Hey lovely people!!!
From a very long time I wanted to pen down an idea..so here I am penning it down in the form of one shot ff…
Enjoy….
(ANNIKA POV)
How it feels to be alone despite of surrounded by people who are your near and dear ones!!! Maybe they love you a lot but is that kind of love is enough for a person who is all broken ???Do loneliness and aloneness are both different from each other ???Maybe yes…maybe no…”Why trust which seems a small word is like such a big thing to me???..I don’t know the answers to these questions…And I don’t know whether i would be able to get the answers ever………….
Many hours have been passed since I ‘m sitting in the train…As my family dropped me at the Railway Station I remembered the faces of my family members….my parents looking a little sad and worried …As my mother looked upon me with tearfilled eyes I reached towards her ears and whispered”I will be fine mom…Don’t worry”…She just nodded her head in reply…I picked upon the bags and walked towards the platfotm bidding a final goodbye….It was not like I was going for the first time but this time it was for almost indefinite period of time maybe few months…maybe few years ….all depending upon my job ….
“Mumma How much time more it will take to reach to papa “A little girl asks from her mother …a lady in her late twenties sitting opposite to my seat…
“Just a few hours more baby”….lady replied to her …
I looks towards the little girl…she is really a cutie pie…full of innocence of childhood…without any burden of life….But one thing that mostly catches my attention is her eyes… bluish green orbs just like him…
I still remembered the first time I met him….
FLASHBACK
(SHIVAY’S POV)
I was really trying to concentrate hard on what the miss was saying but the stupid giggling and lame jokes from behind..were making it hard for me to concentrate…
It was a one month short term training programme for MBA pursuits..and I wanted to give my best…I travelled all the way from Mumbai to Delhi for this..But uff this stupid girl saying stupid jokes …I was full on ready to bash upon the girl very badly so I turned my face backwards to teach her a lesson today….but as i saw her all my anger just got drained out…I don’t know from where a smile appeared upon looking her innocent ,cute and makeup deprived face which usually all the girls of the class have done overly ….and I just said…
(ANNIKA POV)
“Chup ho ja meri ma….” He said to me while having a smile…the way he turned towards me and the expressions I first saw on his face I was scared ….infact just scared is an understatement…I was just trying to cheer up my friend a bit who was having a bad day and my other friend was giggling non stop…but suddenly he smiled and his blue eyes also twinkled and I smiled too which shocked me……
That day at the time of lunch he came and sat besides me at our table…I was shocked and happy at the same time but didn’t showed it….Slowly we started conversing…his smile was really infectious… which made everyone to laugh along with him including me…which was almost rare to happen….Within short span of time we became friends…I don’t know why but he didn’t got frustated with my introvert kind of behavior ….Every living female of the class got crush on him….and he himself knows that too but took it coolly….By the time I had mastered in masking my emotions so never showed anything….
I started to laugh again I started to live again….I even gave one of my best presentation after such a long time….Old Annika started to come back….
I was really contented that day but little sad too as it was the last day of our training programme….I was just getting ready…when my phone started vibrating….my mother was there I asked her to see ….She said some Shivaay is calling while handing me the phone….Shivaay
After I finished talking…My mother aaked me “Who is this Shivaay”……”A friend” I replied…..”What kind of friend???”….”Please mom trust me there is nothing like that…We are just friends…”I said to her while a little pleading…”Trust really! Have you forgotten about the Daksh’s scene….that you are again trying to get into a mess…How many times I have to tell you to just concentrate on your studies???…Was the mess with him was not enough for you ???You are going to trust anyone like this…”…….By the time she stopped saying…I took my bag and moved towards the door swiftly with tears started forming into my eyes…”Sorry mom…I will clear out this mess” I said and just stromed out of the house….I know somewhere fears of my mother is right…Being a parent is a difficult task….
