was crying and you know what I felt? You know what I wanted to tell him that time?
Sanskaar raised his eyes and Swara almost fell back at the raw pain in his eyes. Even after 8 years, this death was haunting him. Swara suddenly didn’t want to hear anymore. She didn’t want to know that she had failed… She had failed miserably. She couldn’t help heal his pain even a little.
Swara (tearfully) : Sans….
Sanskaar ( cutting her off) : No.. Please. You need to understand! You need to understand why I am who I am. You need to understand.
Swara nodded and he went on.
Sanskaar : I wanted to laugh and ask him to shut up. This wasn’t a joke. This couldn’t be true. But my voice just wouldn’t come out. My voice failed me. Laksh told me he had already booked a flight for me and that I was to come home immediately. I heard that command in my brain. I packed few clothes and got on that fricking plane.
Sanskaar got up and sat next to Swara. By this time, Their tears had dried up. Sanskaar continued as Swara clutched his hand tightly.
Sanskaar : I came home. Saw scores of people waiting in the hall. They moved as I entered. Few of them mumbled condolences and other inane comments. But I didn’t hear them. I walked straight to his room. That’s when I saw them. Badi Ma, mom, Adarsh, Laksh and choti Uttara. They weren’t crying when I got there. But as soon as they caught sight of me, Uttara began sobbing. Mom was crying. Badi Ma didn’t though… Deep down, I think she might be the strongest of us all.
Swara smiled and agreed.
Swara : What happened then?
Sanskaar : I went to my family. Spoke a few words… They sensed that I wanted to be alone with Bade Papa so… slowly they left. They went outside and I finally looked at the figure on the bed. He looked so peaceful and vulnerable. I… I was smiling and sad at the same time. Then it hit me….
Swara waited as Sanskaar grew quiet. She understood that he hadn’t told this to anyone… He had never told anyone about all this. 8 years of bottling up was finally going to end.
Sanskaar (closing his eyes and taking a deep breath) : I stood there for almost half a day… a night? I don’t know. But when I finally left the room, I was sure.
Swara : Sure? That he was dead?
Sanskaar (roughly) : No, that I would be, too.
Swara expected herself to cry at that or exclaim loudly and protest against his words. Instead, she surprised them both by just looking at him with an assessing stare.
Sanskaar (until he could bear the silence no longer) : I am not such a great man like him. I can never be.
Swara (quietly) : He might choose to disagree.
Sanskaar (snapping) : Well, He’s not here Swara! So, We’ll never know, will we?
Swara again said nothing. Sanskaar felt like an ass taking it out on her.
Sanskaar : I’m sorry… I really am… But you never knew him. You don’t know him. You (quietly) don’t know my Bade Papa! This is my judgement to make. Swara! I need you to listen to what I have to say now seriously ok…
Swara nodded with trepidation.
Sanskaar : Bade Papa was the greatest man I’ve ever known. Not a day goes by when I don’t realize that I’m not living up to his standards. I knew that he was everything to which I could aspire. I might not ever match his greatness, but if I could come close I’d be satisfied. That’s all I ever wanted. Just to come close. If there was one thing I knew, (whispering, somehow finding the courage to keep his eyes focused on hers) it was that I would never surpass him. Not even in years.
Swara : What are you trying to tell me Sanskaar?
Sanskaar : I know I can offer no rational explanation. But since that night when I sat with his dead body, I knew I couldn’t possibly live any longer than he had.
Swara (quietly nodding) : I see.
Sanskaar (giving a short laugh) : Do you?
Swara : I think I do.
Swara got up and began pacing the room. Sanskaar realized that this was her way of thinking. He kept quiet as she mulled over everything he had just told her.
Swara (finally) : How old was Bade Papa when he passed away?
Sanskaar : 42.
Swara (pacing) : And how old are you now?
Sanskaar (surprised… Swara knew his age) 28.
Swara : So you believe that you will live for only 14 years more. That we have only 14 years together?
Sanskaar nodded. She pursed her lips and let out a long breath through her nose. Finally, after what felt like an endless silence, she looked back up at him with clear, direct eyes.
Swara : You’re wrong Sanskaar!
Oddly, Sanskaar smiled. There was something refreshing in Swara’s directness.
Sanskaar : I know it sounds ridiculous…. but..
Swara : On the contrary, It is not ridiculous at all.
Sanskaar (surprised) : It isn’t?
