Tashan-E-Ishq: The Author Recognition Competition
That Single Step Lead Me Towards My Love
NOTE: This full story is just a realistic and emotional stry telling wat is true love high school love story of kunj and twinkle which will be explained as kunj’s feelings.
KUNJ’S DIARY
WE first met at their common friends party. I had originally planned not to attend but thankfully I did. That day would change me forever… When i first saw her it was love at first sight. Twinkle was breath takingly beautiful in every aspect. I had developed a crush within an instant.
At that party we did multiple things as a group such as sit around talking, even went to a restaurant. Not once however, had i given my attention to any other person the entire night. I enjoyed her company, we would laugh together and to my surprise she asked for my number. I gave it and we started texting each other the next day.
Two days later, while it seemed as though i was in a rush I had asked her out that do she like me and she had said yes! At first our relationship was slightly awkward at best. Often we ended up with awkward silences while meeting up after school. These meetings unfortunately were held in relative secret as her parents did not condone dating as she was in grade 9.
Soon however the awkward silences ended and we would talk about anything, whether it be school or friends that neither of us knew much about because we went to different schools.
Two weeks in she had kissed me. To me it was unexpected, but then again she was the type to go head first and hope for the best. I loved this about her.
One month into the relationship I had decided, I loved this girl. She meant so much to me and i would make sure she knew it. So i bought her a heart shaped pendant as a celebration for being together for one month. Unfortunately once again she beat me to the punch, telling me that she loved him.
4 months later. we had our first fight. It was something that wasn’t anyones fault really. She had gone away for a week to a camp 3 weeks prior to the ordeal and someone had kissed her. She of course didn’t share the persons feelings however was afraid to tell her love i.e. me what had happened.
However, 3 weeks later she mustered the courage to tell me. Reassuring him over and over again that she did not indeed wish for what had happened at all. I was of course upset. Not at her but it was hard for me to deal with this as i had never really done so. After a few days i decided that in the end. She still chose me and i should trust her.
1 and a half years into their relationship. We were struggling. To both of us it seemed that while the loce for eachother was there. Something was missing and something was wrong. She had suggested a break. While I was heartbroken at the thought I agreed. And thus we spent a month with no contact. Until one day she contacted him. She asked me to meet her at her house after school. The meeting was at first awkward. Both of us unsure of what to say. Both believeing that we were there to end it officially. However, we embraced eachother for a moment. And as we did all tour emotions came rushing in at once. I started to shake from grief. Suddenly afraid of ever losing the love of my life that stood before me. We looked eachother in the eyes and held eachothers gazes for a moment until our lips met and we kissed eachother passionately for what felt like hours. No words exchanged until the end of that kiss. “I Love You.” Both seemed to say it in unison and the three words echoed in our heads afterwards.
Thus we talked to eachother. Worling out all the problems we had previously kept quiet about and our relationship continued.
However 5 months later twinkle seemed…distant. I would ask what was wrong and she would tell nothing until one day as we lay there in my bed. She turned to me with tears in her eyes. This broke me beyond belief. Knowing that i was most likely the cause thoughi did not know why. So he omce again asked what was wrong. She replied with “nothing” and continued to cry silently into my chest for a few moments. SoonIhowever she looked up at me. Still crying silently as if in great pain. She asked me if i loved her. i responded by kissing her forehead and repeated words of care and love to her. She then asked me if there was someone else, of which i firmly denied. As the idea had never even crossed his mind. She asked me if someone from my school meant anything to me, if i was cheating on her with this girl(taking her name). The girl she mentioned, to me was nothing more than a friend. Apparantly someone had seen me and this friend walking to the store after school one day and began to spread rumours. I of course denied such things immediately. Repeating over and over that i loved her and would never betray her. But…she could not bring herself to believe me.
Despite this we tried to keep everything together. Meeting as often as we could and spending time together whether alone or surrounded by others. She was a cyclist and had races early in the morning on weekends and i would try my best to be there for her. I wasn’t a very loud supporter, being somewhat self conscious but i hoped that being there for her to silently cheer her on during the race was emough. After every racei would tell her how great she did. How i could tell she gave her all for the sport she loved and would tell her that i loved her and repeat how proud i was.
2 years into the relationship i was clearly sure. Sure that this was the girl for me and that i wished to marry this girl. we would have to wait until we were both of age first for obvious reasons I being 22 and her being 21 but to me that was okay. She however grew distant again.
