I wanna heart to die but not soul to live – episode 21

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Anika room

when chanda will bring Shail I’ll leave this place forever.
But what about Gauri and Bhavay both are my responsibilities i’hv to think about them too, though they start hating me but still i’hv to fulfill my promise.

I hope omkara and Rudy have understood their feelings for Gaya. But what about somaya.

Bhavay room
All Gaya and shivomru were present there

Gauri- di is really upset with us and have u notice Bhavay, Anika di changed the locks so we don’t go to her room

Bhavay- yes di, this time Anika di won’t forgive us easily and have u notice she was not talking to us properly

Om- bhabi is keeping distance for all of us and for that she called the engineer

Shivay- was thinking about something else and he didn’t bother them

Rudy- Shivay bhiaya what r u thinking

Shivay- nothing but I’m sure something is cooking in Anika mind. Guari if u don’t mind can u tell me ur mom is no more, I’m sorry for that but where’s ur dad

Gauri- I don’t no come Bhavay Dadi was calling us.

Shivay- notice their disturbance

Om- Shivay what u think? Why they don’t want to talk about their parents

Shivay- Om I don’t know but whatever it’s really big that all thrio never spoke about them. You no Anika used to say she don’t have any family nore she knows about them, then how come she is “Rajput”

Rudy-  might be she has found them u know Anika bhabi she’s ” Jaaga Jasoos”

Om- shut up Rudy it’s serious

Rudy- O why u always think I’m joking , I’m serious

Shivay- Om I think Rudy had a point. And if Anika dad is alive why he’s not in Rajput Mansion, and none no about them even i don’t know.

Bhavay- bhaiya’s and Rudy Dadi is calling u all for dinner

Shivay- omru u guys have ur dinner, I’m not hungry

Rudy- Shivay bhiaya come na

Om- Rudy come with me.

Shivay- i’hv never seen this side of Anika i was so self-centred that I never notice that she was “mirror with cracks and I kept  hitting it with my NKK ideologies and see she’s all broken

Anika- I was happy with my life only Shail was my family. We both were happy in our small world but then my misfortune how can it leave me alone and let me live in peace. And she fist her hand on wall.

Bhavay- knocked on Anika door. Di Dadi is calling u for dinner

Anika- Bhavay I’m hungry at a moment when I’ll be  feeling hungry I’ll have it by myself

Bhavay- di open the door at least

Anika- Bhavay I’m busy right now don’t distrube me

Devi g- Bhavay again she said no for dinner na.

Bhavay- g Dadi

Devi g- Gauri beta go and call her .

Gauri – g Dadi

Devi g- yes now Devi Singh Rajput will talk to Anika Singh Rajput. Go and call her

Gauri- Anika di come downstairs Dadi g wants to talk to u come fast she’s furious

Anika- open the door and ask why she’s getting  angry what happened to her

Gauri- ask yourself

Anika- now what Dadi have to pov ? G Dadi why u r getting angry

Devi g- beta what’s this Bhavay called u for dinner and u ask her to go from her

Anika- Dadi I’m  not hungry

Devi g- fine than I’m also not having

Shivay- too came

Anika- Dadi sach main humaye bhook nahe hai  sneezing (aachuu)

Devi g- Anika beta why u r sneezing?

Shivay- glance Anika and smile

Anika- Dadi i don’t know come let’s do dinner

Devi g- come today I’ll make u eat

Gauri and Bhavay aur humaye bhi dadi

Dadi- Shivay why u r standing come join us for dinner

Shivay- yes Dadi I’m hungry

Jhanvi- after such a long time we r dining together

Dadi- yes jhanvi after so many days my family look complete

Rudy- and it’s all because of our Anika bh..