Swara : No! It sounds like a perfectly normal reaction, actually, especially considering how much you adored him. But you’re still wrong.
Sanskaar said nothing.
Swara : His death was just a tragedy. It was unexpected and very hurtful… But that’s all it was. A tragedy.
Sanskaar : I’ll be gone the same way!
Swara : blo*dy hell! Sanskaar.. I could die tomorrow. I could die in a year or two. In few months. I could have died when I was 3 when the huge thunderstorm came to my town.
Sanskaar (pale-faced) : SWARA! Don’t ever remind me of your death… Don’t ever mention it.
Swara : MY mother died when she was 25. Did you know that?
Sanskaar (Shaking his head) : What does that…
Swara : So, If your convictions are true, I will die next year. MY next birthday will never happen.
Sanskaar : Don’t be silly.
Swara (Raising an eyebrow) : Silly? You think this is silly?
Silence took hold of the situation. Swara went and sat down on the bed,leaning her aching head against the bed post.
Sanskaar (whispering) : I don’t know how to get past this. How to overcome it.
Swara (softly) : Sanskaar! You don’t have to. Would you come here? I… I want to hold your hand.
Sanskaar responded instantly; the warmth of her touch flooded him, seeping through his body until it caressed his very soul.
And in that moment he realized that this was about more than love. This woman made him a better person. He’d been good and strong and kind before, but with her at his side, he was something more.
And together they could do anything.
It almost made him think that forty three might not be such an impossible dream.
Swara : You don’t have to overcome this. In fact, I don’t see how you could get completely past it until you turn forty-three. But what you can do is not allow it to control you. Don’t let your fear stop you.
Sanskaar felt Swara squeeze his hand and he felt alive and stronger than he had before.
Swara (curiously) : You have never told this to anyone right?
Sanskaar shook his head numbly.
Sanskaar : Never!
He paused. Swara felt that he was trying to muster up courage to tell something to her and remained quiet.
Sanskaar (After a while, his voice bitter and painful) : I.. I did tell one person.
Swara felt her shoulders tense. But she didn’t know why. Actually, she thought she did. Sanskaar’s voice indicated that this was the make or break of him… The pain in his voice broke Swara’s heart.
Sanskaar (closing his eyes) : Kavita….
Swara drew in a breath. There was the name again. Who was this Kavita? She waited for Sanskaar to tell more, but he was lost in his thoughts. Finally, Swara prodded him.
Swara : Who was Kavita?
Sanskaar : Kavita Chopra was a girl I dated in Boston. She was special and she liked me… Or so I thought.
Swara didn’t feel a pang of jealousy when he mentioned girlfriend. That was a long time ago and it was over now. But she did want to learn one thing about her.
Swara : Did… Did you love her? Is that why you can’t forget her?
Sanskaar (smiling bitterly) : Love? I don’t know. I thought I did. But it was nothing more than a childhood crush. She wasn’t worth loving.
Swara (surprising) : Then what…
Sanskaar : What happened? I’ll tell you. I finished all the obligatory ceremonies and rituals for Bade Papa and I came back to Boston to pack up forever. I needed to go back and take care of the business. Kavita came to help me.
Swara nodded.
Sanskaar : We both were packing and I thought I could trust her… I thought if I tell her about my feelings she will help me. She will be my pillar of support. But… (giving a bitter laugh) But I was wrong… So wrong.
Swara (poker-faced) : She called you ridiculous..
It was a statement, not a question. Swara’s heart clenched with concern, pain and anger…. That one conversation of Kavita had changed Sanskaar.
Sanskaar : Ridiculous. Stupid. Idiot. Weirdo…. Anything that she didn’t call? I thought I could trust her and she broke it… She didn’t care for me. She never had. And she broke me.
Swara impulsively hugged Sanskaar. Tears were streaming from her eyes now. She couldn’t help it. The thought of someone hurting Sanskaar… It tore her heart in two.
Swara (mumbling) : I’m so sorry… I’m so sorry…
Sanskaar pried them apart and put his arms around her shoulders.
Sanskaar : Don’t be… Don’t be. I am the one who should be sorry. I hurt you so much!
Swara : You didn’t do that on purpose. I knew you didn’t. You could never be so cruel to anyone. But why? Why did you do it? Why make us go through all this Sanskaar?
