Next morning swara didn’t go to the office, as she was only taking care of sanskar whole time. Like this few days passed. Sanskar was getting better. He tried to ask about the past many times but swara cleverly changed the topic. Sanskar felt that swara is hiding many things from him. One day swara had to go to the office for an important conference. Sanskar was sitting on the bed just then khushi comes with a food for sanskar.
Sanskar: Arrey, bhabhi, you could have sent a servant.
Khushi: It’s okay bhaiya and your dear wife strictly told me to give you food and make you have medicines.
Sanskar smiles and ate his food. Then khushi gave him his medicines. After that, she was going but sanskar interrupted.
Sanskar: Bhabhi
Khushi: Han
Sanskar (takes deep sigh): Bhabhi, I want to know what happened in these 3 years. I tried asking swara but she changes the topic. Please bhabhi I want to know.
Khushi smiles and says, “Swara doesn’t want to tell you because she does not want to hurt you.”
Khushi opens the drawer, which was beside the bed. She takes out a diary and gives it to sanskar.
Khushi: Swara wrote her every pain, every sorrow, every moment in this diary. I know this because once I was cleaning your room and I saw this diary and accidentally read few pages. Keep it back before 3 pm.
Sanskar nods and khushi goes away Sanskar opens the diary.
On the first page, he sees his photo. He then turns to the second page. He can see dried tears indicating how much swara cried while writing it. He starts reading it:
‘It has been 1 month since we left Kolkata and 1 months since sanskar is in the coma. How much I tried but the pain of seeing my sanskar lifeless and pain from past is not going away. I still remember our happy moments with our family members. But they are not our family anymore. Badepapa, whom I considered as my father and badima, whom I loved the most didn’t believe us. Sanskar respected them, loved them…I think more than mom and dad but still, they didn’t even listen to us once. Ragini, whom I considered my soul sister. She did many mistakes but still, I forgave her. I supported her but she broke all the ties from me. Laksh, whom sanskar considered as a best friend and gave him love more than a real brother and laksh broke ties with sanskar. That day was the worst and most painful day. Probably more painful than those childhood memories, when I called as an illegitimate and fatherless child. That day was more painful because I saw my sanskar breaking down. I saw my strong sanskar crying. My father, who was never my father, broke ties with ma for the third time and left us again. When I got to know that he was father, my happiness had no bounds as now I won’t be called as illegitimate. I thought he will love me same as ragini. But no he proved me wrong two times. The first time, when he supported ragini instead of me, even though it was ragini’s conspiracy against me. And the second time, on that day when ragini did my shradh.
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He never loved me as his daughter. On the same, sanskar was going somewhere and I was really scared because of the events that happened today. He didn’t come for next few hours. My heart was getting restless as if something bad will happen. When I got a call from a city hospital and I got to know..that…sanskar met with an accident. I was shattered listening to this. The only that was going through my mind was sanskar. Me, mom, dad, ma and uttara ran to the hospital. There the doctor told us that without fees he can’t start sanskar’s operation. I can’t let my sanskar die. That time I still had trust that badepapa, badima, laksh and ragini will definitely give me money to pay for sanskar’s operation. I even though they didn’t believe us due to the situation now they will definitely come running to the hospital and save my sanskar. But no I was wrong. When I went there bhaiya and bhabhi accused sanskar again and said that we doing drama to get more money. How could they even say that? I begged everyone but no one helped. That moment I got to know that badepapa and badima never considered sanskar as their son, laksh never considered sanskar as his brother. That relationship that we all shared was all fake. Bhabhi threw me out of the house.But before that, she said me something which I never expected. I didn’t tell this mom, dad, bhai, bhabhi, uttara and ma. But I am writing this in the diary. Bhabhi…called me a sl*t. She said that I attracted laksh and sanskar from my beauty. I couldn’t believe my ears that bhabhi, who used to be really sweet, could say something like that. My heart, which was already broken, broke more into the smallest pieces. That time I needed sanskar.
