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The hot sun rays disturbed my sleep. I opened my tired eyes and saw sheela opening the curtains. I managed myself to get up.
After few minutes, I switched on the laptop while sipping the coffee. As soon as, I logged in, a notification popped out indicating his message.
‘Good morning angel!! Had a sound sleep?’
‘Good morning demon!! not exactly. Still feeling exhausted’
‘Can you guess where I am now?’
‘So you reached Delhi’
‘nope!! You will be shocked to know. I am in Kolkata’
‘Kolkata!!!’
‘yep!! Are you surprised?’
‘well!! I am surprised. What is the reason behind your arrival?’
‘you!’
‘what?’
‘I wanna meet you. can we?’
‘Not at all’
‘Please! Your fans’ request!’
I immersed in my thoughts and brought back by the beep sound, ‘angel, are you there?’
‘hmmm! Okay! we can meet’
‘Wow!! That’s cool. Tomorrow by 4 PM?’
‘okay! Meet you at Sun Shine restaurant near Howrah Bridge. Done?’
‘Done’
Sanskar, my biggest fan, that is how he does address himself often. We connected by my writings. Ten days after I posted my first story, I got an appreciation from him via an e-mail. Our friendship bloomed from that moment. It had been six months. We didn’t see each other yet we shared our thoughts. After few days of interaction, we started to address each other angel and demon. He is my laughter therapist. He knew his boundary that was what I liked in him. He never got into my personals. I was excited as well as worried with his arrival.
Finally, we both were sitting facing each other. He is fair and handsome with deep brown eyes and good physique.
‘you are not that bad, beautiful lady’, he smiled. ‘can I take it as a compliment?’, I raised my eyebrow. We both broke into a laughter. ‘well! That’s your choice’, he said.
‘Hmmm! Why did you want to meet me? any particular reason?’, I asked while sipping the juice. He played with the straw for few seconds then looked at me. His eyes were deeper than I guessed initially.
I spat out the juice, hearing his words, ‘If I say I love you, how will you react?’. ‘you had got to know. By the way, nice joke demon’, I wiped my lips with the tissue while laughing.
‘If I say, it’s not a joke’, he looked serious. I crossed my arms, ‘if I say, I am a pr*stitute’. He looked at me in horror then ‘Are you kidding me, swara?’, smiled and shook his head. ‘I am not kidding you’, my voice was serious. He looked at me in shock, ‘so Ayesha in ‘My broken Dreams’…’. ‘yep! It’s me! that is my life story’, I completed his sentence. The silence spread around us. The image of 16 years old swara flashed in my mind. I closed my eyes, reminiscing.
“After my mother’s death, I was left with only two options. One was this hell which assured my siblings future and the other one was also a hell but better than the former one without any assurance. I valued the other three lives than mine. I chose the former one. I promised that I shouldn’t regret it in future. I killed my dignity, my desires, and my soul then entered into the dark hell. In the initial days, it was really hard. I felt disgusting to see myself in the mirror. I had cried, cried and cried until left with no tears. As time passed, I started to live with the satisfaction that my siblings were living happily. We can’t predict human nature. Can we? When I came to know that for whom I bore these much pain was ashamed of myself. I was shattered. I died for second time. I was depressed. I couldn’t stop myself from helping them after that also. I was in agony for few years. I tried to kill my soulless body. But I couldn’t, I just couldn’t. I wanted to help the ones who also are in the same condition once I was. The little happiness, I got was by the financial help I did for some poor children’s education at that time. Rarely, some people would have behaved nicely. One of them was my regular client. He somewhat respected my feelings. Some nights, we just had talked to each other. I learned many things from him. Again, I learned to laugh. I started to feel that emotions are also flowing into my body other than the red fluid. Due to him, I started to discover the world by internet. I started to open up my mind to the unknown people via the sharp words. I got many people to share my views. One of them is sanskar, my one and only friend who doesn’t expect anything from me and does respect my feelings after that man. Whenever, some feelings beyond the friendship arose in my heart I just discarded it”
My thoughts disturbed by a phone call. After speaking to the caller, I looked at the man and the greediness of being loved by someone, protected by someone, cared by someone again arose in my heart. I took a deep breath, ‘I have to go’, I said and walked passing him but stopped. My eyes welled with tears. He held my wrist. His touch was so gentle.
After, ten years, I was feeling a touch with warmth and affection. I blinked hurriedly and turned. ‘what? Can’t resist my beauty? Do you want me too?’, I devilishly grinned. He stood up and I expected him to leave my hand in shock but he failed me. ‘yep! I want you. I want you for lifetime. I love you, your heart and soul. I …’.
I released my hand from his grip and ran from there. Unknowingly, the tears fell from my eyes. He shouted my name and ran behind me. At last, he caught me. We were standing on the Howrah Bridge. He wiped away my tears. His face was glowing due to the twilight.
‘Will you allow me to brighten your dark life with colors? Will you allow me to protect you from the evils? Will you allow me to care for you? Will you allow me to shower love on you? Will you allow me to stand by you in difficulties? Will you allow me to take your responsibility? Will you allow me to design a wonderful present and future with you? Will you allow me to grow old with you? Will you allow me to marry you, swara?’, he became teary eyed.
I nodded negatively while tears endlessly flew out of my eyes. He hugged me. The more I resisted the more his grip tightened around me. Finally, I gave up and hugged him back.
Unpredictable life!!
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