Sanskaar : From the first time I met you in that party, You have not stopped plaguing my thoughts Swara. The Swara who fought me for her sister, The Swara who sacrificed her happiness and agreed to marry me, The Swara who fell in love with me, The Swara who knows me more than I know myself… (voice softer and slower) The Swara who I LOVE (Swara’s eyes grew round), The Swara who is my reason to live, love.. Swara, who is my everything! You have been plaguing my thoughts. What I thought was a spark between us turned into a roaring flame… A flame that made me happy.. A flame that made me hope.. And that is why I did this.
Swara (confused) : Huh?
Sanskaar : I didn’t want to love you. It was the one thing I feared above all. I’d grown rather used to my rather odd little outlook on life. Almost comfortable, actually. But love—
He stopped as he choked. He was telling her his deepest thoughts and secrets but it didn’t matter anymore. Because he knew she’d love him no matter what. It was a sublimely freeing feeling.
Sanskaar (continuing) : I know love exists in the world. What they say about me in the articles isn’t true. I don’t believe that love is for the weak. Hell. There is true love in my family right now.. I believe in love. But I was sure that this was going to make me miserable. Love was the only thing that was going to make that unbearable. How could I love someone, truly and deeply, knowing that it was doomed?
Swara (sighing) : Oh Sanskaar! But it is not doomed.
Sanskaar (smiling) : I know. I fell in love with you. My lioness, My princess, My Everything! Standing here right now, with you, I realized another thing.
Swara (smiling) : And that would be? L
Sanskaar : Love isn’t about being afraid that it will all be snatched away. Love’s about finding the one person who makes your heart complete, who makes you a better person than you ever dreamed you could be.
It’s about looking in the eyes of your wife and knowing, all the way to your bones, that she’s simply the best person you’ve ever known.
Swara sighed, melting into his arms.
Swara : Oh Sanskaar! That’s exactly how I feel about you.
Sanskaar (suddenly turning serious) : I know… And I’m so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. But I knew that I could never stop loving you. I was scared.. I was so scared to clutch onto this piece of happiness. For once I had tasted the bliss, How will I ever want to leave you?
Swara : You have to live each hour as if it’s your last, and each day as if you were immortal. You can’t shun new challenges or hide yourself from love just because you think you might not be here to carry your dreams to completion. In the end, you’ll just have many regrets.
Sanskaar (seriously) : I still believe I won’t be here for more than 14 years Swara!
Swara : I don’t want you to believe anything else. All I want you to do is know that you can’t let this stop you from living. You can’t deny yourself your dreams.
Sanskaar stared at her for a long moment, his eyes locking with hers until he felt they must be one person. Then, with a shaking hand, he cupped the back of her head and leaned down to kiss her. His lips worshiped hers, offering her every ounce of love and devotion and reverence and prayer that he felt in his soul.
Sanskaar (brushing his lips along hers) : Did you hear the part where I told you I love you?
Swara (smiling) : Yes, I did. Will you tell again?
Sanskaar : I love you, Swara! I love you so much…
Swara (her eyes glistening with happy tears) : Again?
Sanskaar (laughing) : I love you Swara! I love you…
Swara : Again?
Sanskaar : I love you, I love you, I love you… (fake pout) You won’t tell me?
Swara (laughing) : I love you Mr Khadoos Sanskaar Maheshwari. I love you too! I love you so damn much…
Sanskaar (wonderingly) : Was life meant to be this perfect?
Swara : No, This is better than perfect. I have my Mr Maheshwari!
Sanskaar : This will be a new beginning in our lives.
Swara : And we will be together. As long as we can be. Mr Maheshwari and I
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PRECAP : Umm… 😉 😉
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Guys, I’m so sorry for the late update.. But I was not very well… I mean physically, I was fine.. but was thoda depressed and didn’t feel like writing.
So sorry about that.
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MY FIFTIETH CHAPTER 😮 😮 😮
I swear I cannot believe I reached my half century. When I first started MMaI, I thought I’lltake 30 chapters at most. But you people gave me the encouragement and support to continue.. SO this chapter is dedicated to ALL OF YOU! Thank you so much for being part of this journey so far.
I know I have had many ups and downs.. .Thank you for tolerating them. But most of all, Thank you for accepting me as part of this TU family. MY friends here, my family.. LOVE YOU!!!
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Last, I had posted my OS a few days ago,
A helping hand..