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I cried as I didn’t have any money for sanskar’s operation. When I was going back to the hospital, that time some goons came. They..started touching me. I was feeling disgusted by their touch. But thank god arnav bhai came and saved my dignity. He paid the fees but I couldn’t get my sanskar back. He slipped into the coma. When I listened to this, I felt as if someone snatched my heart, my soul from me. That time, arnav bhai decided to take all us to mumbai and sanskar can get better treatments there. All of us went to Mumbai but I was still in sorrow. One day, at midnight I was bringing water from the kitchen, I heard mom and Uttara crying and papa was consoling them. They were crying because sanskar was lifeless and I was also lifeless. That moment I decided that I will not cry as I have to be strong for mom, papa and uttara. Next day arnav bhai told me to join office and I found it was best option to forget that pain and come out of that sorrow. I worked in bhai’s company for few months and then started my own company on sanskar’s and mine name, ‘ss industries’
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Today is mine and sanskar’s first marriage anniversary but he is not with me to celebrate it. I still remember that day when I and sanskar went to his friend’s marriage anniversary party.
(Sanskar went into flashback, reminiscing the moment)
Flashback…
SwaSan were coming back from sanskar’s friend marriage anniversary party. Sanskar was driving the car. Just then the car stops. SwaSan came out. Sanskar was checking the car.
Swara: What happened sanskar?
Sanskar: I don’t know swara. I think a mechanic has to check and he only can tell it.
Swara: how will we get mechanic at this time?
Sanskar: Well, he will come in the morning. We have to go home by walking.
Swara: That would be fun.
Sanskar chuckles seeing swara’s childish behaviour. They started walking just then swara asks something.
Swara: Waise sanskar, what will you do on our first marriage anniversary? What gift will you give me?
Sanskar: I will sleep, eat and watch tv.
Swara gets sad and pouts, “it means you won’t do anything”
Sanskar smiles. He held swara’s hand and intertwined their fingers.
Sanskar: How can this prince celebrate the day when his princess came into his life?
Swara smiles and gets excited like a kid, “Then please tell me sanskar, what will you gift me?
Sanskar: Well princess, our marriage anniversary is after 10 months. So for next 1 month, you have to cooperate with me to get the gift.
Swara (confusedly and innocently asks): but sanskar, I am not understanding anything. What are you trying to say?
Sanskar: See, our marriage anniversary is after 10 months. Correct?
Swara: hmm
Sanskar: So, for next one month we will do something together, which will bring a good news after 1 month and then after 9 months, you will get your gift. I am pretty sure it will come before our marriage anniversary. (Sanskar smiles naughtily)
Swara: What? Sanskaar! I am still not getting it
Sanskar stops and pulls swara closer, “arrey my Mrs innocent maheshwari. I am saying that after 1 month you will get pregnant. Right?”
Swara widens her eyes and then blushes while bowing her head down.
Sanskar: Come one, if we will do lots of hard work then definitely after 1 months we will get good news.
Swara blushes more and pushes sanskar, “Sanskar, how much shameless you have become?”
Swara started to go but sanskar holds her hand and pulls her. Swara dashes with his chest.
Sanskar (huskily and romantically): Till when will you run from this.
Sanskar traces his finger on her cheeks sensuously and romantically.
Swara breathing heavily, “Sa…sanskar this…is ro..road”
Sanskar: So what, it is empty. Don’t worry.
Just then it starts raining. Both of them started running and finally, they found an empty hut. Both of them moved into the hut. Sanskar closed the door and turned around. The scene in front of him was made his throat dry. He is seeing swara drying her long wet hair. The white and pink combination saree is sticking to her body. Swara notices his intense gaze. She shies turns around. In few seconds she feels two wrapping her waist. It was indeed sanskar whose hot breath was touching her neck. Then sanskar moved her hair and kissed her back. He slowly opened her dori. Just then cloud thunders. Swara gets scared, she turned around and hugged him tightly. After few minutes they broke the hug. Sanskar picked her up. He put her softly on the grass and got intimate with her.
