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Bakhuda Tumhi Ho-
Episode:6
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‘Panic attack’
‘Paralytic attack’
‘Kunj’
“No, this can’t be. Save him Twinkle! I beg you.”, He said weekly. “Uncle would die if anything happened to him.”
She kept a hand on his shoulder assuring him her support. “I never said I wasn’t helping Yuvi. This is the sole reason I’m here.”
“Twinkle I’ll help you in every way I can. Just…”
“Ya…Ya! I know! Thank you for that.”
“So what do we do now?”, Yuvraj asked.
“Umm… Yuvi first of all, I’ll talk to him about it tonight when he returns from office. Even though there are very less chances that he’ll listen but… I’ll try because in the end we only regret the chance we don’t take.”
Yuvraj nodded in agreement and left.
Twinkle went back to completing household chores and waited for his return.
Finally he came back. She smiled at him and he was confused seeing her behavior but ignoring her, he headed straight to the room.
“Dinner?”, She asked him trying to start the discussion.
“I had dinner at the office.”
“I was waiting for you.”, She said sadly.
This angered him. He wasn’t used to anybody taking care of him or showing concern for him. “Listen Twinkle just go and have your dinner. You don’t need to fake your concern….”
“Why would I FAKE concern when I really do?”, She spoke hurt by his words. “Anyways, I’m not hungry. Good night.” She continued, walking towards the cupboard to grab her nightie.
“Wait!”, He said looking at everywhere but not her. “I’m hungry now. Bring OUR dinner here.”
Her face brightened into a smile. “Ok.”, She said and happily strolled towards the kitchen.
“He’s also concerned about me. He just doesn’t show it!”, She said to herself. “After dinner I’ll talk to him.”
They’ve their dinner in silence. After dinner, Twinkle left to put the food plates in kitchen sink.
Now, when the time has come to talk with him, she got nervous. She slowly walked towards the room and what she sees leaves her shocked.
“What the hell!”, She yelled. “I left you alone for just 10 minutes and you managed to mess up the complete room!”
Yeah right! Just to irritate her more, he messed up the complete room and sat calmly on the edge of sofa.
“Clean it!”, He said more like ordered pointing towards the mess.
“And you thought, he was concerned for you. How stupid Twinkle!”, Her inner self mocked.
She without arguing, turned the mess into a room again. He coolly said “Good night” and went to his side pretending that she didn’t exist.
She sighed, “he doesn’t even talk to me properly. How am I supposed to help him?”
She slept determined to talk next morning.
Next day:
Twinkle completed her work and waited for him to return. He came back all tired and exhausted. He fell on the bed.
“I’ll bring the dinner here.”
“Hmmm!” was his only reply.
He got up from the bed and walked towards the cupboard. He was just about to inject the syringe in his arm when he felt a soft hand holding his hand.
“Don’t.”, She forbid in a soft voice.
He was in a desperate need of it and Twinkle’s act was annoying him. As much as he didn’t want to show his vulnerability in front of anybody, the truth was that he was vulnerable now.
“Take your hands off.”, He said coldly in a dangerously low voice because he was hardly controlling his rage.
“No! It’s harming you so much, don’t you see. How dependent you’re on these. It’s high time you should stop before it’s too late. It’s either now or never.”
She was saying all this confidently but deep inside she was hell scared of his reaction.
He angrily threw the syringe and held her tightly from her shoulders pinning her to the nearby wall causing a vase to fall down. “WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO SAY ALL THIS HAAN! I HAD WARNED YOU BEFORE NOT TO INTERFERE IN MY MATTERS, THEN WHY DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND! I’M WARNING YOU FOR THE LAST TIME TWINKLE, STAY AWAY FROM THIS! STAY AWAY FROM ME!”
“It’s hurting!”, She managed to say through her tears.
“It was meant to hurt and if one more time I hear you telling me what to do and what not to do, you’ll see the worst side of me and trust me, I won’t even regret it! So you better mind your own business!”
Saying this, he pushed her and walked out of the room in rage. Twinkle’s hand landed on the broken vase and the pieces cut through her palm causing her hand to bleed.
She cried in pain but what hurt her more was Kunj’s harsh words and his rude attitude.
She somehow managed to bandage the wound with her other hand but the tears keep following continuously every time she remembered his harshness but no matter what her heart still cares.
“It’s all because of me, he left like that. He’s in so much pain. Where might he has gone at this time?”
She gets worried about him and kept calling him continuously but he didn’t receive her call. She waited for him, but he didn’t return. Somewhere in the middle of the night she fell asleep.
In the morning, she was waken up by the sound of shower running. She gets relieved that he was back. He came out of the bathroom but didn’t even look at her. She too didn’t try to talk and went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast but her wound wasn’t allowing it. She struggled to do it with one hand.