Please do read it!!! 😀 😀
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133 Comments
Anjiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii……kya episode tha……my Anji hit a half century…awesome…congratulations…..Anji…honestly speaking…i did not find any of your chappies boring ever…they were huge..but i was never bored…..ik..i’m late..but trust me….i’m your biggest fan….and this ff is not of our level….comparing your ffs to any other ff here would not be correct according to me…..its like some masterpiece of a famous writer….
Sanskar’s character here……the way u portrayed it….fantabulous…..i read 30 chapters of this ff in one day..so u must be understanding how much i loved it…..cause u knw na..i hate reading..(No offence to your books) still i did…those long chappies..and i kept on reading them….and u r depressed?Or drowned in thoughts?Koi nehi….inhi thoughts seh aise amazing story ateh hai…..its hard to write every chapter with the same concentration..and hardest to continue a ff….50 big chappies…..mene kitna parliya?
The way Swara handled Sanskar…..sounds extremely matured……Sanskar’s talk being ridiculous…..awesome….and their i love u soo much…..was soo cute…Swara actually changed this Mr Maheshwari….now they r together…and don’t do what cvs keeps on doing….separating swasan…and the excellent part was u showed the confession on the 50th episode…..still i’m not annoyed but i’m loving it…the swasan of this ff is my fav couple…..they have love,understanding and trust…Sanskar told his life secret/his belief to Swara…..the way he said…RIDICULOUS……awwwww…..kitna cute lagraha hoga woh…i was waiting for this part….zindegi ka koi bharosa nehi….future is uncertain…patanehi kya hojaye….so Anji…this goes for u too……live your life…..and get over this depression….cause time vapas nehi atahai….
Kuch zada bada nehi hogaya?Sorry….but maan mein jo tha wohi likh diya….soh maat jana mera comment parte parte…….love u sooooooo much…..take care and keep writing more chappies….50 likha hai….so continue…for 100…then 200 and then on and on….i love to read this ff…..
sleep ?? 😮 😮 You really think m so jaungi yeh padhke??
I srsly dont know what to tell….
Love you devrani ji….
Considering you as a reader, This comment may make me happy and content!! But you as a writer urself, This comment just makes me jump with joy <3 <3
This story…. Even now, I dont understand how ppl can love it so much…. Srsly… But you ppl made me stick to it and continue it… I will always love you for that….
Aur haan sorry?? Kisliye sorry?? Bade comment ke liye… :/ :/
U r sacchi my pagli devrani!!!! 😛 😛
As I said, I dont know what else to tell….
Just thnxxx for reading this… Glad that ur my friend and haan, No swasan separation 🙂 🙂 🙂
LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
Depression bye bye ho gya…. 😛 😛 😛
My reply seems so small compared to urs… But uk how I feel na…. LOVE YOU SOOOMUCH!!!! <3 <3
You’ve no idea how much I’ve been waiting for this special part… It’s so beautiful and amazing and great.. So so great..
Keep smiling 🙂 and take care
Aww… Thnxxx Isabel!!
Glad you loved it 😀 😀 😀
Take care :* :*
Wow…I’m in tears…you write so nicely dear…
Thnxxx Payal 😀 😀
Sorry to make u cry….
Congrats for the 50th chapter….
About episode…it qas just awesome…how can u write so beautifully!!!Just loved the whole talks!
And how r u??Love u loads…take care
Thnxxx hubby 😀 😀 😀
Glad you loved it… <3 <3
I'm fine… Just busy with colll…. wbu???
LOVE YOU TOOO <3 <3
amazng..loved it..congratulations for half century..tc..
Thnxxx kumu 🙂 🙂
Glad u loved it!!!
Di….u r such a gem….u r such a masterpiece. I must say I haven’t met a person who can express emotions better than u. Till the last sentence, my tablet was wet…..I was weeping! Di….today’s epi was so emotional….I don’t have words to describe it. I have a very good vocab and I find very good words for appreciation but today I just can’t find a single wrd for u. Only one thing I say, God bless u always , u always keep smiling, u always stay happy, u always enjoy life….and u always receive such love from every reader of urs…..congratulating u on ur 50th epi….??????….I want an OS as a treat di….dena padega….take ur tym but I need my treat. Till then….love u???
Aww… Thnxxx soo much Laddoo…..