Flashback ends…
Diary entry continues…
That night was one of my most special night and most special moment. For the first time, sanskar talked about having our child. Today I am missing him. I spent that whole day with sanskar, in hope that now he will wake up, hug me and wipe my tears. But again this day was one of those dark days. I managed to control my tears. Because if will cry then my family will cry and I know that sanskar will definitely be sad by sensing my sorrow. So I masked that happy face. But my body, my heart, my soul is missing his warmth, his love and care. I am missing the way he calls me princess. Please wake up sanskar. Please, I am missing you.
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Today I am getting best businesswoman of the year award. My whole family rejoices listening to this news. I didn’t feel happy at all because my sanskar is not with me. My best friend, with whom I shared chocolates to celebrate happiness.
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It has been 2 years since I have written dairy because I was really busy. Everything changed. I bought a mansion which is beside arnav bhai’s mansion. Khushi bhabhi gave birth to a cute little boy. My chotu became more naughty. Uttara is also very mature now. She has completed her graduation and topped her college. Only one thing didn’t change. That is sanskar. He is still in that deep sleep. I missed him to the core. I am missing our nok-jhok, our cute romance, his care, his love, his warmth. I am still waiting for him. I still didn’t lose any hope because our love is not that weak. I will wait for sanskar for the whole lifetime.
Another incident happened which broke me again. I didn’t tell this anyone. One day, our company was going to deal with another company. When the boss of that company came to meet me. I found his gaze different, making me uncomfortable. When we were talking in the conference room alone, he held my hand…and asked me to spend one night with him. He said that he knows that my sanskar is in the coma and he can fulfil my desires. I was broken but sanskar’s love gave me strength. I wanted to slap but I didn’t want to create any scene in my office so I sternly and angrily told him to go away. When he went away, I cried and cried. Why god? Why do I always get pain. In childhood, I was regarded as an illegitimate child. I cried every night due to that. When I thought I got my father and now I will get love. But laksh, who was just my infatuation didn’t trust me. My sister tried killing me. No one believed me and called me characterless. After all this, when I realised my love for sanskar but he wanted to divorce me because of my foolishness. Then kavita came. After those events, I got married to sanskar, my love but again I was separated from sanskar because of my so-called father’s swear. When I went back to mm, that kavya thing happened then RagLak got married. I thought that finally, I will live happily with my family and sanskar. I will get the love for I craved my whole life. But again I was separated due to bhabhi. I lost my memory and accused my sanskar as a murderer. When I got my memory back, I was guilty of accusing my sanskar for something which he can never do in his worst nightmares. After that sahil drama happened. When everything was going correct again, those events happened and then my sanskar went into the coma. Now I am afraid of happiness due to the past. Whenever happiness used to come, big sorrow followed it. I am just hoping that sanskar wakes up soon because I am unable to fight with this world alone.
(Sanskar closed his eyes tightly. He was feeling angry at himself as he couldn’t protect his princess, his swara.)
Like this, he read the rest of the entries in which she wrote her pain and sorrows only. Sanskar closed the diary and put it back in the drawer.
He rested his head on the headboard and closed his eyes.
Sanskar (monologue): My princess was in great pain for three years and I wasn’t there to soothe her pain. She got pain since childhood. These 3 years have broken her completely and made her more fragile and sensitive like a newborn child who needs lots of care and love. Don’t worry shona, your prince is back. Now you won’t get any pain because I will give you so much happiness and love that you pain word will never enter into your life. But before that, i have to remove your fear of losing me. Yes, I know that since I woke up from coma, you are having that fear of losing me. Then I will give Mr and Mrs Adarsh maheshwari the punishment of their deeds and I won’t leave that man who laid his eyes on you. (Sanskar makes a tight fist that his knuckles cracking could be heard) It is a saying that a wounded lion is more dangerous. Those people have woken up the real devil, that lion in me. I won’t leave them easily. Now they will face this devil. I will give them such harsh punishment that they would have never thought in their worst nightmares also.