As I moved towards my seat….Shivaay waved towards me to offer the seat besides him….But just nodded my head in negative and sat beside my other friend….He was seemed a little confused but covered it up…..In the half day itself teacher called that day as completed and told us to enjoy….smiling
Everyone was happy but I was crying from inside….My friends started playing truth and dare and called me too…Shivaay was already seated…I denied firstly but went towards them after lot of insisting….Shivaay was smiling at me..but I just tried to ignore him….then the bottle was rotated it comes pointing towards Shivaay…he opted for truth…”Ok tell us your crush name!”….After listening to this question I looked upon at Shivaay too….Ours eyes met….Positive side of me wanted to hear my name from his mouth but the Negative side know it never gonna be possible and moreover it going to make it get difficult what I will be going to do…
“Annika………..”he said and looked towards me expectantly…. My heart beat stopped….tears started coming out from my eyes I picked upon my bag and started moving away from there away from all of this…someone grabbed my elbow….
“You can’t move away like this….”he said….
“I can”……while trying to wriggle out my arm from his hold
“I likes you…infact I am in love with you….”
“Don’t ……I am not worth it….”
“Why are you saying like this?….You are worth of everything…every damn good thing….You are most innocent,kind and beautiful creature I have ever seen…”
“No I am not…… stop saying crap…I know this is all crap…”
“Why can’t you trust me …all I am saying is just truth….”
“Yes thats the problem I can’t trust you….I can never trust you….Infact I can not trust any man ever in my life…….You got your answer….now just leave me…And don’t ever try to contact me ….otherwise i will kill myself….”
“Please don’t leave like this…share with me if anything is bothering you ”
“There is nothing just leave me alone”with that i left….
With that five years passed and I didn’t hear anything from him and about him apart from the news that he got engaged to someone………I know I behaved like a person suffering from Psychological problem…But it was necessary to do….And moreover what i said was true as I can never trust anyone…………………..
“Aahhhhhhh aaaahhh mumma….”someone screamed With this my sleep get broken….I see the blue eyed little girl crying while blood is oozing out from her finger….there was a cut….Before her mother comes to understand anything i rushes towards her with first aid kit which was on the front pocket of my bag…
“Are you fine little princess…show show me ….”I said to her soothing her….she stops screaming…but continue to sob…Her mother also rushed towards her engulfing her in her arms while I starts dressing her wound so that…..
“What’s your name?”I asks her to divert her mind….
“Anshi…and yours???”
“Annika”
“Thank you so much…”Her mother thanks me .
Till then my station also arrived…
“Not mention” with saying this and smiling back at the lady and the little cutie I moves on with my bags towards my station ‘MUMBAI’….I moves towards my flat provided by the company and decides to call it a early night as next day itself i have to report to the office….
POV ENDS HERE…..
Next day…
Annika reached her new office…Staff welcomed her with open hands…She moved towards her reporting head office for orientation purpose….After completing with this she started moving towards the office of her new boss……
“May I come in Sir”…she asked after knocking….
“Yes you may”Instead of a man’s voice a woman answered her….which surprised her a little…
(SHIVAAY’S POV)
“Forgetting someone is not so easy di”I again tries to explain her for about umpteenth time …with that i moves towards window having my back towards the door….
“Goodmorning sir…Goodmorning mam…”
“Annika you here!”my sister suddenly says….
Listening to Annika I turns back…..and there she is looking more gorgeous, innocent and this time all professional and sophisticated My heart starts beating fastly………..
I looks towards her eyes which somehow turned more brownish with the span of time I don’t know how….She looked upon me….While my sister get confused….
Suddenly Annika breaks the reverie as the file in her hands fall down with a thud….
“I’m sorry….”
“You should be” I says to her….with that I decides to make her life hell for the sake of revenge…
POV ENDS….
after moving out from office Annika straightly went towards washroom and broke down…But after sometimes she controlled herself as she knew she need to moveon with her life and face the demons of her past….with that determination she came back to her desk and prepared herself for the wrath of Shivaay Singh Oberoi…
For next few months Shivaay tried hard to take revenge from Annika….She was made to run all sorts of errands for whole day ….made to do all sorts of works…Even personal work of Shivaay…which she did without any complaint….infacts it somewhat leads to boosting her confidence….Even she got bonded with Shivaay’s family nicely including his sister,his niece and his brother in law….