🙂 🙂 🙂
Aur haan sorry to make you cry 🙁 🙁 🙁
Glad you loved it 😀 😀
And yes, I will stay happy 🙂 🙂
Os as a treat?? 😮 😮 I am writing ont.. But it’ll take me days to finish… Weeks even
LOVE YOU TOO!!!
Awesome
Thnxxx Shan 😀 😀
hi anjali….
well i am back after spending a whole damn month in a stupid hospital….
nd yippie i finished reading all d previous prts tht i missed…
bt above all i missed u so much sissy….
nd congratulating dear for half century….
nd may we celebrate the century nd double century too…
nd really dear u r the most amazing writer nd this is d best ff ever….
love you dear…
keep smiling…
nd sorry for disappearing for so long….
Thnxxxx Janvi!!1 😀 😀 😀
I hope u r okay now?? 😮 😮 Do take careee…..
I missed you tooooo :* :* :*
Glad you loved it 🙂 🙂 🙂
And yeah, dont disappear!!!!
LOVE YOU!!!! <3 <3
Hi Anju.. Nice to see u .. missed u so much dear.. hope u missed me..?
first of all congratulations for 50th episode..
this is nice episode.. this is too good.. d way sanskar express his every fear n swara console him.. everything is perfect.. maduri wala perfect 😉
loved it a lot dear 🙂
Thnxxx Falguni 😀 😀 😀
Glad you liked it 🙂 🙂
LOVE YOU!!!
Anju….misd u….????n a osm epi…he blurted out dwhole truth……all in sense….n nc support frm swara….noweager4 d nxt epis…….i hop ur colg startd off….howz it buddy…….
Thnxxxx Dev <3 <3
Missed you toooo…. Where were you?? ;o 😮 😮
glad you loved it… 😀 😀 😀
LOVE YOU TOOO!!!!
Coll is ok so far… 😛 😛 😛
MINDBLOWING! Oh god…..dat confession! U nailed it dear. I’ve got happy tears….when sanskar was saying ILU repeatdly.
Congratulations! It really doesn’t feel like i have 50 chaps of MMAI….may you write many more.
Thnxxxxx Vyshu 😀 😀
Glad you liked it <3 <3 <3
wow… it doesnt feel like it 😮 😮
I'll certainly write more <3 <3
Hey anjali congratulations for your 50th chapter and love you for this finally the truth is out?????and ya I read your one shot and loved it?????? I am also soon going to write one more one shot JUNOONIYAT HAI YAHI… story is set but I will write after my formative assessment 1 finishes approximately by next week so wanted you to read and tell how’s it.. and I asked you in your previous comments that how to change the profile pic which is a floral design of mine and you have a swsan pic can you please tell and last but not the least upload soon love you loads ?????????????
Thnxxx divya 😀 😀
Glad you liked it… Both actually 🙂 🙂
Don’t worry.. will certainly read it…
And I’ve registered in TU that’s why I’m able to change my dp… Before u had to go to gravatar.com and do that… But now u dont need to…
So im not really sure..
Will try to upload soon 😀 😀
All the best for ur tests 🙂 🙂
LOVE YOU!!!!!
Aww… Mera baccha…. Awesommmmeeeeee!
Anju u know I lost five days of sleep and I was so pissed and then there’s this which made my anger go away? How do u do this dude? What’s the secret to this magic?
And 50 EPISODESSS YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONSSSSSSS!!!!! Today is 5oth epi so I will give Mahabharata and Ramayana mixed comment.
There r no words to describe ur writing. Seriously I remember how I came across MMAI. I was reading some ff (I don’t remember which) and I got super bored so I started looking for other stuff and I came across a write up by someone (I don’t remember who) where the writer talked about her fav ff’s and Urs was the first ff in her list and there was a loooooooooooooooooooooong essay describing ur ff. One thing that seriously caught my eye was the sort where that writer said ur English is really really really good. Coz ff’s It’s normally written in Hindi. So I thought I’ll read it from the start. First I was like what the hell is this about? Then later I re read it. (Don’t ask me y I just felt like reading it again. I guess u charmspoke through the ff). I started loving it and recommended it to all my friends!
Then I started following ur ff as a silent reader. I read every single word you had written right from ur bak baks in the start till the bak baks in the end. That phase where u were sad about something in ur life (won’t mention it coz I don’t want to upset u), the next day there was some Pooja in my house, and trust me I prayed for u to get happy again. I didn’t know even a single thing about u but I still considered u as a friend. Then later I decided to start commenting on Telly and not be a silent reader and the first ff I commented on is MMAI, chapter 35. I remember I ranted about how much of a huge fan I am of u in my first comment. And I still am:p but now, I guess I’m also friends with u. Till the time I read ur ff Swasan was a magical tv couple but after reading ur ff Swasan became a magical live couple for me.