Anika- give shirty look to  Rudy

Rudy- I mean Anika di

Devi g- have it

Anika- after few bites bus Dadi aur nahe kha sakhti

Devi g- beta what’s this u have hardly take 5-6 bites

Anika- please na

Devi g- ok come ihv talk to u about Gauri and Bhavay marriage

Anika pov- thanks God Dadi herself start this topic

Dadi- if u guys don’t mind can I join u

Devi g- come preeto after all it’s ur grandsons marriage too

All gather in hall

Devi g- so Anika what’s ur decision about this

Anika- what can I say both Gauri and Bhavay are grown up they have the right to decide about themselves. I’m correct Gauri and Bhavay

Gauri and Bhavay feeling guilty for what they did with Anika yesterday

Pinky g- oho mummy g and devi g why Anika have to decide where’s your son and daughter-in- law

Anika- got angry and she left from there

Shivay- feel Anika pain

Dadi- too felt bad. Pinky can’t u stay quite why u also talk wrong on correct time

Pinky aunty- mummy g what i’hv said wrong after all we have right to ask them that where are the parents of brides as it’s important na that parents should be here when it’s marriage

Jhanvi- Pinky stay quite

Devi g- I think we should talk about this tomorrow it’s getting late and u all r tired right pinky. Good nite preeto

Omru took Gauri and Bhavay along with them
 Shivay to follow them

Gauri- choti maa did very bad I don’t know what’s Anika di going through she’s not letting me in to her room

Omru- we all have seen Anika bhabi yesterday she was in pool of pain her heartbroken . I don’t why she’s so calm

Gauri- even I’m thinking the same after so many years that door was open but why she’s not saying anything

Shivay- shouted because usay kuch bhi yaad nahe hai.

 Bhavay- what?

Shivay- yes today i’hv seen Anika talking to herself that what happened last night how come i slept in too maa room.
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Pinky- smirks there’s something fishy the moment I talk about Anika parents her face changed million colors and definitely there’s a deadly past which if I dig ” it will be dead alarm  for Anika Singh Rajput” but for that I want Ragini help and I have to do something to give ragini entery to Rajput Mansion.

Anika- was getting restless  how can Pinky aunty can question about  my parents.

Devi g- was crying while caressing dev pictures. Dev so many years have passed i’hv seen u but what u did was wrong to but still u r my son

Anika- peeking Dadi was feeling bad for devi g.  Then she move towards Bhavay room who was too crying for her parents.

Shivay- was spying  on Anika.

Anika- move towards pool side how can I be so selfish not me but Dadi and Gaya need their son and father who I’m to separate them. I’m just here for few days but Dadi need her son.

Shivay- what she’s thinking and aren’t she’s sleepy . What to do if I tried to talk she will get angry and which I don’t want.

Anika- walking like reborts

Shivay- any problem Anika. Don’t think that I was peeking u it’s just I was not able to sleep so..

Anika- have i asked u why u came here? Not na then why u r giving me justification Mr Oberoi

Shivay- again u called me Mr Oberoi

Anika- glance him and she moved from there

Shivay- Anika talk to me, please if u angry with me hit me , beat me, throw water on me but please talk to me.

Anika- where should I go from him? The more I keep distance from him the more he gets close to me uff. She tried to sleep but memories hitting her.
Anika opened the side drawer and took sleeping pills and taken 2-3 pills for  few days i should  leave for farm house where I’m just alone I want to be alone
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Next day

Anika- step down

Shivay- this lady is going to give me heartache day by day she’s forcing me to get wild over her.

Rudy- bhaiya muh to baand karo

Devi g- beta r u fine.  Yesterday….

Anika- Dadi i need to talk to u in alone

Devi g- ok come

Anika- Dadi I’m going somewhere for 2-3 days but don’t tell any1

Devi g- why beta? U came here just week goes and again u want to leave ur Dadi alone

Anika- Dadi please na try to understand i feel suffocated here and I don’t want to trouble u. I know u r missing ur son but just because of me u r not able to meet him

Devi g- beta why u r getting far from us. What’s the reason and u r more important for me than dev

Anika- let me go please na i promise I’ll be back in few days

Devi g- ok fine if u want to u can. I want stop u but take care of urself

Anika- thankyou dadi

Bhavay- di r u going somewhere?

Anika- yes

Shivay- ab yeh kaha jaa rahe hai

Anika- Gauri don’t let Bhavay to have peanuts

Driver- chalye madam g

Anika- no give me the car key and bring these files.

