Requested by rabia0032 , i hope you will like it?
Be With Me
( Part 1)
Everything is sorted, everything fell back to its place. She is with me again.
Finally it feels like I got my life back after 6 months. This six months were nothing else than a living hell, where I died every moment, giving the pain to her and myself with my words but maybe I was just trying to soothen the pain of loneliness given by her. But now nothing like this will happen ever. She is back. She is with me. In my room. In my life. This time forever. But is it forever? What if she will leave me again?
Sanskar was standing in their room near the window and was fighting with his thoughts but he came back to his senses when Swara came and back hugged him.
He was startled for a moment but feeling her hands around his waist, he smiled immediately and held her hands and pulled her in front of him and looked at the serene beauty standing in front of him. All His. It will be so unfair if he will say that it was only him who have undergone the pain in last 6 months when he knew that she was equally in the pain, if not less.
He looked at her and found her looking at him already, he smiled but didnt know what to say, how to say anything. The things are not same, they are complicated. A lot.
She is same Swara who was his best friend, life, wife once and no doubt she is same now ,but the separation brought hesitation. Everything is falling to its place but slowly. Maybe it will take time to become smooth again.
“Its late, we should sleep.” He said finally forming the words stroking her right cheek with his thumb, she just hummed and they both went to bed and layed down beside each other, he took her in his arms while she complied and rested completely on him. Same like before.
***
He closed his eyes while she was looking at him, trying to forget the last 6 months and finally feeling the peace in the embrace of his Sanskar.
It is not she thinks what she is did was right, but it happened in the heat of moment. No explanations needed. She was wrong. She left him but he accepted her again whole heartedly and happily without a single argument and question. The person who loved her more than anyone, she hurted the same but in return he easily forgave her.
Ofcourse they fought a lot in last 6 months because of their ego or whatever it was. But the words other spoke came out as the reaction of the first one. But now she is happy to be with him, forever.
‘I know Sanskar I gave you lots of pain. I cant remove that but will try to compensate for it. Will give you the happiness and love you deserve and will make sure that the bad phase of our relation will be forgiven. I love you. I will not leave you now, what ever may happen now.’ She promised to the sleeping figure of Sanskar and pecked his head and slept looking at him.
***
SwaSan were sleeping, in the middle of night when suddenly Sanskar started to move in his sleep, sweat started to form on his forhead and he was murmering something, he got up with a jerk breathing heavily, looked like he had seen a bad dream. He switch on table lamp of his side and saw the sleeping figure of Swara.
The frowns on his head started to disappear, his breathing calmed down. He leaned towards her sleeping figure and brushed her hairs with his fingers.
“I thought you left me again.” He murmered to her sleeping figure and sighed seeing her sleeping peacefully beside him and pecked her forhead.
He removed the covers from himself and moved towards the balcony. He stood their holding the railing looking at the moon, and looked at it playing hide and seek with the clouds.
“What if she will leave me again? How will I live? Without her again, it was already nothing less than a hell but I cant face the same hell again. NO NO NO.. NOT AGAIN. NEVER.” He said to himself and held his head in between the palms which was threathing to blast anysecond because of the pain.
He sat down with the support of railing and was looking at the door of the room constantly, the pain started to increase more, he looked at the table and found the packet of cigrattes and picked it up.
He took out one out and once lightening it kept in his mouth.
The person who used to hate all this is using it, to forget the pain, to forget all the thoughts.
He take 4-5 to get some relief.
After an hour or so, he stood up and walked into the washroom, once brushing his teeth and using the mouthfreshner, he went to the room and slept beside her taking her in his embrace.
The left out frowns completely vanished from his head seeing her lying with him but a fear was still there in his heart, if she will leave him again.
***
Days started to pass this way, Swara never left him and made him her priority, being with her the pains or the fears in his heart were never dominant but in nights, or in the free time, when he used to be alone. All this came back running to him, he used to scold himself for doubting her but she did this before, it can not be predicted that she will not do this again.
While on the other side, Swara was living in the imaginary world of her’s. She did her best to make him comfortable and they were like before for her but she was unaware about the battle he used to play with his heart and mind daily.
Sanskar too didnt left any stone unturned to make her happy and to push away the thoughts from his mind so he used to spend most of his time with her, she used to argue sometimes and that always leads a cute knok-jhok and at end Sanskar used to win make Swara pout which results in love making.
***
One fine day,
Swara was working in the kitchen along with Ragini.
‘You know what, Swara? Aditya is coming back.’ Ragini said excitedly.
Swara’s eyes shined listening to his name, she turned towards her and gave her the bright smile.
“Sachii.?.” She confirmed, Ragini nodded.
“I am so so happy. Finally sir is coming back.” Swara exclaimed.
“You have to be afterall you are going to meet your first ever boyfriend.” Ragini teasted her, Swara hit her with her elbow.
“Shut up.” Swara showed her eyes but Ragini teased again, “Aye haye..!! Why..?? First you used to be so happy and now..??”
Saying this Ragini ran while Swara was running behind her.
This all was seen by a pair of eyes who is none other than Sanskar who have came early from office to take Swara to lunch, insecurities in his heart started to rise and he left to his room and started to smoke again.
To be continued..
How was this.?
I know you must be waiting for epilogue but that is still incomplete?? and I was not able to stop my hands from typing this as they have got a brain of their own which is not listening to me??.
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