Seriously, MMAI has seen the worst and best of my moods. When my mood was good, MMAI just increased my happiness. And when my mood was bad- MMAI made me feel WAY WAY WAY BETTER. AND I LOVE U FOR WRITING THIS. Everyday I came and checked if you’ve posted chap 50.
And I’m sorry for not giving u a long comment last chap. I was really tired.
While reading Sanskar confess his feelings to Swara and explaining his whole mortality concept, for some reason I felt as if u were writing it based on something ur going N through or feeling. I’m not sure, contradict me if I’m wrong but am I right when I say u connect with Sanskar when he talks about him missing his Bade Papa and his mortality concept? I might be wrong so do correct me if I am but I have a feeling I’m right.
Anyways I hope this LOOONG loooong loooong Comment had pleased u. I’m still hoping against all odds that Raglak also unite but at the end of the day it’s ur ff and whatever u write is magical and awesome in its own way. I will enjoy whatever u write (even if it is Swalak and Ragsan only because u wrote it). I missed u a lot in the past days when u hadn’t updated. More than ur ff I missed u.
Love u,
Rain:)
[P.S- don’t u dare say thank you or sorry].
First of all, dont tell me that I shouldn’t tell you sorry because I absolutely have to…
You wrote such abig comment just for me and I couldn’t reply earlier… I’m so sorry for that…. I wanted to reply earlier but had other commitments and yest, stupid TU had some maintenance problem…
So yeah, I’m really sorry….
I remember the first time u commented as well…. urs was such an unusual name… and I was intrigued… 😛 😛 😛 😛
charmspeaking 😛 😛 Lol… not true at all!!! But I am sooo happpy that you started to love the ff… 😀 😀 😀 😀
And as for praying for me… <3 <3 That was very kind of you to think of meeee :* :* :* :*
Idk what to tell…..
I cant believe how lucky I am…. To have got friends like you… <3 <3 <3
LOVE YOU!!!!
And yeah… No raglak here… but don't worry… I'll write a raglak story sometime later for you…. <3 <3 <3
And how can you tell sorry :/ :/ :/ Boo…
Long comment or short… It will mean the world to me <3 <3
I absolutely forbid u from saying sorry! And rain is just a nickname
And I’m sorry I didn’t comment a long comment last time
Sorry I said sort instead of part in one place. Typo
Anju di??
Congo upon reaching 50 part.
Each and every chappie of FF was memorable.
And coming to this chappy the revealation, Sanskar’s demons, Swara’s pain and understanding,
everything is just evident and perfect.
I know dosti main no thank u and sorry
but still I wanna say thanks for writing this awesome FF.
Love you di!!
Thnxxxx Rupa!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
Aww… LOVE YOU!!!!!
😀 😀 😀 😀
And thnxxxxx for reading this and making it so memorable <3 <3
LOVE YOU MOREEEEE
Bahu!! Congo for the 50th chapter. I hope manyyy manyyy more are left.
Ek gana sunegi?
“Mai tera haire jabra hoy re jabra fan ho gaya.”
Pehle hi tha. Is story ne mera sar ghuma dia. I love it. 😉
Anjali, as an author I must say, this is probably your masterpiece! I won’t go for the technical details n all. that woud make this comment hellll long. Just i wanted to say you how much I am in love with it. Sincerely love Sanskar here. Both are just awesomely crafted. Keep it up!!
Thnxxxx Bisha 😀 😀
I can’t believe you reached chapter 50…. But I’m really glad ur here.. .<3 <3 <3
Aur haan… I love the song… PAr ek change toh karna hai….
Jabra FRIEND… no fan.. i dont like that word. 😀 😀 😀
Lol… my mster piece ka pata nhi… I never expected this to become so popular… But it's all because of you ppl <3 <3
Glad you love swasan
LOVE YOU PAPAJI!!!!!
Congrats on 50th chapter. Love the confession so heart touch
Thnxxxx Special 🙂 🙂 Glad you loved it…. <3 <#
Hip Hip Hurray!!!!! 1000 cheers to Anju,my baby, my TE………
Finally confessed!!!!!?? Yayay…… dancing ryt nw????