“Go and take rest.”, His strong voice came from the other side of the counter.
“No it’s Ok I can…”
“I wasn’t asking you. Besides I don’t have all day, I’ve to leave.”
“But breakfast…?”
“I’ve called the servants, they’ll do it.”, He said in the same flat tone but she could sense the concern in it.
She nodded and leaves for the room. There she sees painkiller kept on the table with a note,
_”Take them and come down for breakfast within 15 minutes”_
She sighed reading it. “It’ll reduce his pride if he apologizes.”
Within an hour, the house was filled with servants. All of them were doing their respective works.
Both of them had their food in silence. She didn’t understand what to say and Kunj also didn’t say anything. He was pretending like he didn’t know anything about that note. He saw her eating differently, actually abnormally.
He looked at her wierdly. “Twinkle last time I saw you eating like this on our wedding day, I think.”
“What do you mean by ‘like this’?”
“Like a baby elephant!”, He replied coolly.
She became angry after hearing him but she knew he was right. “Actually…. When I’m tensed, I… I eat like this.”
He was amused. “Wow! Log tension mai khaana peena chodd dete hain. Aur aik yeh hai.”, He mocked in mind.
He had his breakfast and stood up to leave. Before leaving, he turned around to look at her, “Yes! Be ready tonight. Dad has arranged a reception party for us.” She just nodded in affirmation.
She sat there in the lounge thinking about what to do next. His act of yesterday night had made it very clear that he wasn’t going to cooperate with her.
“Did it work?”, She heard a masculine voice from back.
She turned around to see a hopeful Yuvraj standing there.
“No Yuvi. He….”, She didn’t know how to frame words for his answer. “He got angry and left.”, She finally completed her sentence.
Yuvraj panicked hearing this, “Now what Twinkle? What will we do? His condition will worsen like you said? He will…”
“Yuvi calm down. There’s always a way out of every problem. Ok! Don’t freak out.” Twinkle relaxed him. “Now we’ll have to try some other way.”
“Twinkle what about medication? I mean… Even if he denies taking the medicines, we can mix them in his food, juice etcetera and give him. What do you think?”
“I don’t think that’ll work Yuvi. Detox medication works on those people whose 10 percent of body is controlled by drugs, that means at the first stage of addiction. In his case, 40 percent of the body functions under the influence of drugs. HE HAS TO COOPERATE WITH US”, She almost yelled in frustration holding her head in her hands.
“Twinkle he wants it or not, HE. IS. LEAVING. DRUGS.” Yuvraj said it with stubbornness.
“How? I mean medication and counselling is totally off. Then?”, Now she was feeling like loosing hope.
“First tell me one thing Twinkle, to what extent you can go to treat him?”
“TO. ANY. EXTENT.”she answered without thinking twice.
“So just be with him! I know I shouldn’t be saying this, but be with him despite how much he hurts you. Bring his faith back in goodness, happiness and peace. That’s only thing we can do for now.”
She was in deep thoughts hearing his words. “He’s right! I can’t help him unless he lets me and that would only happen if he trusts me enough. And I’ve to win his trust which is something next to impossible.”
Kunj’s soul was like dishevelled apartment, unless he cleans it, he wouldn’t want to invite anyone inside. He wouldn’t want to open up his fears, his past, his pain to anyone, especially someone he met just a month ago.
“Yuvi, can you tell me since when did Kunj started taking drugs and all.”
“I don’t remember exactly but… Some six to seven years ago. Yes.”
Twinkle felt bad listening this, ” That means he’s an addict since his teenage.”, She frowned.
“Hmmm.”
“Yuvi is there something that’s bothering him?”, She asked hoping Yuvraj would answer honestly.
“Ya there is. But I don’t think I should be the one telling you all this. Kunj might not like it. And by the way, be ready for the reception. It’s just three hours later.”, He said trying to divert the topic.
“Oh! I totally forgot.”
“Kunj will pick you in the evening.”, Yuvraj said before leaving.
Twinkle got ready in ‘sky blue’ lehanga with matching jewellery and tied her hair in a knot.
“Twinkle come down fast. We…”
He stopped after seeing her. She was looking absolutely breathtaking. Her dupatta was hanging sideways as she was struggling with a thin thread like ‘waistband’ to hook it up around her bare waist. Unknowingly he was staring at her waistband or let’s just say waist.
“Is it fine or should I reduce more weight?”, He taunted. He was embarrassed as she caught him staring at her waist.
“Apologize!”, she demanded.
“For?”
“Staring is rude!”
“I didn’t see anything worth looking at.”, He taunted back.
She sighed. Just then through the mirror, she saw him moving towards her. Her breathe gets hitched as he came closer.
His lips grazed near her ear and he whispered, “either stop being so tempting or stop being so difficult.”