One day she began to cry in my arms. I asked her why and she told me it was because she was afraid. Confused and worrieme asked what she was afraid of. She told me she was worried about what would happen when i will leave for university, only having a year left together before i travelled. While it was unsure for both of them was sure that i would love her nonmatter what, whereas she was worried i would find someone else, or she would think of how much she would miss me.I had of course been thinking of these things too. Even going as far as to suggest taking a gap year to my parents and then we could go off together.
I told her not to worry, that i couldn’t possibly find someone that i cared for more than her. That she meant the world and more to mme. I truly did love her beyond sometimes even my own imagining. Howevet she was doubtful of this, still shooken up slightly from the previous incidents that had occured during the relationship however the decided to enjoy our summer together to the fullest before i entered senior year.
At the beginning of my senior year everything was going well. We met often and things were looking up. Until the school counseller held a meeting with me and my parents. My grades had been dropping, for rrasons i did not know but realised if i wanted to go to the university the girl strived to get into me would have to improve. I told her of this. Telling her that i couldn’t spend as much time with her as i would like because i needed to study. This continued for a month and my grades had steadily been improving to where they needed to be.
However twinkle had been hurt. Believeing did not wish to spend time with her and that no.longer cared for or loved her. So one day she proposed a break again. I was once again heart broken by the idea. She had told me that it was to ensure both their grades stayed on track, however this wasn’t the case. We met one last time before our break began, in which she had shed tears of sadness that hurt my heart to see.
A week had passed had attempted to talk to her, asking if we could meet up and possibly ckntinue ourr relationship, however she had said she was not ready. Soon after i heard stories of her meeting with another boy. And that the two would often show up to school together and eventually walked into school with marks showing exactly what had been going on. Hearing this from a friend I was heart broken. Feeling nothing but emptiness. I fell intk a depression. Wishing nothing more than for the girl to return. Eventually a month after the initial break I would text her, asking to meet. She had responded, stating that she had to return a jacket that I had left at her house and therefore the meeting was set.
I arrived at her house shortly before her after school. All the while wondering how she would act around ME, if she would act cold or lovingly, or even just friendly. I dreaded over these thoughts and kthers for what felt like hours but was only minutes before she arrived. Having not seen her for a month i felt of a rush of emotions upon her arrival. Wanting nothing more than to break down, drop to my knees and cry but also to run to her and embrace her. I did the latter. She hugged me back and we went into the house. i was afraid of what would happen but no matter ehat i told himself that i would try to convince her, somehow or someway, i would convince her to take me back. I missed her. I had missed her for what felt like an eternity but what had actually only been a month. She fetched my jacket and handed it to me. She then proceeded to embrace me. This action of hers gave me hope. Something i needed after all the timei had spent away from her.
So…i was going to ask her, beg her to take me back. All the while hoping that i would get my feelings returned… Then i heard crying. I looked down to notice the girls shoulders shaking and felt the warm but dreadful feeling of tears on his shirt. She cried for what felt like ages. As he stood their, my arms wrapped around her and telling her everything would be okay. Until she spoke. And these words would change everything.
“I can’t take it anymore.”
I was confused. What couldn’t she take anymore. And then a thought crossed my mind. Had weaseled its way passed all the other commotion that had been going on within me for the time she spent away from me. Maybe…she was tired of me. Maybe…it was that she could no longer stand me. Maybe…she no longer loved me. This broke me…this froze my heart before i could even realise. And at that moment any words i had thought of to say to my love died in my throught along with a large piece of herself. A piece of herself that she had omly gained 2 and a half years prior but what felt like belonged there since my first day. I had hurt her. Upon this realization i could nomlonger bring herself to ask for forgiveness for i did not believe i deserved such a thing. Despite my love for her..which had still to that day been overwhelming in almostevery aspect of my life.I could not bring myself to hurt her anymore. i thought that having made her let out such painful emotions that brought her to tears was enough of a sign that she should have nothing to do with ME any longer. That I should let her go.
So I responded with what I thought was true but would turn out to be the biggest lie I had told in MY life.
“I Understand.”
A few moments later WE broke our embrace. Gazed into eachothers eyes and said our goodbyes before parting ways. To this day he would regret that decision but that STEP LEAD ME TO MY LOVE BECAUSE MY LOVE WANTED BREAK AND I HER HAPPINESS WHICH TO ME WAS HER LOVE ONLY”. The girl I loced and lost meant more to ME than i could possibly realise until she had moved on.
So with this. I say farewell to the girl I had so much love and affection for. And I hope she reads this one day and notices that she has always had a special part in my heart.
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