Awesme epi…… waiting to read nxt n soon……..
Love ya loads………. keep smiling????
Thnxxx sueno 😀 😀
Aww… Dancing… That’s awesomee….
Will try to post soon… Thooda problem h lappy mein…
LOVE YOU!!!!!
Allah I am going to faint, the confession between Swara and Sanskar was the cutest thing.
Sanskar and Swara saying I love you to each other so cuteeeeee like I can’t even explain haha.
Very proud that you finally made it to chapter 50 because you deserve all that love Anjali!!!!
Anyways keep smiling like always because you’re amazing aha xx.
~Nusz xx
Thnxxxx Nusz 😀 😀 😀
Glad youliked it :* :* :*
Aww.. so sweet of you!!
LOVE YOU <3 <3
Congrats for the half century angel….
The episode was splendid…..
So wonderfully explained……. This cannot be more better….. U perfectly defined sankaar’s emotions……
And finally sanskaar and Swara are together bound by love…..
Eagerly waiting for next episode…. i m sure there will be some romantic moments….;)
Thnxxxxx DII!!!!!
Love ur pics on insta and FB <3 <3 <3
Glad you loved it 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
Will surely show tomantic moments… <3 <3
LOVE YOU!!!!!
The best epiii till now the confession was uffff❤️❤️❤️
Thnxxx naaz…
Aw.. so sweet of you… <3 <3 <3
Awesome dear.. Congrats for reaching 50th episode… And about episode speechless.. Confession was wow!!!
Thnxxxx Anuann 😀 😀 😀
Glad you liked it… 🙂
Congrats for the 50th episode. It was full of emotions and rocking as usual
Thnxxxx Priyanshi 😀 😀
Glad u liked it…
Yipppppppeeeeee 50 epi is outttttt. Wonderful as usual. Wll post a long comment soon di. Need to tell so many things abt this epi.
Whn is the nxt one?
Hiii anjali.. I tried lots & lots f time 2 cmnt here frm yesterday. Bt it ddnt post here. Dnt no y??!!!!! 🙁 :'( :'( even i change my email address and cmnt here.bt thy ddnt post it. I cmnt in another ff. TU uplode it bt nt ur 1. Im hell angry with tu. i try dis much hard 2 appreciate u.. Cz u rly deserve it.. I lv it vry vry much. I hv no wrds dr.. :-× Im da biggest fan f u..dis epi is just.. Perfect.. Its impeccable drl.. U r a amazing & great writer dr.
Congratulation 4 ur 50th epi. Write more than 100 epis..(muje tho 1000 epi bi chalega if u cn) 😉 😉 😛
Thank u vry much 4 dedicate dis 2 us..it means lot 2 me. Lv u. :-* ;-* Ummmmmmmmmmmmwaaaahh. God bless you dr.. 😀 😀 😀 be hpy always.
Chill Chanu 😀 😀 😀
I’m glad ur here 😀 😀 😀
Amd no fan business…. Only friend 🙂 🙂 🙂
So sweet of you <3 <3 LOVE YOU!!!!!!
1000 epis 😮 😮 😮
lol… You'll get fed up with me 😛 😛 😛 😛
Aww… LOVE YOU!!!!!
Hey di. Tday i decided i wll comment in ur ff even though it means me studying till late in the night. Cause i read sme pre comments. They were so sweet. Bt wat if someone takes my position of being the sweetest??????? I can afford to lose my studies or i willl study fr extra tym bt i wll nt lose this position??????????