His dominating, husky voice and proximity froze Twinkle in her place. She shut her eyes tightly.
“Twinkle!”, His voice broke the trance. She opened her eyes and saw he was holding her waistband in one hand.
“You’re not wearing ‘this thing’ from now on.”, He said throwing it in a drawer.
“Why?”, She frowned.
“Because it’s shine is drawing attention. And I don’t want anyone to look at you awkwardly.” He said bringing his face close to her ear. “Only I’ve the right to look at you.”
“By the way, why did you close your eyes? You were enjoying it na?”, He spoke with a smirk.
“In your dreams! Not even if you’re the last person on the planet!”
“Technically if I were the last person, you wouldn’t have been there dumb woman.”, He retorted with a fake wide smile.
She angrily stomp her feet and left from there.
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Once reaching the function, the car stopped with a screech. “Remember Twinkle, it’s very important for my business that this party goes smoothly so please fake a smile to everyone and pretend that we’re happily married couple.”
Saying this, he fumbled through his pocket and took out a beautiful platinum ring with a shining heart shaped diamond embedded on the top. He slid it in her finger, “Don’t remove it up til the function gets over.”
She was surprised actually shocked at his actions. Since morning, he didn’t talk to her properly or look at her but now when it’s his need, he’s being so nice. “Listen, you don’t need to bribe me to do all this.” She said looking at the ring and was about to remove it but he held her hand. “I told you, you can do anything with it once the function gets over. Till then don’t touch it!”, He said getting a bit louder.
Kunj moved outside and opened her side door like a gentleman. He extended a hand for her which she hesitantly took and got out of the car. He held her in a firm grip because every now and then, she stumbled because of her heels. Disha had asked her to wear heels as she looked quite short beside Kunj.
In the blink of an eye, all reporters gathered and cameras were flashing all over them. She felt self conscious and nervous but Kunj gently squeezed her hand assuring her his support.
They headed towards the stage and got seated. “Remember, what I said and don’t do anything stupid. Ok.” Kunj whispered in her ear and kissed her cheek. She gasped widening her eyes at his boldness. All the security and guests were giving them awed look but she was little embarrassed.
“This is the ninth time you’re reminding me this. Remember!”, She retorted keeping her voice as even as she could.
All the press gathered and started firing questions at them.
“Sir where did you two meet?”
“In India!”
“In UK!”
Both of them blurted out together and ended up saying different things. The press looked at them suspiciously.
Kunj glared at her and then his lips curved into a warm smile.
He gently squeezed her hand, “how come in India sweetheart! I mean when dad introduced me to you in India, you didn’t even talk to me properly. It was when you came to UK that we became friends and gradually started feeling for each other. Then when I realized my feelings for her, I proposed her without delaying further and she accepted.”
Twinkle was staring at him with her mouth slightly open. He lied with so much fluency and convenience that even Twinkle was wandering if all that really happened. The way he had linked their lies was so impressive.
“What did you do when you realized that you’ve feelings for her?”
“Like I said, we were dating and as soon as I realized my feelings for her, I proposed her and she accepted. I feel myself really lucky that she accepted my love. I don’t know if I would be able to live without her. So we married soon after that because we didn’t want people to spread any rubbish rumors about us.”, He said smiling at her all the time.
“Is that the engagement ring you’re wearing Mrs. Sarna?”, A reporter asked pointing towards the ring which Kunj had forcefully made her wear. Now she understood the point of making her wear the ring. It wasn’t the first time he was facing the press. He knew what they were like.
“Yes. It is!”, She replied in barely audible voice as she wasn’t used to lying like kunj.
This went on for sometime and the press bought the whole fake story without any doubt or suspiciousness.
When they thought this charade was over, a male reporter asked Twinkle, “Mrs. Sarna, how do you feel to be here. I mean from a middle class doctor to being the most eligible bachelor’s wife.”, He spoke with venom and in an irrelevant tone.
Twinkle didn’t understand what to say. She was disgusted that people think that way about her.
“Watch out your tone Mr. I won’t tolerate any ill words against my WIFE. And ask me this question. I. AM. LUCKY. TO. HAVE. HER. I didn’t chose her, she chose me.”, He honestly stated in a sharp tone while his eyes were justifying his each word.
“Ibtida tum hi ho…
Intehaan tum hi ho…
Tum ho jeene ka maqsad…
Aur wajah tum hi ho…
Bakhuda tumhi ho…
Har jagah tumhi ho… played”
Even though she hated lies, but she didn’t know why this lie was sounded pleasing to her. Unknowingly she smiled.
“Haan mein dekhun jahan jab…
Uss jagah tumhi ho…
Yeh jahan tumhi ho…
Wo jahan tumhi ho…
Iss zameen se falak ke darmiyaan tumhi ho… played.”
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