Will you be without me? Chapter 24

Telling my feelings to him….

Both of them were happy about the hugs and Pragya was really feeling the happiness of being with him. Pragya felt that she should share her feelings to Abhi so that she can clarify whether is this love? or just the happiness of being with him. She knew that he will be the only person that can help her in this matter. But she was thinking on how to tell him all these? What if he misunderstands me? Pragya thought whatever it is that she have to tell him and before that she wanted to ask him something too. The next day, Pragya woke up and went to see Abhi again in his room and luckily he was awake and she went to ask him something. Pragya “Boss! I want to ask u something!” Abhi “What?” Pragya “U are also staying alone? I mean why I never see any of your family members?” Abhi “Hmm all had went to Delhi to attend a wedding and will be back after a few days!” Pragya “Oh I see! Ok then I shall take my leave today and have to resume my work too!” Abhi “Pumpy! Why so fast? Stay here na…I also will have accompany! It will be very boring if I am alone….” Pragya “But I have work! How can I stay here?” Abhi “Pls…Just for today u take a day off…To spend time with me!”Pragya couldn’t say no to his request and agreed to take a day off. And of course Pragya felt that by today that she have to share her feelings to him.

Abhi told that his plan today was to bring her for lunch and she was also very happy about it. Abhi “ Ok! U go and get changed and I will also freshen up! After that we shall go out!” Pragya got ready and came out of her room. Abhi was dumbstruck by the way Pragya was dressed up. She was wearing the same saree as his mother used to wear. It’s a red saree that she was wearing and he had no words to express how he was feeling. Pragya “Why are u looking at me like this? Is the saree not nice? But this is what I could find in the room and that’s y I said I go to my home first but u insisted me to stay here!” Abhi “No…It’s really nice and beautiful just like the way my mother used to be in sarees!” Pragya “Oh this is aunty’s saree? Ok shall we leave if not it will be too late right? That’s what u said just now…” Abhi was keep on looking at Pragya as now she reminded of her mother but he was unable to tell that. Both of them left the house in a car and reached the venue.
Pragya “I have been here quite some time but didn’t know there is such a lovely restaurant like this!” Abhi “Hmm it’s a new one though…actually it’s under my franchise and that’s y I brought u here!” Pragya “Oh I see!” Both of them had a hearty lunch but both their minds were occupied with a lot of thoughts. Thoughts about each other….
Pragya thought that somehow she should share about her feelings to him and as for Abhi, he was just admiring the beauty in front of him with the thoughts of Will she be mine?
Pragya “So what’s next?” Abhi “There is a park nearby shall we just a take a stroll there?”
Pragya “Ok sure boss! Have to walk ford digestion after the heavy lunch that u have given to me!!” Abhi smiled at her reply and both walked to the park.

Pragya, shall I tell him now, it seems that he is in a good mood as he is always smiling. Ok Pragya just tell but I can’t tell facing him and it will be very tough…. What shall I do? Ok let me ask him to sit down there and from there I can manage!
Pragya “Shall we sit down there for a while?” Abhi “So fast u feel tired ah? We had just started to walk!” Pragya “Please just for a while…” Abhi couldn’t say No as she was too cute when she requested. Both of them went to sit there and were chit chatting about a lot of random things and then Abhi said “ Shall we leave?” Pragya “ Ok!” She waited for him to stand up first and she was pretending to take her purse and looking for something. He walked a bit in front of her and realised that Pragya was still behind him and was about to turn behind and that’s when Pragya said “ Don’t turn! I want to tell u something but I can’t tell u when I am facing u!” Abhi“What? Why? Are u scared of me or what?” Pragya “Not scared but don’t turn ok?” Abhi “Ok fine and faster tell what u want to tell!” Pragya “I am feeling a bit strange nowadays…Strange towards u….It started from the time when u left Pune and I was really missing u badly! I have never felt like that before but for some strange reason it was painful without seeing u! A pain that was pleasant and until now I am confused why I felt like that way….and when u started to avoid me for the past few weeks it became worse! I was scared that I am losing ur attention…actually not attention but the affection that I will get from ur attention…and that’s y I made u come to the hospital…To get ur attention and affection…Sometimes I ask myself why do I expect all this from u? But whenever i think about that the only thought that comes is why not expect all this from u? I really don’t know what kind of feeling is all this!! Is this love or friendship? Can u tell me? And I think u are the only one who can answer to this question….”
Pragya was now in tears after pouring out all her feelings and was just looking down and waiting for his response. Abhi still didn’t turn around and he was now on cloud nine. So all this while she wanted my affection just like the way that I was thinking about her. He turned around and saw her. He went near her and asked her to sit down on the bench. Pragya “Did I tell anything wrong? And why are u so silent?” Abhi “U have not told anything wrong Pumpy! It’s exactly what I wanted to tell u! And to ur question is this love or friendship? Will u accept whatever answer that I give u?” Pragya “Yes whatever it is I am ready to accept it as I have full faith in u!”
Abhi “ It is love Pumpy…the love that we have for each other for our thoughts, feelings and emotions…I don’t know whether this love is love at first sight but its love that had happened over many meetings…that’s y whenever we meet it was interesting…U know something? The time that I kissed u…I myself don’t know why I did that but after doing that I felt happy for some strange reason… Our love had started from that moment and it has developed through all the time that we met each other!” And with that he kissed her lips the same way that he did in their first meeting. But now it was more passionate. Pragya was taken aback by the sudden kiss but she felt not strange anymore as this is his way of showing his affection for her.

Abhi does not want the moment to move on as he just wants to be in her solace as his heart has gone to her leaving him alone….
Yeto vellipoyindi manasu plays…

Yeto vellipoyindi manasu…Illa ontarayindi vayasu
My heart has gone leaving me all alone…I have no idea where it is
O challa gaali aachooki teesi kabureeyalevaa emayindo
O gentle breeze…can you trace my heart and let me know where it is?
Yeto vellipoyindi manasu…Illa ontarayindi vayasu
My heart has gone leaving me all alone…I have no idea where it is
O challa gaali
O gentle breeze
E snehamo kaavaalani innaalluga teliyaledu
I did not know till now that all I need is your companionship
Icchenduke manasundani naakevvaru cheppaledu
No one told me that our heart is meant to be bestowed to our love
Chelimi chirunaama telusukogaane rekkalochaayo evito
I feel like flying in the air as I got to know whereabouts of my love
Yeto vellipoyindi manasu
My heart has gone leaving me all alone
Kalalannave koluvundani kanulundi em laabhamundi
What is the purpose of those eyes if they cannot nurture our dreams
E kadalika kanipinchani silalaanti bratukendukani
What’s the point in living life like a sculpture expressing no emotions
Thodu okarunte jeevitam entho vedukoutundi antu
Every moment of life would be a celebration in the company of your loved one
Yeto vellipoyindi manasu
My heart has gone leaving me all alone

Yes Abhi’s heart had gone to Pragya and leaving him all alone so he just want to be with her and get her heart in return….
So what’s next? For that u all have to wait and it may be a longer wait as I am not free for the upcoming days…
Hope u all like the Telugu song that I used…