Wonderful wonderful wonderful. Di in one episode u encountered sme bashers do u remember? Sry fr nt remebering the episode number. Bt on that day some of them tld that sanskar’s fear was meaning less. Tday u hav proved them all wrong. On reading the explaination sanskar gives to swara reg his problem no one wll think sanskar’s fear is stupid. His fear from his POV is very genuine. And whoaaaaaaa. Swara reacted so well to his problem. She understood his pain. Ofc she will. She is swara ryt? And their love confession. Its jst amazing. The way u describe each and every emotion its very unique di. While reading ur ff i can picturise all the scenes in my mind. That is a very spl quality of urs. The moment he confessed all the thoughts going on in sanskar’s mind. U penned them down so well. Well frm nxt tym i am going to search fr sme wrds to praise ur writing and i am gonna use them. Seriously di. Hw many tyms can i use the same wrds like awesome marvellous fantastic excellent fabulous stupendous wonderful. Sry if i missed out any. And ur ff has gone beyond all those wrds. I need sme high vocabukary to praise u. Atlest then i think i can tell u the happiness i get on reading ur ff. U hav to look at my face while i read ur ff. I go on a emotional rollercoaster. If there is a sad scene tears well up in my eyes. If it is a happy scene i do a happy dance. And my mom looks at me as if i hav gone mad. Hw can she knw wat an amazing writer u are until she reads ur ff. I hav recommended ur ff to my cousin and even she is reading it and is addicted to it. She is shy to comment. Bt she is very happy. She calls me evryday and tells me that i hav recommended an amazing ff to her and that she is damn impressded wth u and ur story. She also tld me that she wanted to take english coaching classes frm u.
A big congratulations fr ur 50th epi di. U need to do a 100 di. Dnt be satisfied with 50. Well u deserve all the praise and appreciation u r getting. U deserve every bit of it. And di i need a party on the occasion of ur completion of 50 episodes.
I wll comment on the OS tmrw.
Love u loadssssssssss di.
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Fifi….. finally I’m here….
I hate tu…
Yesterday and day before i was free… and continued to reply to the comments…. I come to ur comment… and stupid server maintenance happens….I’m sooo annoyed….
And yeah, u still get the spot of sweetest person…..?????
And fifi…. yeh kya h…. itna zyaada praise.
????
I def don’t deserve that much.. this is Srsly too much….???
But am soooooooooi happy that ur sistet6 also reads this story and lives it…
love you sooo much!!!!!
And Srsly, ur the sweetest bcos u took time from ur studies to sit and comment…
but next time pls… studies before mmai or anjali…
ok??
Party is nhi pata…., lol… but if u come to Chennai, I will def give???????????
love you!!!!!! ?????????????????
U deserve all the praise u r getting. About tu even i am pissed with it. And yah i wll remeber ur advice reg studies. And chennai i jst love that city. I frequent chennai cause my aunt lives there. We wll def meet one day.
Yaayy yaayy finally they uplode it.. Thank u TU. 😀
I wnt 2 say more abt dis epi cz its rly heart touching dr.. Hw cn u write this much nicely?? %) o_O
when u write abt sanskars pain i rly cried. Same hpn with me 5yrs ago whn my grandmother passed away. I ws blank cdn do anything. Even i ddnt cry a bit. Evry1 thought dat im rly strong grl. I miss her like hell bt ddnt tell dat 2 any1 cz i rly wnt 2 be a strong grl. I feel dis 2 tell u (cz u dnt know me & u cnt tell dis 2 my family 😉 😉 😛 ) & same here u cn tell anytng with me if u r feel free.. Dnt be depress. Evrythng gonna be alright. And take care f ur health. U cn write when u feel like writing. We will wait 4 u. Bt dnt be soo late.. Plzz @.@
Im soooo hpy that finally swasan r together.. Yaaahoooo.. 😀 😀 🙂 4m 2dy onward i cn see hpy , romantic , crazy wala swasan.. Thnk god. Oops.. No.. thnk u drl. 😉 😉 😉 😛
Nw enough f my bak bak.. Sry 4 bore u..
Byee
Be happy always..
😀 😀 😀 😀
Awww… chanu… Idk how I write Soo nicely?? Frankly I wonder why everyone loves this sooo much….
And I’m really happy you trusted me enough to tell me about ur feelings… I understand completely 6what that feel a like… it’s a terrible feelin6 and I’m sorry you had to know it…
But it’ll be fine… life moves on…
And yeah.. swasan are together..???
Will try to post asap…????
Cool OK?? ?
I said surprising coz I saw you really too early then I thought of.
And then again. …….
SwaSan milan
Acchaaa
…?????
Love you jafffff ????
Love you too ?????
hey!!! y isnt my comments getting posted??? i had even written a bday wish 4 u anjali but that too wasnt posted. wats wrong?????????????????
Mriniiiii…. I’ve been wondering how to contact you….
I’m actually not able to access the email account from which we chat….. that’s why I haven’t spoken to u in a long time…
How are yo??
I hope ur exams are over???
Love you!!!!!!
Sorry I’m late.. Fabulous chapter.. Very nice.. N also 50th chapter.. ??
Keep it up.. Be Happy.. ???