Gauri- I know she’s increasing distance from us. I wish some miracle happenes and di sat back

Chanda – Anika

Anika- turned back

Chanda- r u going somewhere? See he’s back

Shail- Anika di

Anika- Shail and hug him

Shail- di r u going

Anika- first i was but not now and why? U haven’t told me

Shail- Arry Anika di i want to surprise u. SSO is also here and Shail hug him

Shivay- too reciprocates but was looking Anika and pov after such a long time she’s meeting Shail but no excitement.

All greet Shail

Devi g- Anika now I guess u won’t go

Rudy- how can she go Dadi when Shail is here

Anika- u both rest. Shail don’t do any masti I’ll see u in evening

Shail- yeh Anika di ko Kya huwa hai?

Gauri- Shail come with me I’ll show u ur room

Bhavay- thanks God Shail did entery on good time otherwise Anika di have gone

Shivay- now chanda is here I’hv to ask her about Anika but not now let her rest

Anika- now Shail is here i think I should talk to Shail if he wants to come alone with me to Canada or not
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Anika- came back and she ask Gauri for Shail

Gauri- Anika di have u seen the time it’s 10:00 pm nor am and Shail is sleeping he was waiting for u but

Chanda- Anika come with me I need to talk to

Anika- I also want

Shivay- was contionusly looking Anika and devi g was looking Shivay

Devi g- my six sense is saying that there’s definitely something between Shivay and Anika. Is Shivay behind all this i have to find.

Chanda- Anika wants this u haven’t taken ur medicines see packet is full. Chanda cupped  her face anika please try to understand that it’s dangerous for u. U can die if u…

Anika- that’s none of ur business and next week I’m going back to Canada and I think u should stay back to india and get married and thanks what u did now go i’hv very few days left in India and I’hv settle down everything here too

Chanda- but why Anika? Why

Shivay- what both of then are doing? Why they are taking this much time i’hv ask chanda

Devi g- why? U r so conscious about Anika i’hv notice many times that u also want to get near Anika and she wants to be away from u.

Shivay- it’s nothing like that dadi g I’m just

Devi g- I hope so that it’s nothing like that

Gauri and Bhavay took the control over the situation

Chanda- not it’s enough today I’m going to tell Shivay about Anika health and she step down..
Shivay I need to tell u very important thing

All were tense

Shivay- yes chanda say it want is it please let me

Chanda- Anika is not fine

Devi g- what u mean? Kya huwa hai

Flashback:

Chanda- Dadi did u remember when u meant Anika in hospital blood was oozing from her wrist    and feet she was completely lost and was just crying day past but she was not getting stable. You requested me to take Anika   to Canada.

Devi g- yes I said because Anika was not telling me the reason and Dr also said that change the environment so

Chanda- Dadi u changed her place but not her heart all the time she use to cry, what’s rest all she has forgotten , no proper food nore sleep. 

One day she  fainted i called the doctor and she said she’s taking stress and not taking proper diet  which is not good.
Then Mr dev Singh Rajput came to Canada

Devi g- yes I ask him to go and talk to Anika

Chanda- Mr Dev spoke to Anika that she has to change herself and I don’t know what they had pov but after that Anika start working
All the time busy in work and work and this was effecting her brain badly.

We were in office busy with work  and suddenly Anika headache badly that she start screaming.
I took her to hospital she was admitted to hospital for 2 days.

Dr Mark and Shanaya examined her.. They also couldn’t conclude what’s the problem and they just ask me to and advice Anika that don’t take stress and sleep properly.

Anika instead of acting upon this she became a working machine. The only aim of her life was to earn more and more. She forget to smile, laugh, no more tears and what’s pain she ever again felt it.

“Anika became totally lifeless soul”

I understood she was all doing to forget u “Shivay” which was and still difficult for Anika.

Devi g- slapped Shivay i knew it u r the one who did this. Tum nay meri poti ka Kya halat kar di.

Shivay- I’m sorry Dadi

Chanda- listen to me first….

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Percape  to be continue…….