One such day Shivaay was waiting for Annika to arrive to the office as they both were supposed to attend a meeting…Two hours passed but there was no sign of Annika….Shivaay was feeling angry as well as restless as he loves his Annika which his family already knows all about….He called his P.A. Mr.Khanna to know about whereabouts of Annika….Sometimes after Khanna came into his office having the required information….Listening to which Shivaay breaks down….
(ANNIKA’S POV)
“Have I already reached to hell??”I asked myself while opening my eyes which seems all heavy….
“What have you done pretty lady to arrive at hell???Well it is not hell it is hospital”A middle aged man wearing a white coat says to me ….probably the doctor….
“What happened to me doctor??”I asks
“Nothing to worry your cab met with an accident but there is not much to worry just a little concussion …You are lucky….”
Then I try to remember everything yes suddenly a car came towards us out of nowhere and hit the cab…
“How’s driver doctor??”I asks him further…
“He is also fine but we have given him sedatives and need to keep him here for a longer time …But if you want you can move towards your home but needs to be remain under someone’s observation for about 24 hours…”
“Ughhh that means You will be needed to keep me here only doctor as I don’t know anyone here and one I know is out of town…thinkng about Shivaay’s sister who went out of town with her whole family apart from Shivaay for 10 days”…
“She will be going to be with me doctor”as I hears his voice I stilled….
As i see towards him He seems all grief stricken….as if some part of him went away earlier is now returning back….
“I’m not going anywhere”I protests….
“Why everytime you needs to be so stubborn….??”
POV ENDS….
Shivaay took Annika with her and took care of her….After couple of days she healed completely….After this gesture Annika’s heart was melted completely….and Shivaay also realised his dormant love and decided to propose her again….
He even told his sister about this and planned a perfect evening for the same….
Annika also upon realising the feelings decided to tell all about her past to Shivaay….She wanted to trust this time….Complete trust…..
(SHIVAAY’S POV)
Annika arrived all looking beautiful and mesmerizing….
“Before you decide anything Shivaay you need to listen upon my past complete past which no ones know which I hided from you …”She said to me just after coming to the venue….
“It all started at my high school….there was a guy named Daksh…I was a brilliant student at that time…he was also good in studies….I was all chirpy,playful and confident sort of girl apple of everyone’s eye…..Everything was perfect sometimes he used to help me in studies ….For me he was a good friend….I used to trust him Shivaay…But after sometimes he started stalking me……like everywhere….firstly I thought its just a mere coindence but he just turned into a god damn stalker…..I started getting scared….confident Annika just died slowly and slowly….
“I told my parents…mom started accompanying me everywhere….but one such day I needed to went to my friend’s hoise rather urgently…while returning back this time he tried to take my hand….I started sort of running…and he started chasing me…..As we came towards road he again tried that so reflexively I pushed him and ran but as I got a little further and saw backwards he was lying on the ground in pools of blood….A car had hit him….”
“Shivaay I also died there….Real and innocent Annika also died with him…It was all my fault …..All mine……After that stalking stopped but trust issues remaiNed forever….”with that she started sobbing……….
Listening to her my eyes also glistened….I cupped her face in my palms “No it was not your fault…..Annika You need to settle that in your mind it was never your fault….”
“No one said it including my parents”she says looking like a child….
“I’m saying it…..your fault was just that you changed yourself for such a disgusting guy….No Annika you are a strong women ….I tried to trouble for 3 long mnths but you never flinch ever….That is real you……And in case of trust you will be needed to give it a chance Annika ……and I promise I will never let that chance got wasted……”
Saying I looks in her eyes straightly,pulls down a ring box from my pocket and continues….”You already knows How much I love you so I’m just getting to the point……….Will you marry me Annika ???….I promise to fight for your trust for the whole life…..Will you going to trust me on this???”
She looks towards sky and then at me “Yes……….And I will trust you completely….”
With that they moved towards maybe happily everafter…………………..
Soooo here it is guys….How’s it please tell me……your comments will be going to motivate me to write more such short ffs and my other ongoing ff too…..Silent readers please comment…….
With that……
Bye…take care….love you….
Ashlyn